MY stoner days are bout over. i FINALLY saw a doctor. read

ok the past few days have been a new chapter in my life i finally got the courage to see a doctor, my anxiety, panic attacts, and depression were just gettin to bad for me to handle, because i smoked so much dope so heavy for almost 2 years i finally releised i have a mental illness.
im not soley blaming dope, i have had this before i even started smoking, but now its 10 times WORSE because of dope. and ive been drinking alot of alchol latley just to feel happy and sociable. im only 18 remember.

i was laying in my bed the night before i went to the doctor and my head was goin crazy, all i could think about were negitive thoughts, thoughts of hate and regret, yet i had nothing to worry about, nothing bad has happened, i had nothing at all to worry about yet i seriously felt like gettin a knife and killing someone or myself and everything wrong happening in the world just got to me.

i was feeling like this for a long time...but it was at that moment when i thought, nah fuck this shit i cant take it anymore, i need help and im going to see a doctor tomorrow. before i end up doing something stupit, lucky i had a few booklets around explaining the symotoms of anxitety disorder and depression. i had them all. that gave the the courage to finally see a doctor and also easier to explain to the doctor....


....my mental state got so bad i just had to drop out out my last year of school, i was failing every class and i would be stoned everyday, all day, with my freinds at school. i was having panic attacks in class and i could barly walk around the school campus with out being paranoid and my mind going crazy. it was impossible to get away from the dope because all my freinds wanted me to smoke with them, and i couldnt say no because i always felt the need to smoke it so i could feel "normal" again. so a few weeks ago i dropped out. i just couldnt take it, i didnt even have the courage to get my leavers form fully signed i just grabbed my shit said cya to my mates and walk away. i felt i had no choice.

all because of my fuckin mental state.

but its all good now i think, i pretty much gave my doctor the booklet and explained i dropped out of school and everything plus how i felt and he instantly prescribed me with KARMA 0.25mg to settle me down
plus i had to see him today which he prescribed me with ZOLOFT 50mg for panic disorder and depression, plus a blood test.
and to my suprise he said he would do it for free. i just had to pay the tablets ($13)

best Decision of my life ive been takin KARMA for a few days now and i alreaddy feel better. i can walk downtown now with out worries and my mind is clear. id rather it than dope.
i'll be gettin the zoloft tablets tomorrow and hopefully they will make me feel better again. my life is back on track for $13...now i dont need to abuse dope and Alcohol anymore, but i still love the bud dont get me wrong.


so if there is anyone like me out there please see a doctor before you fuck up your life completly. :)

thanks for reading.

Dude, I think thats great that you got your life turned around for the better! Have a good rest-of-your-life!

Damm dude thats some heavy shit right there, Suks that your head got mashed even worse with the dope.. Hope you get better soon.:thumbsup:

Good to hear you got some much needed help :thumbsup:
I hope everything works out for you :D

There's a prescription drug called Karma?

thanks all of you :thumbsup:

respect

& Oneironaut, yes there is would u like a photo

That sucks man. I can't belive you were in that bad of a mental state, thats pretty scary bro. lay off the alcohol and keep your smoking to a minimum. Alcohol will for sure destroy your life, i dont know about the connections between bud and your mental state though.

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& Oneironaut, yes there is would u like a photo

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Nah, I think I've seen it before. I saw this one guy trying to get some schoolchildren to snort it once. Then he got hit by a bus.

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Originally Posted by souldistortion

That sucks man. I can't belive you were in that bad of a mental state, thats pretty scary bro. lay off the alcohol and keep your smoking to a minimum. Alcohol will for sure destroy your life, i dont know about the connections between bud and your mental state though.

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yea thats a good idea
ive noticed drinking even a little bit of alcohol while on the med sends me offa quick smart but i dont want to end up with Schizophrenia same as
mixing dope and meds that could make things worse. even my doctor said that.

Im glad you got it sorted out....but the dope didn't make it worse....YOU made it worse by choosing to smoke dope when you knew you had these problems.

Be safe ;)

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Originally Posted by StOneD.aS.FuK

yea thats a good idea
ive noticed drinking even a little bit of alcohol while on the med sends me offa quick smart but i dont want to end up with Schizophrenia same as
mixing dope and meds that could make things worse. even my doctor said that.

