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lately i have been smoking all day long to try and get away from pretty moderate depression that i've only recently discovered i've had for going on a few years now. i completely rely on dope to get me through my thoughts of negativity/uncertainty/trying-to-be-someone-else that occur all the time...it's getting pretty pricey now too...
so is anybody else like me? anybody else depend on mary jane to make their obviously shitty life have less shittyness going on?
dont use weed as an escape.. its just not good.. there are certain times when i blaze cuz im really pissed or somethin like that, but other than those times i just blaze it cuz its somethin that me and all my friends love to do and its just great..
I started weed as an escape, but I don't use it like that anymore.
I doubt that it would be possible for me to use cannabis to escape negative thoughts as I usally sink deep into my own mind and simmer in a pool of my own thoughts.
I use it to relax and chill, at the end of a day, and to help me sleep.:jointsmile:
thats how it goes....
"if i dont smoke, then i aint smilin, i aint eatin, i aint sleepin, and I aint fuckin with no broads if I aint weeded, cant let em stress my mind, ill get with ya'll later, when I get high" - krayzie bone
hmmm...doesn't sound like a healthy thing to me. weed stops being a hobby and starts being a problem when you use it for the wrong reasons, but hey, to each his own.
i have smoked all day every day for 25yrs not trying to escape as i know there is no escape just love being stoned .about 5 yrs ago i stopped smokin for 6 mths just to prove a point that im not dependent on it.
you need to make a list of the things that are bothering you in your life. what do you want to be? why aren't you there? if your depressed, it's usually because there is something that is supposed to be in your life taht isn't. sit down and try to understand wahts eating at you, then set about to change it. unless you want to spend the rest of your life stoned and sad. I was this way a feew years ago and found my ttrue calling in life. music. I now know that i want to be a recording engineer and play music with my friends. (money or not, i'll be happy). find what makes you happy and embrace it entirely whether its a person, a hobby, etc... you can get through it man but its gonna take some effort on your part. the biggest thing to remember is that healing takes time and you can't expect results from no effort. baby steps my friend. you will get there.
good advise,also remember who u are,dont try to be someone else,people will respect you for it,if they dont they have the problem not you,best of luck in the new yearQuote:
Originally Posted by hempilation311
I'm starting to notice that whenever anyone says they found their true calling or they finally found their passion, it's always Music.
...?
I'm not dependant on it but i enjoy it more then pretty much anything else.
smoke to get high, shit son, smoke to get BY
music is a universal language... i love everything about it and the world could not exist without it or the concept of it. it's inside us
lol too trueQuote:
Originally Posted by Inferius
everyone loves music...doesnt mean it should be your "true calling"
I am a hardcore can't do without my weed kind of stoner.
I just prefer to live my life with Mary Jane than to live without her. Why try and analyse it any deeper?
. I smoke like im not going to get another... over here the risk that i could be put away is high ....i have a calling but its not weed.. as my bro says.. smoke to get by.. i thought it was to escape.. but theres no escape nothing can be done.. noadays. i say BE HAPPY WITH WHAT YOU HAVE> dont got weed .. cool in a few days youll have some GET IT>>> life goes on... weed is here to help not make problems..
Peace
TBB
In my opinion it should just be a leisure thing and yeah I do admit it used to be daily for me and after being sober for over 2 months I realize its totally not the way mostly because I've turned to alcohol.
Cmon guys kick the habit! lol! :D
Well, i am heavily dependent on weed to get me through every day, but thats medicinal. Im not depressed, or that i know of, but without weed i'd be in agony, so i wouldnt be able to work, i wouldnt be able to drive, concentrate on anything, really, without weed i'd have no real life, because no one can live a happy life in pain.
