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i created a thread similar to this one a while back and i really enjoyed it.
POST YOUR DAILY CONFESSIONS HERE
its therapeutic!
ill start: my farts have been smelling unusually rank this week. i havent showered in 24 hours. my lips are chapped but i cant stop licking them. i had an ice cream bar for lunch
I wanked it today, after class, it was at like 12 am i think
at home of course haha
i love bedake
haha i love you too! make that 12 pm actually hehe it was lunch time i always confuse that time of day
hey you stole my topic, you punk!!!!!!
Oh well...
Here is my confession...
I fell in love with an idiot.
That's all.
This can be fun!
I havent bought my own bag of weed in like 2 years, my reason being, i dont smoke much weed anymore, and im too poor, i save my money for hallucinogens. Yet still knowing this people refuse to let me pass on a joint if i feel guilty for not chippin in
ummmmmm........i didnt feed my dog till 8pm when i usually feed him at 6
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Originally Posted by BizzleLuvin
thats cruel! My dog smokey growls in your direction
Being a female I've only bought 2 bags of weed in my entire poyt smoking carreer..I've never done any sexual favors for weed, I'vce always just hung around male potsmokers who are very generous for there female friends, and they also get a kick out of a female potsmoker who can smoke as much as them. I have friends that grow pot, and when they need money i refer people to them, and get fee weed out of it.Quote:
I havent bought my own bag of weed in like 2 years, my reason being, i dont smoke much weed anymore, and im too poor, i save my money for hallucinogens. Yet still knowing this people refuse to let me pass on a joint if i feel guilty for not chippin in
Second Confession....
I allow the idiot person I'm in love with treat me like shit because it makes me feel.
on a standardized test, where you were asked to state your religious affinity, i checked 'other' and wrote 'charles manson'
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Originally Posted by BizzleLuvin
I used to write down shit like budhism and satanism, something different for every test, but damn church of charles manson? haha you prolly had the fbi watching you
When i was desperate i once took all my dads heart medicine and looked it up on the internet to see if it could fuck me up..... pathetic i know
Everytime the doc prescribs me a new med, I run to erowid.com to check to see if it'll fuck me up.:( That's pathetic. But It's kind of funny.......Quote:
When i was desperate i once took all my dads heart medicine and looked it up on the internet to see if it could fuck me up..... pathetic i know
I feel guilty every day when I think about drugs. I've been doing more drugs then I ever thought I would. I do more now that I have a child then what I did when I didn't. I feel guilty because everyday I see his beautiful smile, and yet I run to drugs for comfort......
seems to be the same people over and over talkin so why not let me jump in LoL
I got kick outta highschool 4 months ago for Fighting(got into 5 fights the frist semister (Last fight i ended up breakin a kids nose),
Getting sheach for Pot 6 times! (lucky i had student offices asst. that over heard and told me befor hand)
Getting intruble inside of class makin deals while teacher was talkin
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i buy to much pot these days (to many last year that i could count :( )
today in the morning when i went to
put my lunch away i switched some peoples lunches
and this one girl who bugs.i put her lunch in the trash can.
who the fuck brings a whole chicken for lunch
^ A fat kid.
I'm too mentally exhausted to participate in life sometimes.
I miss my exboyfriend terribly.
I can't walk into a store without stealing something.
I paint my windows.
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Aaaaaaw i wanna cuddle you
I think I am becoming more of an atheist than ever......
I have friends that call me all the time to do stuff, and I never answer and never call them back. It's not that I don't like them, cause I do...but for the most part I just want to sit around at home and chill and smoke. But they still keep calling...:/ I am a bad friend.
I spend too much money on weed.
umm...todays confession? Well the day is still early...but I guess I could confess that I had some great sex randomly at like 4am..love that..umm..
...then I...went to the dentist..
...and now I am sitting here in bed smoking weed.
