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Anyone have mental problems they wish to share with the lovely pothead community? I have parinoid schizophrenia with only 1 psycotic episode so far..I should have been hospitalized for it but my friend did'nt even tell me what it was even though he knew.
I have some of the worst anxiety and depression...i dont take any meds for it tho other than smoke weed. Ive been depressed free for about a year tho, and anxiety varies...somtimes im anxious over somthing lil and stupid but sometimes it gets reaaaaaal bad...i make my mind play tricks on me im so fucked up to myself somtimes.
No pure I don't have a mental disorder but have been depressed before. To the point that I have spent time in the hospital for it. I'm talking about weeks here, not day. In fact it was almost two months. They said I had, "co-dependency" problem. No I didn't, I had a fucking cheating husband and I was 10 hours away from the nearest family memeber at the time, I was pregnate and only 19 years old. Go figure I hadn't chosen to leave him inspite of what he was doing to me. Anyway, it took me years to learn that it wasn't all me. Yes, I was depressed. I was also sexually abused by 4 people during my childhood. So I had a fear of being left alone and abused b/c I had been most of my life. I also had to just deal with it as a child so as a young adult I didn't know how to do anything else but just deal with what was going on around me. With the help of a good therapist, a few years later when I was about 25 I was finally able to deal with my past, and get rid of my ex-husband. Codependent NO MORE! I also learned that his cheating had nothing to do with me, and it wasn't my fault he had a need to do such things to me. It was a ruff start in my early twenties but now, I'm good. I don't take shit from anyone, and least of all my current husband. I have a good man in my life now, but only b/c I insisted upon it. He wasn't just the next guy I dated after I left my ex-husband. I dated so many guys that I learned what it was I wanted and needed in life to be happy. I settled for nothing less then what I deserved so I you as you can see I'm depressed no more. But not b/c of the new man in my life. It just that I had to learn to deal with my past. I had to learn to accept what had happned to me and how to deal with it as it comes up in my life now. I also had to learn that I was worth loving and deserved that. It was long hard stuggle, but in the end, all my hard work has paid off, and now, I feel free to my life without the lies and without hiding what happened to me. I am what I make of myself and I can't let those who hurt me, bring me down one more day, for if I do, they win, and I lose. Not an option for me.
I know that this really doesn't help you much. I guess in sharing this information I want you know that no is perfect we all come with flaws. We must remember that we are what we are and as long as your seeing a doctor and getting help with your problem, there is nothing more you can do. Be sure and seek out the medical help you need, as that is your only defence to the problem you have. I wish you luck and know that I'm here if you anything. Who knows maybe the one episode you had is all you will ever have, and things will be smooth sailing from here on out. Wish you luck, and please, please, go see a doctor if you haven't already.
these therapists have all your minds fucked up!!
amsterdam, depression and weed can cause schizophrenia so i suggest taking meds cause bein a schizo may be fun during psycotic episodes but it completly sucks the rest of the time and it lasts the rest of ur life...what are you depressed about anyway?
i have seasonal affective disorder. S.A.D.S. for short. was on prozac for 3 months and zolofts for 1 month. mine is different because my disorder is from lack of light during the winter months. so i just increase my intake of bananas and use more light during that time.
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Just an F.Y.I for you, it was the grandfather who forced me to suck his dick at age 4,5,6 that fucked me up, I don't need to get anymore detailed then that, so just know that the therapist helped me get it over it. He sure as hell wasn't the one that fucked up my mind. I like to give credit where credit is due and if I'm going to give credit to the person/persons that fucked me up, it sure as hell wasn't my therapist.
O and in case you haven't learned this lesson before I will repeat it for you,
IF YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING NICE TO SAY, THEN DON'T SAY ANYTHING AT ALL!
That goes double for when you don't where someone else is coming from. :mad:
being put on medication isnt a solution?im sory you were raped as a child,hopefully he spent a good amount of time in a maximum security prison learning the rules of life prison style.
sure,i believe talking to a head doctor can help,but being put on CRAZY drugs like zoloft,tryleptol, and all the rest only causes more problems.i was part of the ritalin generation and about 4 years ago i was on 2 different types of drugs.i weened myself off them slowly and it still took about a year and a half for me to feel normal again.
damn im sorry smokin2...and pureevil....it kinda sucks,i choked on some candy as a kid and cant swallow pills no more(i prob can if i force myself) but i dunno...i dont like precrips meds and dont believe in em, other than the cold,headache over the counter meds...i dont wanna go schizo!
