Salvia and the Unfolding

Twenty-X. I got the first two solid bong hits in before I felt anything at all. Made the best of the third one, sat back and froze.

Really I was just waiting expectantly. I was wondering if it was weak or fake, or if Salvia even had any effects. Then I took a breath, and something felt separated- Something internal. I tried to move, and there was something between us. Remembering that thought now is scary, because it is much harder to wrap my mind around what us I am talking about (though perfectly clear at the time). They were all me, but even each of â??usâ?� (meâ??s) were not contained within me. It was just enough separation to have a conversation with the â??onesâ?� unfolding ahead of â??meâ?� (from here on out, quotes are implied on any â??oneâ?�: me, you, we, us, etc. all the same thing).

There are connections in our existence we do not see, and they are huge. We are all one big entity. I could not see it even close to entirely even when I was aware of my attachment to it (to you, plural the rest of me, the rest of us, the rest of what we compose). I was not just thinking by or for myself, I was thinking for others, and they were thinking for me. We ARE part of a greater consciousness, and there is NOTHING we can do about it.

We are unfolding sheets, or cords, of energy, bundled around each other, unraveling. But we are so close to the action of, and it is so huge, that we canâ??t see the big picture (losing the forest for the trees), like if you are on a large curved surface (ie a sphere), and it is large enough with respect to an observer, it appears to be a flat surface to the observer (like us and the earth).

Ok, believe me, I hate the whole [mocking tone]energy layers bs, and we are all one, and single consciousness mysticism all the pseudo psych people spew, [/mocking tone] and I regret that mine doesnâ??t look much different. But sharing those terms with them is easier than believing no one has seen this before, or if they have, they havenâ??t they been screaming the truth to everyoneâ??s face. Then I realized they probably do. They just come off as lunatics (unlike meâ?¦ lol).

What is also kind of scary is reading the last sentence of the third paragraph. There is nothing we can do about it. Meaning I would want to do something about it if possible. It is somehow unpleasant to be part of something bigger we donâ??t understand, that is us, hurtling through (space? Existence? ). I lost the very definition of who I was. It became so randomly arbitrary it was beyond funny. I was overtaken by uncontrollable laughter, but I was NOT moving, my BODY was not laughing, but I was near shock with the idea of how define ourselves was ripped from me. This body is a pretty good approximation, right? I am self contained in here, and maybe if I believe in the mystical, or afterlife, or a soul or something, then I believe in an extension that no longer lives â??in hereâ?� (our meat) after death, at most. And I have even thought about that a lot in the past, but it really didnâ??t have an effect on how I really considered myself. We canâ??t define ourselves unless we understand the greater self, and the greater purpose.

Individually we are nothing in comparison to the scope of the whole entity. Not that our lives are not important, because taken together we compose the whole, but completely meaningless without the context of the rest of the pattern.

Today I am dealing with this epiphany that somehow gave me freedom and imprisonment simultaneously. For â??myâ?� purposes, I have every other one to depend on for the what has to happen, because those are â??theirâ?� purposes too; but â??weâ?� are just as responsible for the unfolding as well. It is on my shoulders just as much as anyone else. There is nothing we can do about it. We will still unfold whether you work against it or not (hypothetically. You donâ??t even know what exactly we are that is unfolding, so how could you â??work against itâ?�?). But even if you could, you would actually be working to help it (us/me/you)!

I have always liked the concept of gaia (like the earth is one organism), but I just always thought of it as an interesting way to think about things. Because while I can see the analogy b/t life on a smaller scale and the mechanisms of earth (people = cells etc, signature energy patterns ), it was always just that- an analogy. Just symbolic. No way could there be a greater consciousness, no way did the earth, as much as it looks like â??lifeâ?� (however you define it), have thought for itself, like if you were looking at a dog with the same eye as a giant alien might look at the organism earth (hmm, it is life, does it think like we do? Or does it merely react).

But it is sooo much more than the earth. I couldnâ??t even see the earth as relevant, or even think about it when we/I/one/it was unfolding. I am just remembering gaia now as I am recalling all of this. If the gaia supporters only knewâ?¦ â??organismâ?� can be defined in a broader scope than even planetary!

