Originally Posted by Roulettedares
Okay lets go over the whole synopsis AGAIN. My dad is pretty much loopy, he goes insane when he trips over shoes in the middle of the hall. He starts cursing his ass off if one tiny thing isn't right. It is almost as if he has episodic insanity or schizophrenia.
Anyway I have more genes from my dad than from my mom. THerefore I act like him more than I act like my mom. Although, because my mom is mentally stable, I can control my anger and habve a much longer temper than my father luckily.
My parents (both of them) treat me as I am. A thirteen year-old loser who can't chose his paths in life. ALL of my problems reflect on them positiively or negatively; Most of the time negatively. Anyways so whenever I do something wrong, they figure I can't solve my own problems and step in IMMEDIATELY which I call over-nuturing. How I deal with this fucked-up reality you say? I CAN'T! It is throwing me insane and now I am starting to hear music and see delusions. I am on the verge of schizophrenia because of my dumb-ass parents.
You could say that becoming a neo-nazi is a response to my subconscious. I have also discussed committing suicide with myself before. ANd with my parents. And all they say is "James you have a future ahead of you! In five to four years youll be out of hear and earning a living for yourself away from us! Are you willing to give that all up?" And really no. The hauntings and shadow that my parents put on me carries me on to the afterlife and haunts me FOREVER!! When you feel this way 24/7, you might not only have a lot of shit on your plate, although inside and mentally you are on the verge of insanity!
Even though you may say that I am blaming my parents, who else is to blame? The cops would blame my parents, so would my siblings, my friends, and relatives. They would all blame my father for the fucked up life that I created for myself.
And being with scottish and german heritage, the scottish ego is always ignorant, and when opinons are created they are almost never changed. Now in Mary Jane's case, my dad thinks that this plant not only hurts the people that use it, but the family of the user. He thinks it robs people of initiative and destroys the brain and reproductive system.
Now the really only thing that will change his mind would be a doctor, with a PhD in Medicine and health, scientiffically proving what marijuana does to the body, cracking all the myths that are behind it. Now getting a doctor so acknowledged to the truth is hard to find. SO if you can get me such a doctor to prove to my dad that it is harmless, go ahead. email me such a doctor's name phone number, credentials, and give me his (my dad is sexist against women so you know) ideas around Marijuana.