Personal announcment from me

i think i will not be on too much for a while
im having a time coping and i do not want to abuse my mod powers in anger or frustaration
you know me im fiar,and give anyone the chance
but right now my life is really had a bad blow to it
death has reached out and took a cousin,his wife(my x wifes life long child hood grown up with friend who got me and her togetherem),and their lil new baby named patience
they burned up last night,and its fuking with my head
i did not like my cuzzing(guilt i guess) he stabbed me in the mouth in 10th grade in school),but we were ok after a few years,its such a shock i had to write it here so i will know what im thinking later when i read it agian
to those of you who dont know,,,,im disabled cant work,,live in pian but i aint whiney type i go on,and im happy to be alive,the say in BI POLAR and i can get depressed reall bad for long time,,or be happy for no reason just the same,
but things set that off,i usually regulate my moods with weed,maybe a vallium or xanax to sleep a night thru,but i do not smoke JUST TO GET HIGH
yes i like it,,,,getting high, but its medical use first.
my cuzzing didnt drink anymore,,,,,nor smoke,he had a good job,his wife(who i knew all thru school rode the bus home with her ect,best friends then.she worked as a bank teller,they owned land cars ,boats,ect,,,,they made it ya know what i mean,,,,came from NOTHING and made it,
and now i got to go dig 3 graves of people i cared for,


i dont think ill be very social,,,,please dont take it badly or personal
i just hope yaw understand i dont wanna hurt any feeling saying shit that dont need siad but will be cuase i will be mad for days

to all my great friends on here ,I need a break hope you understand.
i think the best of ya i will
miss you over the next few weeks or how-ever long it takes to get my head together.i wont name names but you know who you are and even those i care little for,i wish you well.i will say,,,,,to my BEST friends,you been da good to me and im not running out on you,just need to rethink my life
i will pop in and read,just wont post much if i do,depends on if im home,
becuase in fact i i like most people here very much we are all so different yet we all have common grounds,even eneimies do
i wont be here enough to atch the post,Hunny del,,,if ya back,,i got alot of shit to do this next two weeks.and this hobby i now have of cannabis.com
must set on the back burner a while till i truly cant think str8 agian.
honestly folks i may joke yaw with silly shit but stress and alot of shit has piled up and now fell on me,im so far down that money drungs wemon and cars cant make me smile.way beyond normal


and no I DO NOT write this FOR PITY,fuk your pity,i dont need it
i write to say that a normal good day can be ruined by trajic events in the blink of a eye,,,,,,and change your outlook for a while


this place has become a part of my like long before i was a moderator,I hope hunny and del can take up the slack,i will try and log on as i can to approve names,But i wont be chatting much or passing out links and infor to help to many folks,
so one last one

www.erowid.org


peace

peace z!!!!!!Don't be too much of a stranger now, And i am sorry for your lost man! tty soon...

Take care of yourself.

peace :)

nowhere, i hope that you find the peace you need to get through this. you appear strong so i know you'll be okay. take care of yourself and know that my thoughts are with you. i am truely sorry for your loss and hope that you will be back in your own time. peace man.
LeLe

dude .sorry.. my thoughts and wish's are with you .slider.

I'll a prayer! We'll miss the law around these parts. :(

dam z what leg im i going to piss up now lol???? take care dude,toke on and peace m8

Goodluck man

God Bless ~Z~ for your loss. Take Care

KIA KAHA to you and your family z, my thoughts are with you in this time of tragic lose. Just know my friend that you will be greatly missed but always in my thoughts, I look forward to your return mate....Love your fellow medical toker.....kiwixxxxx

hope to see you soon nowhereman

really sorry about your family z take care of yourself man peace :)

'Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more

Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
I was soaring ever higher
But I flew too high

Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man
Though my mind could think I still was a mad man
I hear the voices when I'm dreaming
I can hear them say

'Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more

Masquerading as a man with a reason
My charade is the event of the season
And if I claim to be a wise man, well
It surely means that I don't know

On a stormy sea of moving emotion
Tossed about I'm like a ship on the ocean
I set a course for winds of fortune
But I hear the voices say

'Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more

No!

Carry on, you will always remember
Carry on, nothing equals the splendor
The center lights around your vanity
But surely heaven waits for you

Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry (don't you cry no more)'
KANSAS
My thoughts and prayers and good vibes are with you,may you find
strength in the knowledge that many here are thinking of you

Peace

NowhereMan, do what you have to do. We'll miss you around here. XOXOXOXO

We probably can't even imagine the pain your feeling at the moment that kind of a loss leaves deep emotional scars I'm sure everyone here will be sending healing to you and your Kin "Peace Nowhere"....

Sorry Nowhere, hope everything works out for you.

Will be thinking of you in ur hard times...stay strong
tk care
socks xxx

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Please know that you and Janie and the girls are in my thoughts and prayers. Let me know if I can do anything. xoxox

peace nowhereman and gd luck

-GHoSToKeR-

So sorry for your loss NM....you hang in there bud!

Sending positive thoughts your way.

Skitter

thanks,,,,,i deleted that one thread,,,,had alot stuff i posted i thought better of later,..ect ect,
was easy way remove it,
and thanks yaw,we all got our shit to get over,
things to loom in the future or something
anyway im smoking one saying thanks for givin a shit at all.
peace







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yo hillbilly,pessy on the way,catch ya soon m8

hey biskit

im sort of still here,slighty chilled,


my
.yahoo is screwed,,,,,,,no idea.....??
msn says fuk me,,,,
and we miss each other in chat,,
glad you posted,

im thinking about gonna be a serial deer killer,.....if you think about that it will make sense.
i just became a hunter agian...but ol friend of mine i need a wimpy gun that dont kick like a mule and sound like a cannon,
you cant go shooting 30.06 ,descretely
heard for miles,,and miles in the hills,
and tell ya ,hurts like fuck now afterwards.age shows up says hello.
and its a starting to get back on track for me,
cept my growing has been mauled to fuck by venison steaks.
i hope to talk to ya soon m8
peace

no matter what happens in anyones life it is always a bitch to hear shit like that
but least u know who all ur friends r so we will roll 1111111111 ...................
.......222222222222.............333333333333...... ..4444444444........55555555 as
many as it takes till u come back and see us again lol the funny thing is
u just gotta look out the door and say hey lol





peace out

so easy for u to say:p

ahahahhaha i am just messing with u :o

try a .22 wid a nice scope gotta hit em in the head or they live to eat another day i think u can get rifle silencers?

u know me and toker
will always be here for ya no matter
how hard shit gets...

hell just yell out ya window and
im sure one of us will here ya...lol :p

if ur outta dope we smoke one wit
u and if we are outta dope u smoke one wit
us...

well c-ya later dude

peace :cool: