Experienced repressed thoughts and temporary retardation from cannabis trip

A few days ago, when I decided to indugle in my once-a-week cannabis indulgment with the strain Haze, I loaded up my bubler with less than half a bowl. Feeling a hard-on like I always do before I light up Mary Jane, knowing that fun, high times lay ahead for me, I took the lighter and bathed the buds in the lighter. Held in the smooth, skuny smoke for 3 secs, breathed out into the fan. Feeling nothing yet, I rotated the bud, and toasted the other side, taking 2 more hits. Next thing you know...WHACK BAAM. Everything is in extreme slo mo, I am 100% disconnected and deattached from my body, and feel an electric like presence whirl around my brain (Probably the Celebral buzz from the Sativa) anyways, Im in a good mind set here, though worrying that im baked like fuck, and the max didnt even reach yet. Knowing that I had a lot more to come my way, I got up, and walked around. Now here is the very strange part that I need you guys to analyze and intepret for me. When I got up from my bed, I felt very light headed, and my heart raced extremly fast, and I visually saw a cartoonish picture of my heart, with eyes and a mouth, struggling the waves of blood that hit it. Now, not feeling good, I laid down in my bed, and as soon as I laid down, I felt a very very slow pulse, and my blood pressure dropped vastly. So when I get up, it sky rockets up, and when I go down, the blood pressure drops extremly low. Well anyways, I got up, managed to get out for fresh air and felt better. By now, I am no longer in slo mo, but It is in picture frame (like flipping a book now). All of the sudden, I could remember all of the dreams I had when I was a baby, dreams of clowns, and fantasy fairy figures. I didnt like seeing this, felt very strange. Also I actually cried, exploring the repressed thoughts my brain had been repressing. I saw my father (A person whom I consciously hate and left me and my mom many years ago) but in this case, I was crying very hard for him. It was very uncomfortable experiencing repressed thoughts of him. I was able to penetrate deeply into my brain with ease, and explore hidden thoughts, feelings of sadness, etc etc. Then all of the sudden, not realizing it yet, I was retarded...literally retarded. I made strange faces like a retarded boy would make. I walked deformly like a retard. And my right leg was paralyzed. When trying to speak, I mumbled and slurred like a retard. I DEVELOPED THE HORRID THOUGHT THAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE BORN RETARDED. I felt all of these hidden feelings about myself, feeling that they were GENUINE hidden, repressed thoughts. Can anybody relate to this story?
I am scared for my next time that I may somehow be permamently retarded from this?

lol, you need to chill out a litle mate: i take it you were toking secretly? you probably just got very paranoid aka "The Chronic Fear". Chill, it may take a while not to think those thoughts again, just take it slow.

edit: plus, it's not possible for cannabis to do any damage in that way (making you permenantly retarded, lol)

i got a few possibilites
1.the weed was laced, it was prolly wet.

OR

2. ur just a ROOOOOOK

lol

Weed effects us in alot of different ways. I too seem to be able to access my brain easier and in more detail, perhaps that with alot of paranoia messed you up?

I can relate (I've had an almost identical experience.) and no your not permanently retarded, and no it wasn't laced, its just that you smoked some really potent stuff, that combined with you prolly bein a lightweight, and the fact that you only smoke once a week just made it an especiallly strong session.

yeah when im rely wasted i see into my child hood - not dreams but just lying there in my cot with my family - happy memorys fortunatly. Once i got this vision of the first time i saw my auntie like when I was a day old that was probably fictionalized from stories and photos but it demonstrates the power of weed and you must respect it

respect the weed dun... it's very powerful...

like when im was noob and people were like warning me to be carful i was like yeah whatever its only a dumb plant it cant hurt me but once youve been realy high you understand the full power

i wouldnt worry about it too much...but i did enjoy reading ur post. u prolly did well in english class eh? its amazing what ur brain can make u think is real.

as for the pulse speeding up and such...its a known fact that if u stand up after sitting down, you will lose blood in your head. then it all rushes back(heart speeds up) then u feel disorented.(being baked amplifies this) all you have to do is get up slower next time. crying is a natural emotion...i wouldnt worry bout that either and the fact that u think ur gonna get retarded from weed is a retarded thought on its own. so maybe u are becoming retarded :O...lol...jk

the cartoon heart...my guess is that its just something random u thought up of, like a dream...but dreams are known to have meanings too...so if i had to guess " I visually saw a cartoonish picture of my heart, with eyes and a mouth, struggling the waves of blood that hit it." to me, means that u are lookin to find love, with no luck...or very little luck.

Sounds like you just smoked some very dank bud and you were unprepared. Either that, or you are (this is a very rare possiblity indeed) slightly schizophrenic. I know that sounds really wierd, but I know and smoke with a couple of people that are slightly schizo, not enough to make them crazy or even act wierd normally, but just enough to be schizo. When they smoke powerful bud, they usually go through what you decribed, though not quite the same.

Perhaps it was just a powerful and bad trip...

When I'm high my brain is a library. I can access any thought about anything ever, even if its not there I think some shit up. It's fucked..