...AND IT'S NOT EVEN 11AM!!
i sometimes tell people that i live with my mom and her sister, instead my two moms
i spent too much money on drugs, so im broke now w/o a job. i paid for my court fees yesterday, with my mom paying it for me. and i didnt say thanks to her....but i mean it and want to, i just think it will prolly lead to an argument.
i still need books for 2 of the 3 classes im taking
I skipped my first class today because I was lazy and didn't want to get out in the cold. *shrug*
And I'm eating a 46 gram of fat Big Mac... but it's SOOOO GOOD!
Yeah I get that, my phone rings but I avoid answering it, I hate talking on the phone.Quote:
Originally Posted by TallulahGreen
I eat sweets in my bed, in the dark, when Im stoned :stoned:
my confession: i despise america and what is has become.
Forgive me, bizzle, for, today, I have...participated in a smoke-session with a guy before he was to perform work for my landlord
How old are you bizzle?, you too zephy...im 21 about to turn 22 on april 24th
my secret is that i have a moderate hearing loss that is going to keep getting worse until i die, its already hard for me to head and by age 20 i'll have to wear hearing aids which sucks, i feel like my life is short and has been taken away from me because i know how hard it is to function with a hearing loss and most people dont, people call me stupid and slow because i say "what?" when they say something and i didnt hear it. i dont tell anyone about my hearing loss because im embarassed, my dad will often yell and scream at me just for not being able to hear him. i dont talk very much because its hard for me to converse with people.
im in love with a girl who doesnt know i exist and wouldnt like me even if she did know me, my girlfriend boke up with me on xmas and ive been depressed ever since
i tell my parents lies about how im doing in college (i say i get a's and b's but i usually get c's im perfectly capable of getting straight a's but i dont feel like working hard at school because its a load of shit, i perfer to learn what i need on the streets because thats real life)
i have very few friends and no friends that i can get personal with,
most of my friends have moved, i used to have alot but they moved outta town one by one until it was just me and jeff and we hang out and get drunk and high alot.
now here is one that nobody knows, i beat off 4 times yesterday, after keeping clean for a few weeks....
I would like to kill both of my parents my dad because he doesnt realize how adversly he affects other people, my mom because of her fucking boyfriend who i hate, he accuses me of everything, stealing booze, turning up the heat and giving them a $100 gas bill (i was over at her house for for like half the month and i didnt touch the heat once)
All i need is a good friend and a pretty girl who understands me and i could be content for as long as i live
Wankin whilst stoned is better than wankin whilst sober.
I'm not looking for sypathy, but the past couple of days have been hard. I feel like i'm all alone, and even my closest freinds don't care. Evry day i battle with my demons that are trying to get me to do heroin again. I have dreams were i'm using again and it feels like i'm back, i haven't touched the shit in over a year. One of my old freinds is back on the train and, I just want evrything to stop. i think if relapsed i would accualy try to kill myself again.
at work i have to finish as fitted drawings for a 57 million dollar hotel (5 star) which will open tomorrow morning. and i am sitting here doing nothing...
poor boss, so much responsability...
the sooner i finish the better but i can take a few extra weeks
Last night I killed a hobo with a broken wine bottle.
My grandfather died in december, I didnt visit him in the hospital, i dont even know if he had a funeral or not or if he was cremated or buried, he only lived 20 minutes away
that's some bad shit you have to deal with man, I'm really sorry about all that :( .
But why are you embarrased about hearing loss? I mean if you had herpes or erectile disfunction I could see how with social stigma's and taunting and such, but hearing loss is nothing to be embarrased about! I think it would be worth it to see a hearing specialist if only to get your dad off your ass (and I hope this isn't really offensive, but he sounds like an asshole).Quote:
my secret is that i have a moderate hearing loss that is going to keep getting worse until i die, its already hard for me to hear and by age 20 i'll have to wear hearing aids which sucks, i feel like my life is short and has been taken away from me because i know how hard it is to function with a hearing loss and most people dont, people call me stupid and slow because i say "what?" when they say something and i didnt hear it. i dont tell anyone about my hearing loss because im embarassed, my dad will often yell and scream at me just for not being able to hear him. i dont talk very much because its hard for me to converse with people.