I don't depend on weed to get me through my daily life, but it would certainly suck without it..
lmao yeah I found my true calling too...guess what it is? yup, recording engineer also. wait till you find out about the fucked up industry that is my friend....schooling doesn't matter in this job, all you gotta do is scrub toilets and get coffee for the real engineers for a couple years and then you'll either:Quote:
Originally Posted by hempilation311
a) get lucky they will hire you as an assistant engineer
b) be grouped with the majority of people who get let go as free interns when it's just about time to actually use some equipment, so the studio can bring in another kid to do the dirty work for free
sorry to put a damper on it but unless you can suck it up and do bullshit errands for a lengthy amount of time (with no pay, might I add) with not even the slightest amount of assurance that you will be employed by these people anytime in the future (the crap path I will most likely take), or start your own studio somewhere ($75,000 plus good location, plus teaching yourself the equipment, plus being a good entrepreneur, plus finding clientelle that stays with you long enough that you can actually start charging them because most DIY studios usually record for free for a while). If you can succeed through any of these 2 pathways then congratulations you get to do what you want with your life! If not, don't worry, you're like the thousands of other people who go by the wayside in tremendous debt.
Good luck, we're both gonna need it ;)
EDIT: where are you planning on doing this? kudos if you're making the trip down to the two-faced Los Angeles to get the best experience and advice possible...but if you're in Buttfuck, Nowhere odds are you'll have to move out into a decent-sized city to get the deed done
I've been feeling the same way the past few months and I really didnt think that I could take a break without going crazy (I mean real crazy, I have a personality disorder). Then I had to go to CO with my family because my grandma passed away and I thought it was going to be like hell because there would be so much stress, but it really wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. Which has lead me to think that maybe smoking everyday for the past year hasnt been all that healthy for me emotionally and that one day breaks like once or twice a month may help me to come out of the depression or at least help me deal with it in a better way.Quote:
Originally Posted by lagstronaut
Is it just me, or does everyone seem depressed lately?
I don't depend on weed. Smoke it every night 'cause I like to get stoned and its a nice before-bed treat. Recently I was high during the day a lot more, and I must say I did not like it that much. I like being high in the day, but I felt like I was getting stoned too much. I wake up in the afternoon, so pretty much I got high, did nothing, then got high again later that night. I felt too focused on being high, and now I'm just doin' it at night again.
I'mma take a break after this week too. Hopefully get a job and get some good money for weed. Needa get clean too, stupid pre-employment drug tests.
So I don't depend on weed, I'm just, really bored when I can't have a nightly toke. But I'm bored anyway so its not that big a deal.
well i've smoked soo much weed, i've forgotten why i was depressed in the first place so now i'm happy.
LoL! I love that statement.Quote:
Originally Posted by TokinAsianGuy
Smoke Weed is my creed,
without tobacco or seed,
Forget yesterday, or tommorrow,
Live NOW, with no sorrow.
well i think it is better to be dependent on weed for depression than on prozac, just an opinion, both are escapes from reality if you want them to be. and if you take depression medicine to be happy it is too, you take weed to be happy the same
Mad respect for that.Quote:
Originally Posted by weedmaster
I go through periods of time when I'll smoke once a day for a week or so, then smoke once per week, and it's harder to get through those days when i smoke everyday and then decide to go off for a bit. It enhances my life so much, but I can hold off on it with little or no difficulty.
My rule of thumb is, if I tell myself I have to go a week without weed, and I can do it, then I am not addicted. I simply desire weed.
Man, from my own personal experience, all I can say to you is now is definately NOT the time to start to dabble in other substances! When I felt like the way you described in your post, I was more suceptible to the thoughts of "Man I NEED to get high right now!", and I found myself caught up in a real bad battle with coke.Quote:
Originally Posted by lagstronaut
I wish I could help more but I have found that the only realistic way I can offer you some insight is to explain what I've been through. I know weed really isn't considered a "drug" among this forum, but would you consider yourself a full blown addict?
I dunno man, I'm sorry to hear about this kinda stuff but you seem like a fairly intelligent individual. I'm sure you'll get through it. Whether or not you need to quit smoking alltogether (for at least a little while), I don't know. But I would chill out on it. I know you've probably heard this plenty of times before but weed shouldn't be the answer to your problems.
At this point I'm rambling with no real point being made, so I leave you with this; take it easy.
I dont depend on it but I stay high most of the time. But I cant go without smoking long so I guess I dont know:confused: :smokin: