Mescaline Exp Log

I thought I would take this since I just ate 15 grams. I wanted to wait till I felt first effects to start it, so I waited till now.

6:35 -- I ate 30 gelcaps, containing 15 grams in total (maybe more, I really packed em in fat)

6:45 -- Finished all after ten minutes. Took longer because I washed the excess powder off em, but I didn't dry em fast enough and they started to get mooshy, so I hadda rush em down.

7:52 -- Noticed the curtain blowing in the wind, realized it kept going when the wind stopped. Other small distortions. More later.

isnt mescaline the stuff in peyote cacti? if so did u extract it or something

Powdered Peruvian Torch. Does anyone have a conclusive answer about how potent they are, by the way? I heard they're like 2.4% more potent than other San Pedro, and I also heard they're less potent.

8:31 -- Definite visual breathing stuff, may be taking slower cause I ate (I was huntry, had to rush the pills before dinner or my ideal after-dinner shit) but it's getting more and more pronounced by now. Erowid doesn't have an effects list for this, surprisingly enough, so I'm trying to watch for the one thing I've been concerned about with taking this: the dilated pupils. They seem like the only telltale to me, since it's pretty easy to maintain a level head at this dose (I did it the other day, was able to deal with my mom when she snagged me walking around the house in the dark at 4:00 in the morning) and I'd like very much to take this shit at school if I could handle it rela well. This pill thing is a bit of a pain to swallow all at once, but once it's done there's zero nausea (though a full stomach, not in the mood for a trampoline) and only minor bowel rumblings. This may be a pretty good dose and method of dosing.

8:34 -- I finish typing that thing.

thats funny= 8:343 fininshed writing that. that had nothing to do with the drug. you must be out of it because your not describing the "high" very well.where did you get that stuff.

9:10 -- Ghosts and angels in the ceiling. Right in the ceiling. Inescapable. They keep trying to show me a hole, but I'm not focused enough, I lose sight. It's a hole to somewhere all right. They're all over the room, not just in the ceiling, everywhere.

9:17 -- Death and hell and heaven and life are nothing but viarants on the common theme. Everything in life is an allegory of life, an example of life living in that instant. Existence is flawless in its flaws, because without no flaws a flawed side would be forced to develop. There has to be a balance, every time you split something in half each half can be split again. Each half becomes its own whole once it loses its balance with the uneasy end of the stick.

9:19 -- Allegory of life in progress: looking through my water glass I can see the CD stack for how it is. Somehow in one frame of the glass pattern the whole thing is shrunken to minimal perspective. Through an improvised looking glass I see an allegory of life, a small part of an object viewed through as its whole, to show me that life lives in life. Every facet of life is a perfect example of life. It's simple now, but I know I'm going to forget it later.

9:21 -- It's simple now, but I know I'm going to forget it later. The meaning of life, the meaning of life, the meaning of life, for me, for everyone, is in life. It's like that Dali painting, where the molecules form a basic picture of a face (forget whose) in a geometric pattern of cocentric rings or maybe squares, and behind every molecule light is thriving. That is life, not the structure of the molecules or the image they present. I can see it now.

9:22 -- But I know I'm going to forget it later. (you reached for the secret too soon--you cried for the moon)

9:23 -- Remember when you were young

You shone like the sun







shine on, you crazy diamond.

Now there's a look in your eyes like black holes in the sky.

Shine on

you crazy diamond




9:24 -- Come on, you target for faraway laughter, come on you stranger, you legend, you martyr, and shine





shine
shine
shine
shine
shine
shine
shine
shine

9:30 -- World is trying to close up on me, I see the geckos and the ghosts out of the corners of my eyes, the cat on my dad's armchair that turns into shadows when I'm looking at it - camoflauge, these fucking things hide from me and throw secrets in front of me like meat in front of a chained dog. What the fuck am I supposed to do with your hole if I can't see into it?

9:31 -- It doesn't make sense.

an edit:

Maybe I can't take this at school. AHAHAHAAHAHAHA Laughing makes me cough. Unrelated I think.

9:43 -- An arrangement is struck with a friend! A pointillism of light from between two stone clouds, planted in the dome of a friend of a friend.

Do my friend Graeme a service, and do not try to talk to him.

(this is my AIM AIM AIMA AIM AIM AIM AIM you are free to speak with ME ME MEM EM ME ME)

"oh god, it's from waldo."
"that shmuck," said sheila.


john soutter rox: geh
Graeme: ?\
john soutter rox: too much man
john soutter rox: not in a bad way
john soutter rox: just too much
john soutter rox: you're gonna love it
Graeme: whats goinig on with you
john soutter rox: all the ghosts and angels are right in front of you
Graeme: how much more do you have left
john soutter rox: and they dont go away when you blink
john soutter rox: --very little, enough for a first timers dose
john soutter rox: ahahaha!
john soutter rox: htye show up everwhere
john soutter rox: spatial demolition
john soutter rox: they hang in front of my face too
john soutter rox: and they try to show me a hole
Graeme: damn
john soutter rox: but my focus isnt right
john soutter rox: i can't see down the tunnel
Graeme: how much more of this do you have
john soutter rox: i hang onto the television remote for control
john soutter rox: isn't that excellent
john soutter rox: i have maybe 8 grams
Graeme: how much per use
john soutter rox: i took 15 solid grams but it looks like tim was generous with me
john soutter rox: as the bag was still filled with some after i filled up the pills
john soutter rox: which is to say, after 15 grams
john soutter rox: i don't know how many grams that is mescaline
Graeme: ho wmuch is a normal dose
john soutter rox: i think for every 400mg is 480mg mescaline for this cactus
john soutter rox: 15 is a weird dose
john soutter rox: i would give you all the 8 for your first time
john soutter rox: your first time
john soutter rox: the god of this
john soutter rox: of something
john soutter rox: shines behind every molecule
john soutter rox: so hard you can feel it
john soutter rox: and it makes you light
john soutter rox: alice
john soutter rox: i'm very small
john soutter rox: in a very big house
john soutter rox: very big allegory of life
john soutter rox: everything in life is an allegory of life
john soutter rox: i am very small
john soutter rox: in a very big universe
Graeme: see if you can get more of this from the guy so we can do it on the weekend
john soutter rox: we do shrooms together
john soutter rox: at the same time
john soutter rox: this is introspective
john soutter rox: this is different
john soutter rox: shrooms are connective
john soutter rox: auras
john soutter rox: beings
Graeme: oh so how much would i need to give you for what you have left
john soutter rox: just my shrooms actually
john soutter rox: we coul dtrade off
john soutter rox: it would balance
john soutter rox: ablalance
john soutter rox: balalnce
john soutter rox: ballalalalalalalcne
john soutter rox: evyerhting
john soutter rox: break one thing in half
john soutter rox: it makes two things
john soutter rox: each of which
john soutter rox: can be broken in half
john soutter rox: this is a common
john soutter rox: law
john soutter rox: that
john soutter rox: cant
john soutter rox: be
john soutter rox: broken
john soutter rox: one entity and another entity make two entities
john soutter rox: this is how our universe perpetuates time
john soutter rox: this is how our geometry creates the illusion of linear time
john soutter rox: is with perpetuation
john soutter rox: splitting
john soutter rox: endless splitting
john soutter rox: halving of hairs
john soutter rox: it can always get smaller
john soutter rox: we can always become a bigger part of something
john soutter rox: something is always smaller
john soutter rox: and something is always bigger
john soutter rox: and we are the point in the middle
john soutter rox: and being that point
john soutter rox: are every other point
john soutter rox: and this perpetuates us
john soutter rox: and creates the illusion of time
john soutter rox: there is no time
john soutter rox: just events on top of events
john soutter rox: everything happens for a reason
john soutter rox: because every action has a reaction
john soutter rox: and every action is a reaction
john soutter rox: there was only one genesis action
john soutter rox: and i can see it
john soutter rox: but its down the hole
john soutter rox: you need it
john soutter rox: it would be selfish of me to keep the last trip
john soutter rox: we trade
Graeme: just hold onto it because i cant afford to this week
john soutter rox: i will give you money for mushrooms then
john soutter rox: but take it anyway
john soutter rox: not with us
john soutter rox: take it alone
john soutter rox: with us
Graeme: ok i can try and get some weed or something for you but i just need the mushrooms around
john soutter rox: sex!