I've heard of girlfriends dumping guys on christmas many times it seems, I don't know what the hell is wrong with them, breaking somebody's heart on christmas day, that's just excessively cruel. however I would look carefully at your situation of "being in love" with this other girl, and maybe consider that you've worked yourself into that mindset. I'm just saying because if you don't even know each other I don't know what else there could be outside infatuation.Quote:
im in love with a girl who doesnt know i exist and wouldnt like me even if she did know me, my girlfriend boke up with me on xmas and ive been depressed ever since
Sounds like you're burnt out on school, and perhapse you need to take a break. If that's not an option though, just keep in mind you're not learning these things because they matter, you're learning them to get a diploma so you can have a good life with steady income. don't actaully worry about the importance of the subject matter.Quote:
i tell my parents lies about how im doing in college (i say i get a's and b's but i usually get c's im perfectly capable of getting straight a's but i dont feel like working hard at school because its a load of shit, i perfer to learn what i need on the streets because thats real life)
yeah, I similar thing happened to me. my best friend moved to victoria and I moved to Kelowna, and all our friends are back in Salmon Arm. in 2 1/2 years of living here I never made a single friend and rarely get to see my old friends. I guess I did get to be friends with my best-friends girlfriend, but she's always busy in her business administration course so we rarely hang out (like maybe once a month). It's a lonely existence my friend, but that's one reason we have these boards. At least you had a girlfriend though, I'm 20 years old and never had one, I guess I just lack social confidence in general. that and the whole flirting crap just doesn't come naturally to me like it seems to with everybody else.Quote:
i have very few friends and no friends that i can get personal with,
most of my friends have moved, i used to have alot but they moved outta town one by one until it was just me and jeff and we hang out and get drunk and high alot.
well if you need to relieve that much stress or just bordom, then by all means do so. Just make sure you don't make yourself sore ;) .Quote:
now here is one that nobody knows, i beat off 4 times yesterday, after keeping clean for a few weeks....
the whole situation with your dad seems to really suck, but yeah sometimes mine really gets to me because he can't have a normal conversation with us. instead everything we talk about just turns into him ranting for 30 minutes in such a booming angry voice you don't dare disagree with him. and this is just on talking about politics, people, stores, whatever.Quote:
I would like to kill both of my parents my dad because he doesnt realize how adversly he affects other people, my mom because of her fucking boyfriend who i hate, he accuses me of everything, stealing booze, turning up the heat and giving them a $100 gas bill (i was over at her house for for like half the month and i didnt touch the heat once)
you mom, well maybe there's some other shit going on, but it seems more it's her boyfriend than her you should hate. and I don't mean you "should" hate, but it's certainly justifiable. I'm assuming your parents are divorced since she has a boyfriend, so screw it.... I think you should make it clear to her boyfriend that you think he's an asshole and you don't like him one bit, and just refuse to go over to her house because of him. The only way out of this is to make it 100% clear where you stand with everybody and not put up with that assholes crap. it's you or him, and you shouldn't be forced to coexist with such a shitty person because of mutual relations.
you and I both man.Quote:
All i need is a good friend and a pretty girl who understands me and i could be content for as long as i live
I miss my friends but I can't bring myself to wake up at 6 a.m to go to class.
<hugs to all>
senior year of highschool i had no friends that went to school with me, all of my friends were already graduated and some as old as 26, several of em thought i was also in my twenties except for the ones i knew since gradeschool.
They all lived in this huge house together that they rented and i would spend time there only going home a couple of hours a week. I basically lived on their couchs and floors along with some other friends...
All of myfriends have moved away except for 2 and it makes me seriously depressed to think about them, i loved them all and anytime i hear the theme music for the game halo it almost brings me to tears (we used to be avid halo players, actually traveling hours for tournaments we called the house the "Iron Dojo cause we would spend all day playing halo then all night fucked up)
, haha we were gods amongst men, and i wish it never ended
Well I might as well share all the wonderfull things that make me the popular stud that I am (maybe it'll make some of you feel better about your situation).
