im miserable and i dont know why

today i was trying to tune my drums and all of the sudden, i snapped, i cant think straight, i actually thought about cutting myself and stopped myself after i found a sharp object, everything feels unreal, i feel like suicide is the only way but i would never kill myself.. i dont want to feel miserable anymore what do i do.. im not on any drugs right now.. it went from anger, to miserable... i feel anxious, i dont want to smoke weed to make it go away because this is more serious than ive ever gotten

write a song

"IM MIS-RABLE AND I DONT KNOW WHY!!!!
THINGS JUSTFUCK UP NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY!!!!!
ID SLIT MY WRISTS BUT I DONT WANNA DIE!!!!!!"

Instead of telling us stoners from all over the world who can't personally help you, tell someone who CAN help you.

Don't wait any longer my man. ~

If you are like me, then taking its a plant's advice isn't for you.

If you aren't crazy though, then do what he said.


Otherwise do this, find a corner and lean your head into it, when your head is in the corner put all your weight on it. Then muble and talk to yourself about the problem till dawn, then reflect.

Shoulda been friends with Jesus Christ. Either that or smoke 10x more Budda.

hahah u vent to a bunch of stoners..and yet u dont accept any of the advise given? lol wth do u want us to do? feel sorry for u? lolz ...wat a sap

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hahah u vent to a bunch of stoners..and yet u dont accept any of the advise given? lol wth do u want us to do? feel sorry for u? lolz ...wat a sap

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what the fuck i haven even responded yet

and im not asking "stoners" im asking human beings

all of you who are assholes can go fucking die

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If you are like me, then taking its a plant's advice isn't for you.

If you aren't crazy though, then do what he said.


Otherwise do this, find a corner and lean your head into it, when your head is in the corner put all your weight on it. Then muble and talk to yourself about the problem till dawn, then reflect.

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I don't know if im crazy but i sure do think about alot of weird things, i think about how were made up of cells, atoms, matter, its so odd, i think about how the world is a shithole, i htink about how the hell did an anti drug law get passed if its unconstitutional

i wrote this while i was still blinded with misery, i dont know who else to talk to

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what the fuck i haven even responded yet

and im not asking "stoners" im asking human beings

all of you who are assholes can go fucking die

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Seriously, don't listen to them it is best to ignore those kind of people they are just assholes looking for attention, but honsetly it's good you have come to forawrd to try and vent. But with suicidal thoughts it's always a good idea to talk to a professional, I go to a wonderful counselor here in my town, but it's still good just to talk to your friends and family about these kinds of situations.

I personally have gone through a similar sutation, but mine went a bit farther to actually cutting, one thing that helped was to still smoke, but in very small amounts not so much to actually get high. Also you might try getting out more, hang out with your freinds more. I'm sure you can always vent on here, but again you probably want to see a proffesional about this. Also remember talking to someone about your problems always helps at least a little.

edit: your not crazy a lot of people have this problem every now and then but some are complete assholes and wont admit it and resort to insults.

I hope I'm not one of the assholes. If so, not my intent. But stewing over stuff as serious as this most likely won't get you anywhere but trouble. At least TRY talking to a professional before writing them off. That's why they're there.

Best of luck amigo. ~

I'm feeling better after some McDonalds, im going to smoke a bit and then watch the war at home and sleep. Sorry for yelling, saying shit, you know thats not me, but I was just really frustrated. I think if this ever happens again im going to see a shrink. It was the most overwhelming thing ever. God damn puberty/whatever else may cause wtf is going on.

Lol The War at Home is surprisingly funny.

And I totally believe that puberty is some of the toughest shit to get through.

Hang in there. ~

if your gonna cut yourself, don't be a pussy about it. you wanna feel pain? cut the inside of your thighs.

anyways, i don't think you should cut yourself. i reckon you should spend the day with a friend who makes you feel good about yourself. females are preferrable. they listen well and they're excellent to cuddle.

Well, you're not crazy enough to cut yourself so that's good. Keep up the good work.

Go to a quiet place and meditate. That should help you out.

Yeah, I never understood why people cut. It seemed so retarded, why not just do something else to take your anger out? Make holes in things, scratch your desk with a blade or something like that. Now I truely understand what goes through peoples heads. I was actually so desperate I just grabbed a piece of metal and broke it in half so it was sharp. I don't think i'd actually go through with it because deep down, I know nothing is fucking wrong.

Get a punching bag.

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i wrote this while i was still blinded with misery, i dont know who else to talk to

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i wasnt trying to be an ashole, if you think i was. when im feeling like you were i write a song, it feels good to get your feeling down on paper and who know? maybe what you right will be really good

Like someone else said above...talk to someone who can help you. It sounds like you had a panic or anxiety attack with maybe some other shit that a doctor can better help you with. Whatever you do, don't ignore it.

Good luck.

Wow, I am so high right now. Marijuana is my anti-depressant

Wow, I can't even imagine how I was miserable in the first place. I am so high.

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i dont want to smoke weed to make it go away

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Wow, I can't even imagine how I was miserable in the first place. I am so high.

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lol

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lol

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I was feeling better so I smoked... I smoke every night. I dont know why i freaked out, maybe because I havent been sober in like, 4 months and I didnt smoke last night.