9:48 -- God damn this thing!

Just watch this, Sheila.

Inside the package, Waldo




it would be soon

Sheila stood quite upright
and walked around to the other side of the package








and plunged the long blade through the middle of the package



















which split slightly and caused little








of red

damn what a trip?

10:25 that WOLF from the bugs bunny road runner cartoons, wile e. coyote, is in the blanket allegory of life. The blanket is stitched in flowers and vines, branching and patterning, as a testament to obsession with life. And what is this fucking cartoon dog doing in the middle of it. It makes no sense.

no offense buddy, but If you went to school on that shit, and started talking like you are right now, your teachers would think your fuckin crazy lol.

11:15 -- I realize now that I couldn't ever go to school on mescaline

not mescaline

This realization comes on the coattails of spontaneous generation
snakes and men and lizards and ticks
mating
in the ceiling
blank canvas for my god mind
Every level I ask it to show me, it can show me
I can show myself

Pink Floyd is purple, skeletal, with ticks and swooping skulls and scorpions all dancing and precogniscent decisions being made behind every part of me

I'm split up in four
eight
gymnodiddly fuck brevis
the single-celled bacteria that lives forever
in its infinite spanse of DNA DNA DNA
It makes the tide red.

That is the red tide, and I am the group mind and the god mind now.

I can't possibly go to school on this shit
no no no
no no no
no no no
someone recommend to me some music

Pink Floyd has too many skeletons
and scorpions
and ticks

I'll have to listen to some floyd when I get a chance to do some mescaline.

12:42 -- Twisted twisted twisted, this is so different from the first time

it's all so real

Did you get em as cuttings from divine or what?

Wow I just realized when I went to the dermatologist yesterday that my acne pills contai nmescaline.....LOL should itake a bunch of these capsules? They are full of yellowish powder...hmmmmmmmmm

Ah, over. I didn't get em from cuttings on Divine Cactus, I got this as powder doses from a friend. And are you serious, your allergy pills have mescaline in them?? I wonder what symptoms mescaline cures.

Anyway, that was some fucked up shit. Did the gelcap method and didn't throw up once, or even get the shits. Very realistic hallucinations, like skulls swooping in to swallow me and vampires and ghosts and some Indian all pointing at me. Very accusatory bastards. Also, the ceiling was maybe the best possible canvas for my imagination. At certain points the whole thing would change colors entirely, and I could bring on different stages of hallucination by asking myself.

Like I would go "show me airplanes" because I had a Howard Hawks thing going on in my head for some reason, and "airplanes" was like the code word for the next level up. Then entire shadows would morph and warp, usually starting with an airplane shape but then turning into see-through people and fish and amoebas. I had a lot of underwater stuff going on. Then I could say "show me bugs" and there would be very realistic shit going on all over, like if I didn't know better I'd have really believed there was snakes and mantises and ticks and flies and mosquitoes all over the place.

