Bad Year

Things haven't been going to well for me recently, back at the start of summer I went to a party and me and my friends were concerned I'd been spiked with ecstasy, which is a drug i don't take. Since then I've had anxiety, confusion and occasionally paranoia and I am constantly frightened about becoming mentally ill. I don't know if I even got spiked, or if it was just bud that caused this. Anyway I've only smoked a few times since then and I am scared to get stoned. It seems to confuse me more and instead of enjoying it I am just thinking the whole time that I am going crazy. Sometimes it feels like I'm just watching life through a television, and I seem strangely disconnected. I also get bad deja vu and strange dreams. I seem to have a completely different outlook on life and the same situations and stimuli that I used to take pleasure from now provoke the "wrong" emotions.

that sucks man, also weird. ive done e and doesnt make me crazy or anything. you just gotta keep toking til you forget about the whole thing.

You're thinking too much into it. You're dwelling too much on the "what if"s. "What if I'd been drugged?" You're not dead. So, it shouldn't be that much of a big deal anymore. You're causing your own paranoia, you're own delusions on whether or not you will become mentally ill.

You're BECOMING mentally ill because you're worrying too much about becoming mentally ill.

Stop focusing so much on something as insignificant as, "Was I drugged?" and focus on the big picture. Life.

Cheers, man. Hope you get better. :thumbsup:

You might have been slipped something that has altered some of the chemical processes that cause your mind and bodies reactions to certain emotions and situations to react in a unfamiliar way because they may be damaged a little. EX can do this after only a one time use. It doesn't happen to everybody the first time, but it has the potential to destroy normal hormone functions in the brain.
I would try to stay away from any recreational drugs and try to get a hold of what is going on with you. You may need to look at your lifestyle, habits, exercise eating, start finding what does make you feel relaxed, music, games, a bike ride. Just try to chill and listen to your body.
This can be serious, my bro was slipped a Mickey and it messed with him and now if he tries to use any drugs he is about ready to slice his wrists even with just smoking bud. He isn't a teenager either, he is married, kid, new house good job making $30 a hour so he is a stable guy, but his mind just won't function right anymore when it gets thrown off balance by using anything.
Hope this helps some.

In febuary i took a e, which i didnt like and for months after that i had exactly te same symtoms u said...

try ST JOHNS WORT search it on google it will help with you anxiety itsa great herb,

... and dont b afraid to toke i was afraid for ages.... but now its amazing :)

Ecstasy provides pure bliss and does not create all these effects. You remind me of myself 2-3 years ago when I dosed on acid regularly. At some point you realize that what you think about is what thoughts you ponder upon. If a particular thought doesn't give you a good vibe, let it go! You have the power.

If anything e would have made you more intouch with yourself. E is, in my opinion, the best drug, still yet to try acid or a better dose of shjrooms, but if you were on e you would have known it. It is such a profound feeling and you would have absolutely loved it. I've done e 5 times and it isn't harmful for you, unless ofcourse you abuse it, which than it may cause long term damage, but this is just guessed at.

the first time i ate mushrooms i had a badtrip for 25 mins. still the same dont worry about a thing

you wanna hear a bad year huh? haha, try getting a brand new job full time and then being cut to part time exactly on your 6 month anniv....then if you want your spouse employed those benefits double the price since your part time so i have to drop the spouse just to bring in some kind of money, now wtf? and 3 months have passed and no damn body i apply to is responding and it pisses me off plus i always get my jobs in the beginning of the year, THEN our car needed a new something cause somehow diesel and water got into my gas but the gas station has no idea what happened? so i had to pay $750 then and there money i did not fukn have, so this yr has been horrible money wise and job wise, 2007 has to get better than this b/s....

Dude, if your feeling uncomfortable toking then just quit, I mean there are more imortant things in life (admittedly not many though).

Dont be scared to smoke. When you get stoned dont think about, oh no, im gonna go crazy and die. You wont. Weed has never killed a single person/animal in its entire history, and the stuffs been around since before humans.

You aint gunna go crazy from smoking a bit of bud... Nor taking E.

Just forget about, you didnt die, you got your whole life to live, dont be scared to live it.

If anything smoking bud will make you feel better cos you'll appriciate life so much more.

Smoke it!

If any of my stuff gets laced I consider myself lucky.