Shit i been pretty bad down too and suicide is definitely an option for me someday because to stop my depressed thoughts i said ill give it a try. ima have a great life or die having fun. get it? ima make money and have fun however i want and if i get arrested over this shit that i love ill end it smoking a huge blunt and flying out a plane. Weed is the adrenaline shot the doctor gives u to come back to life. Straight in the heart this chronic gots me through the worst of times. im 15. Roll a full peach optimo or philly grape if ur low on weed dont cut it just use a lil leaf or bacco and sit soemwhere silent and good. i liked to jump out my window and go sit in this chair completely private no police gonna ruin m life and actually in the street light this really tall tree looked like a huge bud with red hairs all over. Smoke that blunt in thirds and think and think the higher you get the better the thoughts and ur ready to face ur life.

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I was feeling better so I smoked... I smoke every night. I dont know why i freaked out, maybe because I havent been sober in like, 4 months and I didnt smoke last night.

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As long as you feel better is what's important.
Getting depressed or down in the dumps is kinda normal. You just need to be able to ride it out or know when things get bad enough that you get some help. Call an ambulance or do whatever you have to to save yourself.
Smart people that want to live get help. You seem smart. Take care and Merry Christmas or whatever you celebrate. (I do hanukkah & Christmas)

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I'm feeling better after some McDonalds, im going to smoke a bit and then watch the war at home and sleep. Sorry for yelling, saying shit, you know thats not me, but I was just really frustrated. I think if this ever happens again im going to see a shrink. It was the most overwhelming thing ever. God damn puberty/whatever else may cause wtf is going on.

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Ahhh I was reading this thread, feeling so sad, trying to think what to say...Mr. Plant gave some very good advice. You do need to talk to a professional even though you self medicate with weed talking to a therapist will help. It gets your mind off the other stuff and they teach you coping mechanisms that you can use if start feeling that way again. Lots of people feel down every now and then.

I have to confess I did crack up laughing when you said you were feeling better after McDonalds...did you get the Happy Meal :D LOL

tokinasian what were you thinking with the cut the thigh comment. geez!

It is just a matter of re wiring the brain with those people that cut themselves. They do it to forget the way they are feeling some time in their life they made the connection that pain stops them from feeling bad feelings and once the brain makes that connection each time they do it the connection gets stronger. It is a matter of messed up connections and while it seems crazy to us it is really not their fault. They need to get help to stop that brain connection cycle.

Have you ever watch the movie What the Bleep....it explains a lot.
I am glad you are feeling better. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3QlZ5...elated&search=

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today i was trying to tune my drums and all of the sudden, i snapped, i cant think straight, i actually thought about cutting myself and stopped myself after i found a sharp object, everything feels unreal, i feel like suicide is the only way but i would never kill myself.. i dont want to feel miserable anymore what do i do.. im not on any drugs right now.. it went from anger, to miserable... i feel anxious, i dont want to smoke weed to make it go away because this is more serious than ive ever gotten

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I dont get how that could suddenly just happen..

I've tried killing myself before and dont do it, trust me it sucks. i was drunk as a mo fo and got a huge jaggered knife and sliced it across my wrist.. now i've got a huge scar underneath my sweat band that will never go away and that will always be there as a reminder of how stupid i was.. day after that my gf split up with me, i dropped outa college about week later, and now shes datin my old best mate.. but im not really depressed anymore.. i was just hiding it away which was a bad thing because it was just building up and waiting to escape until one day it did and the doctor said i was VERY lucky to not cut a vein, i cut so deep you could literilly see my main vein sticking out, i basicly slashed off all of my skin. The scars acctually gotten worse over past few weeks even tho i did it months ago. But yeah if you still feel like that seroiusly find sosmeone you can talk to. Not some stranger on the internet but someone you know, a friend maybe? trust me, friends can help the most.. family just makes it worse. My dad said he'd stop tellin me about the things my mum's been doin instead of coming to see me anymore after i got outa hospital and my mum said she'd try and see me once a week.. but nothin changed. I havnt seen my mum in months (oh yeah shes comin round tommorow acctually bein christmas n all) and my dads still a constant reminder that my mums never there for me. But fuck em.. you sometimes just gotta reallise that you need to stop thinking of how to make yourself a better person or how to get certain people back in your life.. might sound selfish but fuck anyone you love or care for and honestly just think about and for yourself for the time being, and defintly talk to someone like a friend instead of hiding away you're negative feelings

this is coming from someone who's been where you are

ur too smart for ur own good, ur brain works differantly

we all go through times like these. so take some time & see a person that you feel comfortable talking too and discuus things with them.
hope you feel better & a merry christmas to you.

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I've tried killing myself before... got a huge jaggered knife and sliced it across my wrist... day after that my gf split up with me... and now shes datin my old best mate...

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that's some cold hearted shit right there bro. :(

i'm glad you've moved on and it's relieving to hear about someone actually surviving that kinda emotional battering.

good on ya.

you're lonely and depressed. it happens to many many people.
i've felt the same, you know what really helped? i got into Buddhism and meditation. i suggest you go buy some books off amazon

i recommend the following:

The Tibetan Book of the Living and Dead
The Tao of Pooh
really anything by the author Alan Watts
and same with Jack Kerouac. he's a fictional writer his book Dharma Bums is great, it's about being a modern buddhist

mainly you gotta get your mind off things man. don't dwell on bad emotions.
weed can make it even worse since it intensifies feelings, if you're depressed itll make things worse. i highly suggest you start meditation. just sit, close your eyes, stop thinking and focus on your breath. breathe naturally in an out into your belly and focus on nothing but the natural breath.