Ayahuasca changed my life...

high all,

After many, many months of research, I decided to try Ayahuasca for some enlightment in life. A friend of mine, who is bi-polar, tried it, and his whole outlook on life is different. He no longer needs prescription drugs to help him. This one ceremony of Aya changed him. I needed a change. I am a very angry person who has depression and anxiety. These prescription drugs twist my mind around and I feel emotionally trapped. I feel I can't express any feelings. I feel stuck, motionless, numb when I am on these pills. I don't want to take them anymore because they are very damaging to my body. So after 9 years of prescription drugs, it has now been 3 days since my last medicating, I have stopped. Here is my story:

I know of a Brazilian fellow who I use to work with years ago at a pig slaughtering house. For over a year he has been ranting and raving about Ayahuasca. He said it is a natural herb, that is brewed into a tea, and it is suppose to cleanse your body. I know I needed help, my friend gained from using it, so I was willing to try anything.

He brewed this tea outside in his yard. It was just some leaves and stems, looked like normal vine leaves and such. He boiled it in a pot over a fire for about 24hrs. He added natural tobacco, that means no additives, tobacco leaf, for flavour. After the brewing in a small pot, it was crammed into about a pint each of a brown, brew. It tasted like, burnt citrus drink with ciggarette butts. Awful, just awful taste. I choked it down in 2 gulps, and kept it down.

Within the first 20min or so, I could feel it coming on. The music around us seemed to get louder with every note. I closed my eyes and was having close eyed visuals of flashing images. Some were of bloodied bodies, a trainwreck, and a major environmental disaster(oil spill, forest fires, etc). They were flashing in my mind, non-stop, and with each flash, the picture got clearer and clearer, until I opened my eyes and it stopped.

I was feeling a little sick to my stomach at this point, which is normal. Vomiting is the part that supposed cleanses your body of evil. I hear a knock at the door, I answer, and I see past relatives and old friends. I saw my grade 1 teacher there, my Opa was there, my old pet cat who died a few years ago, and my old friend who commited suicide years ago. I could see them, but it was like I could see right through them. Like they were a mist or something. I taled to my old friend, his name was Dan, I asked him why...he answered me saying it wasn't my fault he did it.

My Brazilian friend comes in, asks me who I was talking to. I turned around and said..."Th..." They were all gone. A hallucination in my mind. I pet my cat, I talked to my friend, what the hell is going on?! I thought. I was tripping, but in a good way.

I then went back outside and I vomited. It wasn't pleasant, but afterwards, I felt total bliss. Like I was on cloud 9 with a pound of weed and hundreds of hot, naked Asian girls. I recalled my conversation with Dan. I went over it in my mind continuously. Was he there in spirit, talking to me, or was just having a trip? I didn't know, but I feel a huge weight off of my shoulders. After about 4 hrs of tripping, it stopped. I went home, smoked a doob, recalled my convo with Dan again, and went to sleep.

I woke up and I felt at ease. I felt happy, blissful, like the question that has been eating at me for years was finally answered. I didn't take any pills that night, and haven't in 3 days. Usually if I don't take them, I am off the wall, but I feel calm, love for my fellow person, liberated, reborn, and I no longer feel angry. I am a very hateful person, but I now realize that life is too short to be angry. I wanted to be happy, for once, I wanted to be without pills. I didn't feel human, I felt dependant on these pills, I hate them!

For once in 9 years, I feel happy, and non-violent. I feel peaceful, very peaceful. I think I found what I was looking for through the use of Aya. I encourage anyone who is emotional, mental pain, to sit down with someone, and drink this tea. It was the best thing I could have ever done for myself. I no longer need prescription drugs, and I can go back to feeling normal, human again. I am making Aug.22, a yearly event for me, to cleanse my soul through the use of Aya.

Thank you for reading.

Nice story. Glad you're feeling well!

Wow, that's pretty crazy...glad it helped you out man.

That was an uplifting story......... thx for sharing, very interesting

nice story and thanks for sharing it with us man......because this is such a close community, i will tell you all i have panic attacks (anxiety), depression (never cut myself, dont have the strenght to) and have ALWAYS for some reason been scared of fighting........its like a emotional illness for me. so ya never know i may consider trying something like that, but ill think about it, i do need 2 clense my life through again like re-birth but i dunno........i kno it isnt nice to have all these things locked inside you so i guess the best way is to get them out in the open.

peace.

whatever it takes i suppose.
although i'm one hundred percent positive that your strong-minded enough to do that on your own, without ayahuasca.
i'm proud of you - honestly.
congratulations on your newly refound life. enjoy it, it's wonderful.

Thanks for the kind words all!

It was truely an exciting experience, and enlightning. Keep smokin! Peace :cool:

thats really good man. ive lost some important people before in my life... i wud be to afraid to trip out on that stuff i think id get freaked from talkin to dead people.

but seriously, thats good for you, good to hear it

wow youve come along way since this thread i feel,

anyhow i wathced a program called "Tribe" where this guy goes round the world spedning time with tribes and he took Ayahuasca and changed his life too,

how are the effects now... (do they still have a postive effect on your outlook?)

Ayahusaca is some crazy stuff. Reminds me my experience with it, it was life-changing to say the least. Out of all my psychedelics experiences, you can't beat the power of ayahusaca.

What I saw is just imcomprehendable........you would have to try it yourself if you can take drinking the nastiest shit alive and puking :)

Next time I go to peru i'll have to see if I can get some....

man, I wanna know where I can get this. With the way you said it helped you, I wonder if it would help with my depression

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Originally Posted by hello3pat

man, I wanna know where I can get this. With the way you said it helped you, I wonder if it would help with my depression

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The ingredients are all available online at places that sell ethnobotanicals, you have to make it yourself, that comes with half the fun.

If you won't help yourself with depression, ayahusaca won't as well. It takes you to the door, but in the end, you have to walk through it.

Think it could help me get over my anger?

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Originally Posted by Matt the Funk

Next time I go to peru i'll have to see if I can get some....

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Oh, you are from Peru? Cool!

One of the places I want to see. How my friend describes it, it's so chill.

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Originally Posted by Matt the Funk

Think it could help me get over my anger?

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I don't wanna say it could or couldn't, or it's some kind of remedy, but what you see and feel from the experience is unforgettable. For me, it helped see what kind of person I was truly in an immaculate state of mind.

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Originally Posted by thcbongman

Oh, you are from Peru? Cool!

One of the places I want to see. How my friend describes it, it's so chill.

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Half Peruvian. Never actually been there. I plan on going this summer with my grandmother, i'll live with all my cousins. One of my other cuz's says it's a beautiful place. The amazons and such. I have an uncle(yeah LOTS of family) who runs some type of tour place in the amazons. But the cities suck. Lots of guerrillas, and not a safe place to just be walking around. I dunno how good the weed is over thier though, but I deff want to toke up and see the amazons+machu picchu.

Yeah, where can you get this stuff? Someone to make it for you? Stuff like that. This sounds like something I would really like to try.

From what my friend tells me, you can get a whole bag of weed for dirt cheap, and it's potent stuff :p Also I want to try the cocoa tea, a peruvian speciality.

I swear, when my south american friends talk about their countries, I get green with envy, it just sounds gorgeous and beautiful to live in, despite all the violence.

Hopefully if everything works out, I'm going to visit one of my friends in Argentina. All he told me was to bring $5,000 and I could live like a king.

Wow, this is quite an old thread. Cool.

Although since then, I had to go back on medicine for my illness, but I am on such a low dose, that it doesn't turn me into a confused zombie. I am able to function.

But my anger has pretty much subsided since then. I am a lot more tolerant, patient and independant, so in ways, it really did help, but that is a realm of reality I never want to enter again. It's only a once in a lifetime thing, and even if things go good or bad, it's something you never want to come face to face with again.

So in the end, over a year later, it helped but didn't "cure" my bi-polar diorder, but there was a huge significant change with my anger. I stopped taking my anger medicine after that and have been off it since.