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Its not that mixing bud and your meds could make things worse. What happens is the buds cancell out your meds. I have a long history of manic depression in my family and have been off and on meds my whole life. For some people, meds are just what they need and there is nothing wrong with taking a small pill everyday that makes you feel better.

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yea thats a good idea
ive noticed drinking even a little bit of alcohol while on the med sends me offa quick smart but i dont want to end up with Schizophrenia same as
mixing dope and meds that could make things worse. even my doctor said that.

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Yeah, alcohol is bad news, especially for us 18 year old kids. well ANY kid for that matter. and alcohol and meds for sure don't mix but i dont think dope and meds would be likley to have too many consequences. Remember, its a holy herb given to us by god, alcohol is a chemically engineered substance that helps intensify the possibility of , rape, abuse, and car accidnets all over america. just go by the old age phrase "god made weed, man made alcohol, who do you trust?"
you admitted to your doctor you smoke dope? haha :rasta:

good to see things are back on track and you're feeling better.

See I think it's ok to smoke all day for like 3 days out of the week (or maybe ocasionally every day of the week) but I think when your tolerence gets so high that you have to smoke large ammounts just to get high it's time for a break. I think marijuana should be used not abused, and liquor..dont get me started lol. But I'm happy for you, it seemed like you were pretty messed up. I really help you can go back to scshool and do good and get on with your life and have a positive future :).

good for u man!

zoloft is a pretty good med., im on it now and it helps alot

ive heard that crack or heroin is a good drug to get into if ur felling abit low.

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Originally Posted by greenmonster

ive heard that crack or heroin is a good drug to get into if ur felling abit low.

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ive heard that crack or heroin is a good drug to get into if ur felling abit low.

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ahaha

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Originally Posted by Oneironaut

I saw this one guy trying to get some schoolchildren to snort it once. Then he got hit by a bus.

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They say that Karma is a bitch.

But I digress.

Grats Stoned.As.Fuk. for turning your life around for the positive. I hope that you can get your G.E.D. and go to college, so you can, you know... have a good life. Best of luck man!

sorry to have to do this guys, but im with stoned.as.fuck in that bud fucking rules, but it can seirously fuck up your life if you have pre-existing medical conditions. lets not be ignorant and start be smart. yeah its a wonderful herb, yeah it grows in the ground, but tell me you didnt think that you could upset the natural balance of chemicals in your brain for years with out ANY sideeffects? weed is better than alcohol, but that doesnt mean weed is the all holy miracle drug with no possible side effects, lets not be stupid. youre changing the natural chemical BALANCES and interactions in your brain....pre-existing serious mental conditions can come up and even be magnified by this drug. i love the nug but, guys be smart.

stoned.as.fuck. you've made the right choice and maybe smoking weed isnt for you, im sorry, but you did the right thing. your sanity is worth more than getting high. way to be smart dude....im right there with you...i had all those feelings starting up, but they went away went i stopped smoking weed. good luck man!

Its definitely true that some drugs should not be used by certain people either just because of their neuronal deficits or because of any pre-existing mental condition on that person. Drugs interact different on people, its wise to know your body and mind and especially to know what you're doing. You did good in realizing you had a problem, I wish you well .
peace

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Originally Posted by StOneD.aS.FuK

ok the past few days have been a new chapter in my life i finally got the courage to see a doctor, my anxiety, panic attacts, and depression were just gettin to bad for me to handle, because i smoked so much dope so heavy for almost 2 years i finally releised i have a mental illness.
im not soley blaming dope, i have had this before i even started smoking, but now its 10 times WORSE because of dope. and ive been drinking alot of alchol latley just to feel happy and sociable. im only 18 remember.

i was laying in my bed the night before i went to the doctor and my head was goin crazy, all i could think about were negitive thoughts, thoughts of hate and regret, yet i had nothing to worry about, nothing bad has happened, i had nothing at all to worry about yet i seriously felt like gettin a knife and killing someone or myself and everything wrong happening in the world just got to me.

i was feeling like this for a long time...but it was at that moment when i thought, nah fuck this shit i cant take it anymore, i need help and im going to see a doctor tomorrow. before i end up doing something stupit, lucky i had a few booklets around explaining the symotoms of anxitety disorder and depression. i had them all. that gave the the courage to finally see a doctor and also easier to explain to the doctor....


