need something to feel nothing

hey this is laura again. i don't know how this sounds, but basically, what i've been looking for is something to make me feel nothing. apathetic or something, i guess.
I've done 150 mg dxm & i really liked the drunk stupid careless feeling...i've done 100 mg diphenhydramine & oddly i liked the tired feeling for a couple of hours before it made me fall asleep like it always does (which is good when you just want the day to be over already), damiana, which i think isa placebo or whatever, but it made me a lot more relaxed on the dxm the one time i smoked it with dxm, and nothing really alone.
i can't really get anything worth getting, marijuana, etc... well it's a long story but i can't get any anymore. So i'm pretty much relying on household stuff right now.
I just bought some hawaiian baby woodrose seeds (I'm going to take like 2 seeds or something) & some kratom resin (how are you supposed to smoke that block anyway) from ebay. THose are the only things I can think of.
I'm not really looking for any psychedelics right now, just something that will make me not care so much & think so much, I want to stay away from anything that induces any euphoria or deep thoughts or anything, cause I have this weird thing I just can't handle it, I don't like to explain it. Just something that's like the drunk stupid feeling I got from the low doses of dxm.
(I don't like to take it more than once a week, it's so expensive $6 a bottle)
I appreciate it
Thanks
Laura

valuim or extacy would be alright how come ur not smoking weed?

Because I can't get it. My friends "quit" & won't give me any & I can't find dealers here. I can't get valium either....or ecstasy...damn.

you can find weed..anyone can find weed if they look hard enough, its everywhere!

Do you really want to feel nothing? Or do you just want to think less like when high on weed?

If you really want to feel nothing, take 600-900mg of DXM. True disassociation. If you take a little more, 1000 or so, you can even stop being laura and become a mere conciousness trapped in a shell, looking out from the windows that are your eyes.

I absolutely love the feeling of nothing. Of disassociation. You can get pretty crazy and heartless though. I had to cut back on my dex use. It was getting stupid. So, I just don't do it anymore since I have problems with moderation. -laughs-

PS - Take 5 seeds at the least. I take around 13, but 5 in like threshold I've found. Any less then that I, nor my friends, don't even feel anything. Keep in mind though, LSA intensifies life, which is what is the HB's. If you're looking to feel nothing, these won't be your cup of tea.

Maybe take some sleeping pills and sleep alot?

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Originally Posted by Purge

you can find weed..anyone can find weed if they look hard enough, its everywhere!

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just go walk thru the ghetto, somebody will help you out, that's how i always got mine in my hometown

oh yeah, get some guy to walk with you though, somebody you know, could be dangerous by yourself

how do you know? you just go up to people & say "yo hook me up bitch" by chance haha
i really honestly don't know where to find it. :(

That's why people have mail-order bud sites...

really?......where?? :eek: and how come no one told me?

well, as far as in the ghetto, you wouldn't normally be there right, so the drug dealers will know why you're there and probably ask you what you need before you even confront them, just make sure they see you

you want to feel nothing hey?? try heroine lol...or anythong other opiate...percacets, oxcytine or w/e its called etc

:D Does that work? There's a semi-ghetto where I live, well close to one anyway, i bet it's not enough for it to work.

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Originally Posted by Nick1990

lol, thats a nice way to get hurt. atleast at night, but at day it works, one time i was walkin through a ghetto-ish neighborhood in the day to get to a headshop and halfway there i lit up a philly and a black dude on a bike came up to me a minute later and asked me if i wanted some weed

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yeah that can be dangerous nick, but i told her to take some guy with her, it's so much less dangerous when you have someone with you...but they know why unfamiliar faces are there: looking for weed...they pretty much handle it once they see you...

laura, honey, just take a friend with you, and a cell phone if you can, it's worth a try...and i don't wanna sound sexist or anything, but you should take a guy with you, because what looks more appealing to a thug? 2 girls alone, or a girl with a guy?

but hey, just take a walk through there, check it out, you don't have to ask around, just scope it out, see how many cops hang around, look around for people, and they'll spot you if they want to get rid of some stuff, and then, when you do score some, tell the dude, "hey, i've been having trouble finding my shit, can i get in touch with you if i need some later?" he'll probably give you a phone number or tell you to walk through some time when you need something...

thanks; i hope it works
i look like a kid though lol they'll look right over me

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Originally Posted by laurajustlaura

how do you know? you just go up to people & say "yo hook me up bitch" by chance haha

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actually yes, when i suspect someone may have weed, is ask them if they have some green. if they are a toker, theyll know what you mean and help you. if they are not, then they will likely ask you what you mean and then just say that you were asking for change for a five or something. green is the best word since it passes for money too.

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Originally Posted by laurajustlaura

thanks; i hope it works
i look like a kid though lol they'll look right over me

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hey, i'm 21, and i look 15...i probably looked about 12 or 13 back then when i bought my weed that way...they'll know why you're there, if you don't normally go there

but hey, definitely try the DXM thing if that fails...or better yet, try it anyways!

DXM's my favorite. it was my 1st & will probably always be my favorite
i don't take a lot, just enough to feel a little drunk
i'm taking it tomorrow (which is actually today, it's 2:30 am)

anyways....now i gotta find a guy to go in there with

i think the thing that you need is some morphine. its like a super stoning!!! its pretty cool if you can find the right stuff

dude.... morphine sucks when u are coming down from your high on it... but yea go to the gheto

I'm sorry, Laura, but is your last name, MacGyver? You, definitely, know the laws of concoctivity. Or you're way around the house, I'm not sure what concoctivity is. I remember an old song, "You don't get...something for nothing." (You can't have freedom for free, you don't get wise with the sleep still in your eyes... no matter what your dreams might be.)

Get some ether.

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Originally Posted by beachguy in thongs

I'm sorry, Laura, but is your last name, MacGyver? You, definitely, know the laws of concoctivity. Or you're way around the house, I'm not sure what concoctivity is. I remember an old song, "You don't get...something for nothing." (You can't have freedom for free, you don't get wise with the sleep still in your eyes... no matter what your dreams might be.)

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well, when that's all you can get.....i've been to erowid many, many times.

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Originally Posted by dooman

you want to feel nothing hey?? try heroine lol...or anythong other opiate...percacets, oxcytine or w/e its called etc

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lol any"thong" hehe :D

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Originally Posted by Transitive Nightfall

actually yes, when i suspect someone may have weed, is ask them if they have some green. if they are a toker, theyll know what you mean and help you. if they are not, then they will likely ask you what you mean and then just say that you were asking for change for a five or something. green is the best word since it passes for money too.

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lol that is ingenious green = money/weed u could be the next einstein I really gotta use that if I ever lose my connection thx :o

hmmm u dont wanna feel anything

try:

dxm
opiates (look for tylenol 3 and 4 because they contain codiene)
sleeping medicin
muscle relaxants

hopefully that helps

later

muscle relaxants...genius. where do you get those?...when i go to the doctors , no matter what i say i have, they say "take advil", & when i used to go to the psychiatrist, they gave me zoloft. no matter what they thought i had. assholes.

get a prescription for baclophyn that slows your whole body down. But if it's nothing you want to feel then nothing is all you have to take.

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Originally Posted by Drugman Joe

Get some ether.

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i've heard about ether, i saw the movie fear and loathing
anyone know anything about "ether" and how to get it
i don't think i'm crazy enough to do it, i'm just a bit curious