My home theater unit in my bedroom went straight into the wall...

I flipped a coffee table that had wine glasses, glass bongs, ashtrays, stacks of dvd's. everything went everywhere. all glass items are broken now, bong water everywhere. cigarette butts everywhere, my fist repeatedly penetrated the wall, my ps2 was under the subwoofer when i threw the tv a second time right on top of it all.

Today I lost control of my temper.

So i completely trashed my room. but at least i feel good now and kinda rockstarish.

... dude you sound like a younger me... not much younger, but a younger me nonetheless... i try to control myself the best i can, atleast throwing shit around....

what pissed you off so bad? and was it really worth destroying everything? that's what i think to myself everytime i feel like decimating everything in my path... "gee what's pissed me off this bad, and do i really want to destroy shit just becuase of it? am i going to completely regret this later?" usually, it's something so stupid, and yes i will regret it later...

Yeah after i trashed everything, i sat on my bed, which is soaked in bong water now, and thought "....fuck... what a mess... dammit i want to watch a dvd now...*regret*".

I've got a few personal issues that i've been trying to work through and today after having an argument with my sister who dropped by, i just went ape shit. and this might make me sound like a complete pussy, but after a cigarette, i called my sister to apologise for yelling at her and then i had a bit of a cry. I haven't cried in years. it's all cool now though. i'm just chillin to some tunes and having a few cones.

Wow... you know what would have been funnier? to break everything with a baseball bat.

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Originally Posted by TokinAsianGuy

Yeah after i trashed everything, i sat on my bed, which is soaked in bong water now, and thought "....fuck... what a mess... dammit i want to watch a dvd now...*regret*".

I've got a few personal issues that i've been trying to work through and today after having an argument with my sister who dropped by, i just went ape shit. and this might make me sound like a complete pussy, but after a cigarette, i called my sister to apologise for yelling at her and then i had a bit of a cry. I haven't cried in years. it's all cool now though. i'm just chillin to some tunes and having a few cones.

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nah, that doesn't make you a pussy, that just means you care about your relationship with your sis, feel bad about going off on her, and the crying bit, well leads to me to believe you have alot of built up emotion you dont' quite know how to deal with...

at about 18, i became really violent and destructive, soon after that i started writing poetry to get my feelings out (i had always wrote poetry from one time to another, but this was diffrent, i started meaning the words i wrote, and every word was tied to an event, or emotion.) found it was a great outlet for me and my problems...

i still lose it from time to time, freak the fuck out and either punch things or throw things around, but for the most part think i'm making great progress controlling everything... all i can for sure tell you, is that those anger problems aren't just going to disappear, you have to want to change it, and work at it... and if you do start working at it, and lose it from time to time, that's not failure, that's only being human....

if only i got paid 5.15 an hour to clean up the messes i've made in my rage.... or even better, get paid 5.15 an hour for the entire time i sit there thinking what a fucking idiot i am destorying my shit, just because i lost my temper...

thanks for that man, i really appreciate it. At this point in my life i feel that i've made so many mistakes that if i wanted to correct them all, it would take me a lifetime.

you'd be suprised how fast you can fix it all and get it all straight...

yea hang in there man...everyone has shitty times....im not having the best times of mylife right now either....but im trying to sort shit out...i like to hit my speedbag to get my anger out....try running...drawing...reading....writing....find something thats your outlet....

Yeah dude....find something simple to occupy your anger....that sucks though... I don't destroy stuff when I get pissed...oh..wait...if I get pissed enough I find something we r throwing away...like an old chair...then take it out back...and tear it to shit with a hammer.

yeh throwing shit is always good for anger at first but then it completely sucks once u realize what u just did

instead


punch shit


who needs hand bones anyways?

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Originally Posted by jaGerbom

yeh throwing shit is always good for anger at first but then it completely sucks once u realize what u just did

instead


punch shit


who needs hand bones anyways?

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both my pinkies are now crooked... yeah... can't tell you how many times i've seriously hurt my hands (broken bones, sometimes no broken bones but just caused enough trauma where they swell up for a couple of days) i got tired of being self destructive...

I used to have an anger issue as well, but prescription drugs keep me sane now. Without them I would be dead or in jail.

Buy a punching bag. I bought one used for like $30 at a sprt shop and I love it. You can crack it with a bat, kick it, punch the shit out of it, anything except stabbing and shooting it. :p

You need to find a release for your angers and frustrations. A hobby is good. I play guitar too and that is a great stress release for me. Go for a walk when you get mad, or even a run, a bike ride. When you get mad, don't just smoke up to feel better because all that does is it temporarly makes things good, but when you sober up, that problem is just pushed back down inside of you, and it builds up over time, and explodes at the wrong moments (like smashing your DVD player and stuff).

It makes me wonder what you may do if a female started lipping you off really bad and you can't hit her without mass jail time. Control that anger man, and in the meantime, try and figure out why you're so angry and lose your cool. There's a reason behind someones anger and frustrations, much like me. There's a reason why I was so angry, and I got passed that. Don't be like me when it's too late and all your knuckles are flat.

Good luck. :thumbsup: