F*** all.

The American Dream? Bullshit from the Menace. Hope? Fuck that. I don't believe in anything related to that worthless evasion of reality. I prefer to consume drugs to evade reality. Seems like everytime something goes right in my life, something fucks it up. I never did care about life, but certain events during the last few months have firmly backed those perceptions. I haven't given two fucks about life for seven years, and the way I look at it, every day I live is one less on this shitty situation. Later.

PS: There is no hope in life, only drugs to get away from the never ending bullshit.

pothead is the american dream. pothead with money and bitches. well its my dream anyway. :cool:

As a Buddhist, all i can say is let go of material and physical stimulous as a dependence on happiness. happiness is from within. it's not in the American dream, the fancy new cloths, your bran new xbox and games, in brainwashing, propoganda hype, or any of that nonsense. live pure, let go of hatred, see reality for what it is. As the Buddha said, and I agree with, evil is the product of ignorance, greed, and ego.

btw, do you by chance feel like sharing what's eating at you?

Just a bunch of shit that never seems to stop happening. I lost my dad on 24 April 2005, someone who I'd been helping survive since I was eleven years old, and I'm 19 now, so that's eight years of helping someone, and it pretty much deadened up a lot inside me. Other things that piss me off include lack of a job, losing a job last night, the job was construction, and the guy I was working for felt I wasn't big enough to do it, got paid anyway, we all know where the money is going: Either on weed, Methadone, or OxyContin.

"Reality is for people who can't handle drugs" â?? a T-shirt of mine

This is true. I find that when I'm fucked up on something, I can cope with reality better. Being straight is a new and strange experience for me.

well, eating tons of pills probably isn't going to help.... probably going to land yourself in a 12 step program.... that won't be any fun now will it.... doing pills to get rid of depression only digs your hole deeper.

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The American Dream? Bullshit from the Menace. Hope? Fuck that. I don't believe in anything related to that worthless evasion of reality. I prefer to consume drugs to evade reality. Seems like everytime something goes right in my life, something fucks it up. I never did care about life, but certain events during the last few months have firmly backed those perceptions. I haven't given two fucks about life for seven years, and the way I look at it, every day I live is one less on this shitty situation. Later.

PS: There is no hope in life, only drugs to get away from the never ending bullshit.

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one word that will cure you: prozac

stop whining you little beeyatch

You don't know what you're talking about. I don't think you know what you're talking about. Ever watch someone crying in pain, and having a massive heart attack? I doubt it. I find your posting incredibly offensive. How much lower can you sink?

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You don't know what you're talking about. I don't think you know what you're talking about. Ever watch someone crying in pain, and having a massive heart attack? I doubt it. I find your posting incredibly offensive. How much lower can you sink?

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Lol i would tell you but then you'd find my posting incredibly offensive too. :D

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Lol i would tell you but then you'd find my posting incredibly offensive too. :D

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I don't think it's goddamn funny. What kind of sick swine are you? Laugh at someone else's misery? That must be the kind of evil vermin you are.

Keep your head up man... Maybe you should get some counceling, watching a loved one die can be very traumatic... I think I would need some counceling if I ever went through shit like that. I am sorry man, wish there was something I could do. I'd sure stay away from poppin those pills though. Stick with the herb to escape, it's safer. peace.

Nothing any of us say is going to make you feel any better. So why the fuck bother?All I can say is, Life is a bitch, We live. We Die. So, fuck it all and lets get high.

You're naturally feeling fucked because you lost your father, no one expects you to get over it. Let it all out. And then when you do, you'll feel better. as for the drugs,don't do something just because people are telling you there bad!If they're helping you and making you happy Fuck it. I wish luck to you and your liver.But no one can help you but you..No one can kiss it all better.

So I won't give you any lectures, but I will give you some advice. Eat a cookie after smoking you a blunt. I promise you'll love it.And even enjoy it. :cool:

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I don't think it's goddamn funny. What kind of sick swine are you? Laugh at someone else's misery? That must be the kind of evil vermin you are.

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Lol im the sickest swine there is......THE PO-PO!!!!! lol sorry man but your too uptight. Everyone goes through shit, dont get all pissy. GOD DAMN!

i have massive bouts of depression, i feel like i'm under god's microscope. i got like 2 freinds left (not counting the ones here) and they always have the time to sit and talk to me. i feel the same way, as far as getting knocked back down. i had the feance, i had a decant job, and was saving for a house. then the shit hit the fan, and i was homeless for a month. no girl, got fired, pissed through my savings. i'm just now getting back on my feet. The one GOOD thing about this country is your freedom, and freewill. go somewhere, and do somthing, anything! if indeed your pissed for loosing somone, this is not the way to honor them. do something they always wanted to do. in any case i send my deepest condolences.

just live life and enjoy it, u should be able to deal with reality most of the time. once ur old and about to die, you'll wish u enjoyed ur life. and theres no telling for sure if theres an after life, so i wouldnt plan on that.

happiness isnt about all teh materialistic shit u have. its the relationships u have with other ppl and ur happiness