....my mental state got so bad i just had to drop out out my last year of school, i was failing every class and i would be stoned everyday, all day, with my freinds at school. i was having panic attacks in class and i could barly walk around the school campus with out being paranoid and my mind going crazy. it was impossible to get away from the dope because all my freinds wanted me to smoke with them, and i couldnt say no because i always felt the need to smoke it so i could feel "normal" again. so a few weeks ago i dropped out. i just couldnt take it, i didnt even have the courage to get my leavers form fully signed i just grabbed my shit said cya to my mates and walk away. i felt i had no choice.

all because of my fuckin mental state.

but its all good now i think, i pretty much gave my doctor the booklet and explained i dropped out of school and everything plus how i felt and he instantly prescribed me with KARMA 0.25mg to settle me down
plus i had to see him today which he prescribed me with ZOLOFT 50mg for panic disorder and depression, plus a blood test.
and to my suprise he said he would do it for free. i just had to pay the tablets ($13)

best Decision of my life ive been takin KARMA for a few days now and i alreaddy feel better. i can walk downtown now with out worries and my mind is clear. id rather it than dope.
i'll be gettin the zoloft tablets tomorrow and hopefully they will make me feel better again. my life is back on track for $13...now i dont need to abuse dope and Alcohol anymore, but i still love the bud dont get me wrong.


so if there is anyone like me out there please see a doctor before you fuck up your life completly. :)

thanks for reading.

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thats crazy man, i went through the same exact thing when i was 17, im 19 now...but i dropped out of highschool becasue of how bad it got aswell with my anxeity/depression...its ok tho, good thing you got help. I didnt get help but i still fixed it, im in college now so things are good...just try to be positive

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sorry to have to do this guys, but im with stoned.as.fuck in that bud fucking rules, but it can seirously fuck up your life if you have pre-existing medical conditions. lets not be ignorant and start be smart. yeah its a wonderful herb, yeah it grows in the ground, but tell me you didnt think that you could upset the natural balance of chemicals in your brain for years with out ANY sideeffects? weed is better than alcohol, but that doesnt mean weed is the all holy miracle drug with no possible side effects, lets not be stupid. youre changing the natural chemical BALANCES and interactions in your brain....pre-existing serious mental conditions can come up and even be magnified by this drug. i love the nug but, guys be smart.

stoned.as.fuck. you've made the right choice and maybe smoking weed isnt for you, im sorry, but you did the right thing. your sanity is worth more than getting high. way to be smart dude....im right there with you...i had all those feelings starting up, but they went away went i stopped smoking weed. good luck man!

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Werd, wordddddd, weeerd.

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Originally Posted by greenmonster

ive heard that crack or heroin is a good drug to get into if ur felling abit low.

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I dont even find that remotely funny... That's some of the worst advice i've ever heard, even if it was a joke.

This is cannabis.com not imafuckingdirtyskaghead.com or passmethatcrackpipe.com

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Hope the meds work for you man, take it easy, and remember, is MJ could talk, im sure she'd say sorry.

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I dont even find that remotely funny... That's some of the worst advice i've ever heard, even if it was a joke.

This is cannabis.com not imafuckingdirtyskaghead.com or passmethatcrackpipe.com

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Hope the meds work for you man, take it easy, and remember, is MJ could talk, im sure she'd say sorry.

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hey man, i dont find THAT remotley funny. i got good bros who are "fuckingskagheads" as you so elequently put it.

LMAO. I did.

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hey man, i dont find THAT remotley funny. i got good bros who are "fuckingskagheads" as you so elequently put it.

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Want a cookie?

Hey...this is friendly advice from a kid who knows his way around a person's mind pretty well...

How about you go see a therapist instead? I mean, you could be taking those antidepressants all your life. You could instead see a therapist, maybe see if it's something besides a chemical imbalance.

Oh, another thing. Marijuana is one of the best antidepressants out there. My advice is to stop smoking heavily and just smoke once a day. Maybe even start cooking it so you can stay mildly buzzed for awhile, but not fucked, know what I mean?