Amsterdam, I'm glad to hear that you have taken control of your life. I wasn't one of those people who took drugs to get over my problem I went to the therapist. Well, I do smoke, and that is an addiction that came from trying to get over my past, but all that aside, I dealt with my past and I still smoke the pot go figure, I love the stuff so much that I wasn't about to give it up. As far as the ritalin generation goes. I feel for you, and that's a fact. I think they have used that drug to solve so many bullshit problems but what do I know? It's only my opinion. All I know is when I was growing up there was no such thing, and some how we all made it. Go figure. Anyway, I didn't mean to be so harsh, I just felt like you were being harsh for no reason. You explaination makes sense now, so forgive me for my words of unkindness. I will say had you explained yourself from the start it would have kept me from saying what I had to say. You have a problem with the drugs they perscribe, and to that, I can relate. But to say all therapist just fuck with your minds, leaves me to think you had a problem with them in general, and I just wanted to be know that it wasn't them that fucked me up, they saved me from myself.
As for that asshole being in jail, no he isn't. He never paid for anything he did to me, neither has the other 3. Two are dead, and one got away with it, b/c of the satatue of limitations. Go figure, I finally got the courage to tell the truth only to be told, that I was three months too late to do anything about it. You have 5 years from the time you turn 18, and I had just turned 24 when I called the police. But that is life. The other, is still married to my mother, and yes, she knows, so I see her anymore. Again, that is life.You get what you get and you do your best to make it all work.
mmm maybe mild depression nothing else really. the depression is my fault tho.
a person who rapes a child never gets better!it really made me mad to hear that!!
when i was depressed last year it was over this girl and some of my friends, that drove me crazy but im fine now everything is normal now...it was only last year when it was horrible but i do have seasonal depression in the winter i get depressed somtimes....its ugly
I have a mild case of obsessive-compulsive disorder :(
Nothing to bad, just damn annoying sometimes.
Wow, we all have problems I see.
I think I was born with issues but they really took of when my father shot him self on my 15th B-day. Another legal drug that ruined my life and his, "alcohol". He would rather drink and watch TV than spend time being a father. I spent about 5 years in my room, every little mess up I did was a week or 2 restriction, in reality it was his way not to deal with me or raise me right. The drink was more important than me, when I get high I find myself to be a better father as I have great fun with my son and can only think of what it would of been like if my father was on weed instead of Alcohol.
mental problems are cool,normal people are boring!
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I guess, I would rather be boring
I have major clinical depression and have been on meds since age 12. Haven't had any serious episodes for years.
I have always had anxiety problems. As a young adult, I would treat myself with booze, and of course, that led to drinking problems. So I stopped drinking, and now I suffer from irrational panic attacks. Lots of it is related to enclosed spaces and crowds.
Fear of a panic attack can sometimes be worse that the attack itself. Fear of doctors also tends to prevent access to treatment. For the most part, I try to keep everything on the DL.
im scared seeing all so many people admitting mental problems, and also saying they are still smoking weed :(
pure evil, you have your schizophrenia diagnosed?, cos from what i know about it isnt it managed long term by anti-psychotic medication. if you weren't takin meds then arnt you puttin yourself at risk of relapse? if you live in uk your consultant would have you on depot medication if you were not takin meds in community, and in us wouldnt they have you in an asylum?- im assumin you've got a psychologist to be given the diagnosis? i just mention cos schizophrenia is a debilitating illness and not one you can lightly give your self after one psychotic episode t hat one friend bore witness too. how long was this psychotic episode, what were your symptoms? negative? positive? if it was a short term thing perhaps it was more like a drug induced psychosis - yes even ganja can do it to some people. i just wonder cos ive worked in a psychiatric hospital for around 4 years and so am interested......
Well...I was diagnosed with multiple personality disorder, then bi-polar disorder. The therapists werent able to help me (not to say they dont help, but they didnt help me) and they really fucked me up with drugs like halperidol (which is hell, literally), risperdal, lithium, etc...then the seratonin re-uptake drugs, prozac, zoloft, paxil, they didnt do anything except help with the depression a little. I never touched an illegal drug until I was 29 years old. After smoking some marijuana it was like all the 'bullshit' in my head ceased for a time. Then I smoked more and eventually became a stoner, and thats cool. Something it did that nothing else did was allow 'the others' if there are any, to communicate, remember past shit, face my own demons and today, I'm relatively normal. LOL Much like the other lady that responded on here...I was sexually abused at a very young age, subjected to cruelty and tactics that really fucked me up. Anyhow...I realized it wasnt my fault, and also realized the sickness of the people that do those sorts of things...they are more than likely just a cog in the wheel...but I have dealt with it all fairly well. I used to cut myself up, do destructive things to myself...but with paranoid schizophrenia, its so easy to totally lose your grasp of reality isnt it? I hope that you get help and ARE helped. I know the prescription drugs are akin to being in hell and that unlike those of us 'getting a handle on things' schizophrenics arent capable of doing that...you have to know the problem before you can fix it, and no one really knows what causes it or how it develops, or what happens in the brain. I'm not a know it all. And certainly not trying to be a smartass. I truly hope that whatever methods of treatment you go thru, that they help you somehow. For me, marijuana is the ONLY thing that has EVER eased my mind , allowed me to feel happiness , not worry about what someone else thought of me, and bring all the chaos of the shit that makes my psyche me to a calm and communicative point within myself. So find whatever it takes that helps you and do it.