1. I've never had a girlfriend, and don't see how I ever will. I just feel nervous in social situations and have never even had the nerve to ask a girl out. In fact I don't even know what to do, all the flirting and sweet talking that comes so naturally to everybody else I don't have. I absolutely HATE it when when friends are like "go talk to that girl mike!" and push me into it, because they don't get that I can't just chat some girl into liking me like other people do. Foruntately though they all gave up, because I'm socialy screwed enough as it is that it doesn't matter when I just say "yeah, I don't want to talk to you, they just pushed forced me here" and walk away.
which leads to #
2. I often let off as very rude to people, and I don't even intend to, it's just an instinctive response because it gets me out of talking really quickly.
3. I absolutely hate my body, I can't seem to build up my muscles worth a shit. I got picked on so much from grade 6 on I constantly thought about killing myself, all because I was small and too scared to stand up for myself. Nowadays I work out daily and I've managed to get some fairly decent abbs and triceps, but otherwise I'm just mediocre (though thankfully not scrawny anymore). But it still seems I gotta work my ass off every day to gain as much muscles as normal guys who don't work out, and I'm still not close to getting there, the results are minescule. You know, I know body image issues are supposed to only be a girl thing, but I guess I'm screwy because every bloody day I get out of the shower and look at myself in the mirror thinking what a piece of shit I look like, and hoping to find some very minor improvement somewhere.
I smoke too much (weed and ciggarettes), I treat my friends and famliy shittly, I masturbate too much and I don't try hard in school. I'm and overall underacheiver and somewhat proud of it. Isn't that kinda fucked up. I just wanna party and snowboard and get drunk and stoned.
I'm not depressed (although when I head back to my home town I just might be, because all my old friends have moved away, well hell, I did, it was the smart thing to do) I think what you guys need to do is get jobs or go to school. That's how you make friends, real friends, instead of randoms to chat with on the net. You guys have great personalities, just put yourself out there. You don't have to chat up all the girls at the bar or dance, get a pitcher of beer with a couple of close friends enjoy the live bands, rip it up at pool or fooseball. Not everyone is the star quarterback/head cheerleader of the football team. Don't let stupid shit like that get you down. Do your own thing. You'll realise shit like that doesn't matter after you get over that whole teenage anxiet thing. People will respect you in your own right as long as you don't give up on shit and become a lazy no good for nothing. Weed is great for relaxing, but it isn't the answer to everything.
God V2.0, i am 18.
my daily confession: i drank whole milk today. i wear underwear only 40% of the time even though i own massive amounts of underthings. i really need to whiten my teeth. i still pick my nose. i constantly find myself imagining how random strangers look naked and how they are in bed. ive stolen $600 worth of CDs and LPs. i like to steal little things, like lipgloss and spare change.
lol This threads pretty depressing :(
I lie to my parents...about a number of things.
I don't actually try my hardest in college, I do thourghly enjoy it but as soon as I leave im back to lazy old me...when I know I could be doing really well.
I don't tell anyone personal feelings...I feel I have no-one I can talk to personally....although there are people I feel comfortable talking to about my feelings, they now have new people in their lives...and I feel the privacy/confidentiality between us has decreased significantly since....the only time I am completly honest is on the internet.
I REALLY want to go out and meet new people for relationships, but I have a girlfriend, she is away at uni on the mainland so I hardly ever see her....I am deeply in love with her, but it hurts that I can't see her when I want to....and I don't want to break her heart by just dumping her....we have holidays planned, I don't want to talk about this to her over the phone...and whenever she comes back all these feelings disapear untill she leaves again....:((any advice anyone???)
But one another note
God V2.0....you said you are 21 going on 22....then in the next paragraph you say that when you are 20 you will need a hearing aid? Was that just a typo or what?? lol this is the confession thread...
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Originally Posted by BizzleLuvin
ive stolen over 15,000 dollars worth of CDS DVDS video games, and software that is if you count pirating as stealing, i will download stuff i dont even need, just so i can have it