Also, maybe the most intense situation was when I was sitting right here, trying to type but not even remembering how to form a sentence (I literally forgot where a period goes) and then suddenly there were fish all around me, I saw my shadow on the wall acting like it was its own person and it got up and walked away, then a nautilus came out of the air and its face--in the hallucination the nautlius had a face--turned very red and detached from the body and floated right up in front of me and stared me down with beady little eyes set in a scaly little head, and then I looked up and saw a jellyfish-octopus thing dancing on the ceiling, made entirely out of shadows but totally realistic and it kept gaining detail the more I looked at it. It was huge, too, and the shadow tentacles were peeling off the wall and touching me, and its body was covered in spikes and dirt and was kind of segmented, not like a normal octopus in other words.

Also I got really freaked when a totally 3-D but very cartoony version of the coyote from the road runner cartoons popped out of some blanket across the room, and its nose was long enough to reach me. It grinned at me too, gave me the fucking chills.

Sometimes I just got so overwhelmed I couldn't even tell what the hallucinations were. Like when all sorts of skeletons and spears and tentacles and wheels and gears and cogs and levers and castles and bricks and bowls and food and flower seed pods were all just everywhere, and the whole house was rocking back and forth and the fridge was getting closer and closer. I couldn't even tell how all that shit fit into my vision, but it was there clear as day. Also, I could make any inanimate object come to life by looking at it.

The whole time, too, I felt like there is no such thing as time and that existence progresses like a spiral (or nautilus shell), being that it converges toward a center point, which we perceive to be the point that we're living at, but actually it keeps twisting in further than we can see, which is why we can't see the future, and also like a spiral or nautilus shell, it twists out the other way too, getting bigger as it goes past us, letting us "remember" events that are happening simultaneously with everything else. It's so hard to sort out, but I was dead convinced that linear time is an illusion.

This was Peruvian Torch, which I have heard is more potent than other San Pedro. I wouldn't doubt that considering the fucking mind-ripping that went on. It may sound very freaky in some patches, but I definitely recommend this. Seriously, it was one of the best trips I've ever had.

That sounds so much more fucked up than the dex trip I had. Glad you had a good time.

im growin some peruvian torch.. now i cant wait!!

P.S. No pupil dilation at all. If you can keep from acting crazy nobody will have any discernible physical way to tell.

thats was intense

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Originally Posted by Bain fArt

Wow I just realized when I went to the dermatologist yesterday that my acne pills contai nmescaline.....LOL should itake a bunch of these capsules? They are full of yellowish powder...hmmmmmmmmm

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mescaline is a schedule I drug, I find your claim dubious.

damn justice, u got fucked up big time....

Nice trip.

Your allergy medicine does not contain mescaline.

It's some other thing spelt similar like mezcalizine or something trust me check it again..

lol I once took it thinking I would trip balls, it pretty much does nothing but makes you a little more pepped up like caffiene.

Dick, that sounds intense. How is it in comparison to an acid trip.

BlastedTotheSKY we have the same Avatar lol oh well (if you had yours before me, sorry for stealing it, but i'd never seen it anywhere before)

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Very realistic hallucinations, like skulls swooping in to swallow me and vampires and ghosts and some Indian all pointing at me. Very accusatory bastards. Also, the ceiling was maybe the best possible canvas for my imagination.

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Shit like that is why I don't think I'll evah trip. I think I'd end up just freaking the fuck out. LOL :)

dick that is one fucked trip

the stuff u were saying tripped me the fuck out and im not even stoned

later

Is mescaline illegal? If not, where can one get it from?

Yes, mescaline is illegal. However, there are certain cacti which are not illegal that contain varying levels of the chemical in question... so you can still get it if you try hard enough.

Shine on you crazy diamond is one of my favorite Pink Floyd songs, sounds like a sweet trip. I wish I could get some Mesc.

My friend says he had an out of body on mesc. which makes me want to try it.

Ive never tripped on anything before but i wanna so bad :(

man if you say "allegory of life" one more time iwill be forced to punch you.. so much for mescaline being a spiritual enhancer, you though tyouknew whatyou were talking about,but it really made no sense..at all.

That means you've had no experiance with trippy drugs.