Either way, those man-made pills are NOT the best way to go. I don't trust them, I've seen people who think their life will stop if they don't take those and they become complete addicts.

A good friend of mine was like that and one day I was at her house and I asked her to show me her meds and I grabbed them and put them down the drain. Then I grabbed her by the shoulders and pinned her up against the wall and told her "Look, (name), you are a beautiful and great girl. You don't need those fucking pills. If you feel bad, you talk to me, you don't poison your mind with those godforsaken things. Or you find something else to do. Drugs of any kind are never the answer for depression, so STOP TAKING THEM!" then let her go and she gave me a huge hug and thanked me. She's been fine ever since.

Just my opinion, though.
Do what thou wilt.
Jake

Good for you on being proactive with your life!

I just hope the doctor was a psychiatrist and not a General Practitioner as they have NO clinical training in diagnosing or treating mental disorders. Though, as you said you had to show him a pamphlet, I would think he wasn't a psychiatrist. If anything, PLEASE see a psychologist as drugs alone will NOT fix the problem! And better yet, see both a psychologist AND a psychiatrist before you start your Zoloft regimine. Those are some VERY serious drugs and will fuck you six ways to Sunday if you're not careful.

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A good friend of mine was like that and one day I was at her house and I asked her to show me her meds and I grabbed them and put them down the drain.

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Dude, if you made your friend stop taking those drugs cold turkey, you could have seriously fucked her over. Though I share your distaste for medical mind candy, going off meds cold turkey can lead to serious side effects and even death.

Well she's fine now...She didn't have any side effects.

She was on the same shit my mom is, I think. Wellbutrin XL.

I took one of those for fun one night and found out that yes, those drugs can cause you to think suicidal thoughts. I was laying in my bed, not really buzzed, but just thinking I should kill myself. I kept thinking "Why not, man?" and I couldn't think of one reason. Scary shit >.<

Anyway...that pamphlet...what was it for?

Its cool that you got your life back in order, but stop calling marijuana "Dope".

Just, use it correctly. :glugglug:

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Its cool that you got your life back in order, but stop calling marijuana "Dope".

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for some reason i also find the need to double up on that. dope is what pigs call it. "wheres the dope boys"

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Originally Posted by StOneD.aS.FuK

ok the past few days have been a new chapter in my life i finally got the courage to see a doctor, my anxiety, panic attacts, and depression were just gettin to bad for me to handle, because i smoked so much dope so heavy for almost 2 years i finally releised i have a mental illness.
im not soley blaming dope, i have had this before i even started smoking, but now its 10 times WORSE because of dope. and ive been drinking alot of alchol latley just to feel happy and sociable. im only 18 remember.

best Decision of my life ive been takin KARMA for a few days now and i alreaddy feel better. i can walk downtown now with out worries and my mind is clear. id rather it than dope.
i'll be gettin the zoloft tablets tomorrow and hopefully they will make me feel better again. my life is back on track for $13...now i dont need to abuse dope and Alcohol anymore, but i still love the bud dont get me wrong.
thanks for reading.

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Good to hear that your getting things sorted out. . . .

But NO meds work in just a few days time. . . .

It's because you Expect them to work that

it's changing your perspective on things. . . .

And as was already said,,, hope it was a psyc ya seen and not just

a normal Doctor... 'Cos doctors will throw anything at

ya just 'cos there little refferal book tells them it's ok to. . . .

Hope all works out ok for ya. . . . ;)

Oh, and take beach dude's advice. . . . :)

Peace. . . . :thumbsup:

There is gonna be a up and a down side for you.. You left marijuania and now turned to a drug that is probably 20x more addicting then weed.

I was on Wellbutrin XL for a while....I never thought of suicide and never even got remotely attached to it. Stupid drug though.

going to school high is BADDDD

ill get flamed, but thats the sad truth of what drug abuse will do to you

That is incredible good news friend. :)
This should be an inspiration to us all, that there is hope in the end.
Things are finally getting better for you, kudos friend. Enjoy your new and happy life.

PS. Notice he didn't need to saved by a certain Lord and Saviour to find happiness? Sorry, I had to add that in. hehe.