Drifting through life

Okay, now before i start i want to make it clear that i am not looking for pitty or anything. Just some advice as to what i should do.

To start off, i am mentally ill (uni-polar, anorexic, brain damage to the frontal lobe) and i'm worried that i'm becoming a drain on scociety. My illness prevents me from getting any schooling, having a gf, and getting a job because mentally i just can't handle any of it. I am getting help. I'm on a lot of pills n shit but i guess we haven't found the right meds. I've already been in jail for losing my temper (I except full responcibility for all of my actions no matter how little control i have over them) and the way things are going it looks like i'll be spending a lot more time there.

So i've been living in my parents basement (i'm 16 by the way) not going to school or having a job for 2 years now under advice of my doctors and my illness's are only getting worse. I'm not doing anything productive and life is continueing without me. All i've been doing for the past two years is basically taking a big time out from life trying my hardest to stay out of trouble.

Don't get me wrong, i have a life all be it a very small one (by choice) and i party harty with those i do hang out with. But its not productive.

The only thing i'm worried about is becoming a liability to the world. That i may never be fit enough for a job, or any relationship. I know i'm causing my parents a lot of stress and i don't like that. I need some ideas on productive things i could do that require little to no contact with others or physical labor because i'm such a weak little bitch lol (i'm 5'9 and i wiegh 105).

I donno, i just feel the need to do SOMETHING but i just don't know what or how.

Again, i look for no pitty and if for some reason you feel the need to flame me go ahead. I gladly accept all oppinions because even if their insulting ones they still give insight on how others view me and what areas i need to work on socially. I am currently on Seroquel and some Anti depressents plus some nutrition pills.

well, it's just an idea, but doing the dishes in a restaurant doesn't require much physical strength nor contact with others, and it can help you feel a bit less dependant since you're earning money.

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Originally Posted by Mr Greenthumb

Okay, now before i start i want to make it clear that i am not looking for pitty or anything. Just some advice as to what i should do.

To start off, i am mentally ill (uni-polar, anorexic, brain damage to the frontal lobe) and i'm worried that i'm becoming a drain on scociety. My illness prevents me from getting any schooling, having a gf, and getting a job because mentally i just can't handle any of it. I am getting help. I'm on a lot of pills n shit but i guess we haven't found the right meds. I've already been in jail for losing my temper (I except full responcibility for all of my actions no matter how little control i have over them) and the way things are going it looks like i'll be spending a lot more time there.

So i've been living in my parents basement (i'm 16 by the way) not going to school or having a job for 2 years now under advice of my doctors and my illness's are only getting worse. I'm not doing anything productive and life is continueing without me. All i've been doing for the past two years is basically taking a big time out from life trying my hardest to stay out of trouble.

Don't get me wrong, i have a life all be it a very small one (by choice) and i party harty with those i do hang out with. But its not productive.

The only thing i'm worried about is becoming a liability to the world. That i may never be fit enough for a job, or any relationship. I know i'm causing my parents a lot of stress and i don't like that. I need some ideas on productive things i could do that require little to no contact with others or physical labor because i'm such a weak little bitch lol (i'm 5'9 and i wiegh 105).

I donno, i just feel the need to do SOMETHING but i just don't know what or how.

Again, i look for no pitty and if for some reason you feel the need to flame me go ahead. I gladly accept all oppinions because even if their insulting ones they still give insight on how others view me and what areas i need to work on socially. I am currently on Seroquel and some Anti depressents plus some nutrition pills.

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I'm sure it will all work out. You gotta go through life with the best that God gave you my friend.

i was in your shoes but then i got new shoes.
i started out life bad.
i got no mom no dad no family.
i turned to the streets to get by.
streets are no good just take and never give.
i realized it's up to me to do something
just go to school.be a loner get good grades and grow budand work out
have kids meet a girl who likes shit you like life is good my friend.
dont let all the bullshit get you down.
you should read books about people who almos died or did die.
they would choose to live different given the chance.

I second that friendowl

hey man

sorry to hear about your mental illness - it cant be nice.

sadly life throws allot of challenges at us and i for one think its a game, its easier to not roll the dice n not play the game then it is to stick it out and get to the end.

in times of need you will have loved ones, venting is a gr8 way to get things of your chest.

i really really wish u the best man

As long as you're trying to do your part to make the world a better place, then no one can put you down. i'm sure you help around the house and your parents are probably gratefull for whatever you can do. no one expects anyone to be great at anything. It's only when you don't try that you really loose.

Wow guys, that really made me feel better about my position. I didn't expect to get anything out of this thread but i did. Shucks guys, thanks a bunch.

And Blowboy gave me an idea i never had before. I'm gonna start checkin out jobs at walmart stackin shelves at night or something like that. I could handle that.

Again, thanks a million for the support. I really expected to come back to this and read a bunch of insults saying shit like i just want attention n shit. It surprised and delighted me to no end. I'll make sure to take a holy toke in honor of all members of this site.

do you live in maine.

If your fate is to live with your parents, make the best of it. Do most of the housework and after the chores are done, chill, forever...
I'm going to assume that because you're having trouble with more basic things, you don't plan to do anything like being a politician or making a difference of sorts, so I'm confident when I say this: If the most you'll ever be able to do is clean dishes, I guarantee you you'll be happier just chilling the rest of your life.

It's so hard living with a mental illness,I suffer from depression and some days I get bad agoraphobia,it's like you are fighting against yourself but it makes you stronger if you fight back.

Respect to you for wanting to make a change in your life,alot of people would just accept that they are unwell and wallow in self pity but you refuse to and for that I wish you the very best of luck.

Pick up a musical instrument and learn. The internet is great for teaching yourself music.

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Originally Posted by robert42

hey man

sorry to hear about your mental illness - it cant be nice.

sadly life throws allot of challenges at us and i for one think its a game, its easier to not roll the dice n not play the game then it is to stick it out and get to the end.

in times of need you will have loved ones, venting is a gr8 way to get things of your chest.

i really really wish u the best man

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I agree!
Just don't give up because it gets easier to deal (if youre smoking weed that is..for non-smokers they develop a necropsy of the mind and tend to only develop neurotic ways of dealing) as you gain "experience" in "the game" :)
I often look back and say..wow i had no fcking idea what i was doing when i was younger! It's amazing to me. At 16 i had no idea what i was doing really, i had only basic skillz
My offical advice is multi faceted. 1. Smoke weed 2. Read on the subjects that you want to expand in your life 3. Don't watch Tv 4.Think for yourself
Good luck! And remember u always have friends at cannabis.com

Take it day at a time, man. Things may get better, and they may not, but in the end, you're in control of how you let it (Life) effect you.

Spread a little joy if nothing else, and maybe a little love, too. Be a light in a dark world, and last, but not least...

"Don't worry...Be happy"!

Haha, I love that slogan...

Remember to always plan your day
Sit down in the morning and make a list of things
you would like to get done.
and try to complete the list everyday
dont be gettin high to early in the morning
cause you get nothing done
some people can get stoned in the morning (I can)
and still get lots of stuff done
Live for Now
Don't let the burdens of your past
or the anxieties of the future
change the way you live now
right this second