There are many online shops that sell the ingredients to produce this. Same sites that sell Salvia and all of those other natural things. I'd do a check on Google :)

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Originally Posted by thcbongman

From what my friend tells me, you can get a whole bag of weed for dirt cheap, and it's potent stuff :p Also I want to try the cocoa tea, a peruvian speciality.

I swear, when my south american friends talk about their countries, I get green with envy, it just sounds gorgeous and beautiful to live in, despite all the violence.

Hopefully if everything works out, I'm going to visit one of my friends in Argentina. All he told me was to bring $5,000 and I could live like a king.

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Niceee. I love the cocoa tea. My grandma always makes sure to bring some back. It's pretty tasty with some honey and works kind of like coffee, but more pleasant than caffiene. Also, Nochowder, great to hear about the whole anger thing.

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Originally Posted by thcbongman

The ingredients are all available online at places that sell ethnobotanicals, you have to make it yourself, that comes with half the fun.

If you won't help yourself with depression, ayahusaca won't as well. It takes you to the door, but in the end, you have to walk through it.

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Everyone I have seen about my depression have said that to get better I would have to take medications, but the problem is, I researched these med.s and personally I think the side affects can cause more problems than the reason why your origanly taking it. My father takes antidpressents and he seems emotionless, it's like he is acting out the emotion appropriate for the moment but he's not truly feeling it at the time, and personally that scares me. I've told him that the way anti-depressents afect him outwardly seriously scares me, but he just ignored me and told me I needed to stop smoking pot and take anti-depressents. All the doctors said that marijuana would seriously cause my condition to get worse, but from what I've experianced weed has helped me more than any doctor has with this and my ADHD and anxiety.

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Originally Posted by hello3pat

Everyone I have seen about my depression have said that to get better I would have to take medications, but the problem is, I researched these med.s and personally I think the side affects can cause more problems than the reason why your origanly taking it. My father takes antidpressents and he seems emotionless, it's like he is acting out the emotion appropriate for the moment but he's not truly feeling it at the time, and personally that scares me. I've told him that the way anti-depressents afect him outwardly seriously scares me, but he just ignored me and told me I needed to stop smoking pot and take anti-depressents. All the doctors said that marijuana would seriously cause my condition to get worse, but from what I've experianced weed has helped me more than any doctor has with this and my ADHD and anxiety.

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See, I should be one of those with ADHD, and anxiety. I know i'm afflicted with both, and I have anxiety attacks from time to time, but I refuse to let these labels control my life. I refuse to take pills I know won't do me any good. I taken them. All it does is make you gain weight, and you feel like a zombie? How does this exactly help with depression? It simply doesn't.

Who's to say ADHD is a bad thing? We see and feel in ways the "normal" people don't. We pay attention to the details. We have empathy for our fellow man. We think in a way other people can't. I feel drugging up people to put them down is not the solution.

Psychedelic experiences can open your mind, and see yourself from within yourself. It's hard to describe, but it opens your mind in mysterious ways, unlock your deepest thoughts, and desires. It can take a toll on your mind with frequent use, but I wouldn't take back a single experience, because the perception of how I saw life evolved from those experiences.

Exercise is just as good remedy for depression and anxiety. Great for your body, builds up self-confidence. Change your outlook on life, think positive, even tho life doesn't always work out that way. Meditate, it's great to learn to control focus and clear your mind. You just have to do little things to change the big picture.

When you were under this stuff...was it really intense? Like salvia-intense? Was it uncomforable at any point, any euphoria?

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Originally Posted by phoenix

Wow, that's pretty crazy...glad it helped you out man.

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jesus christ man, your AV nearly gave me a full on acid flashback, FUCK!!!

awesome story, i've always wnated to see hallucinations like that. congratulations

yeah, it's DMT. You can make it out of some reasonably standard household materials actually. Weird shit, be careful with it. It's not REALLY a recreational drug.

I made a thread like this the next day after I tried it too...but it got deleted within the minute! :)

Aye I can relate to the experience as well..it was very much just like that.
I felt a great sense of responsability and caring for the planet...

Good stuff man, I'm happy to hear you tried it !!


I highly consider this entheogen a revolutionarist

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YEAH SON!