This was obviously not the â??hardestâ?� trip, where I was most out there, or fucked up, or confused, or â??seeing shitâ?� (believe me, I know, I trip balls out shrooms/acid, completely different). I know you are going to say it is all a hallucination (except that hallucinations are purely sensory, so this would be a delusion lol), but I wasnâ??t seeing or hearing anything. It was just a matter of putting all the input together in a different way. This was not just confusion.

I know you are just chuckling, thinking I am tripping. I am not tripping anymore (I think it only lasts a few minutes, or an hour or something, I couldnt tell). And this is very real. I remember thinking oh my god how am I going to accept this, then figured out it doesnâ??t matter, I saw the whole progression afterwards, trying to explain it, then there is no need to explain it, ok so why are you doing this, it is pretty much like screaming in the middle of a field just for the fuck of it, it has no relevance here. There is no need to convince everyone of some vague notion of â??the unfolding,â?� because it wouldnâ??t even matter. The only possible benefit would be moral or altruistic in nature. Like the people that [sarcasm]say we are all in this together, so lets be nice to each other, peace > war[/sarcasm] and all that. But just because I felt that simultaneous freedom and responsibility doesnâ??t mean I necessarily want or could do what is right (whatever that is, maximizing freedom and responsibility, if that is what you are supposed to do ANYWAYS! You are unfolding regardless!). Because realizing the proper choice (even before now) does not mean we necessarily follow it (trying not to get too much into free will vs. choice here, that was kind an irrelevant issue in all of this).

The only thing that matters now, to our lives now, is the way things work according to how we see them now. Which is no less true, or real really. Itâ??s not like a trick or anything, there is no big conspiracy, unless itâ??s ourselves tricking us, which might be required to a certain extent. There is no need for my (for instance) white blood cells to have any awareness of what they are doing, they are going to do what they are programmed to do.


I never saw even a mere fraction of us/it, I couldnâ??t even imagine it, I was just perceiving it, asking and answering questions about it, and I remember even less now, about the specific questions, but I still see in that direction. My only problem is how can it be so unimportant, the nature of what we are. Because ultimately it doesnâ??t matter for us to function. I didnâ??t need to see all that. No one wants to I guess, thatâ??s maybe why I have this mechanism in place, to keep my perception from getting toowide. Whatâ??sthe point of a white blood cell knowing what itâ??s doing? I didnâ??t even get anywhere near that.

We are part of something HUGE and I donâ??t know what the fuck it is, and I am not even speaking symbolically. I would demand that you take a look at it, but you may already understand what I saw and more, but just realize the unimportance of communicating it (because if it wasnâ??t an all of a sudden thing, maybe I wouldnâ??t have freaked out, like if I just grew up knowing it, it wouldnâ??t be such a big problem to process). Maybe someone else out there learned it from salvia, or dxm, and have seen it from a different angle. Or you just say I felt removed from my body Because now of course it looks like I would be expecting you to have the same trip, if what I said was truth. But we actually distort reality in two ways. Sensing stimuli is one filter (our sense organs themselves), then our cortex that puts it all together is another filter (we are biased in assimilating patterns). We might by chance see the same thing, but it is lost in language. Worth a shot, sorry for anyone who actually skimmed this who are still scratching heads.

Oh, sorry, second to last paragraph should be *not perceiving it. I could not perceive even a fraction of it

And one more thing, this doesnâ??t explain anything, doesnâ??t even seem like it fits in to the rest of it, but it does, just take it- pulling something out of my head that is still part of me, and I (my existence) spirals down the length of what it is, explaining all the way down to each successive one of us, wondering why we didnâ??t pull it out earlier (as we are standing up and pulling it out), but we always had been pulling it out and standing up, only now are you seeing the significance of it- oh, one of the other questions was when will it end, and then it was once they all unfold, and there are others in here... ? and why arent they helping us (they are!) and ...but then they KNOW!? (yes) then we will talk about it when I get up (yes) and laugh about it (yes). (but not in those words, although WORDS were used to explain this to us). This general action was a brief insight into what we were doing.

Damn this is veeery difficult. Hey, no offense taken if this needs to get zapped del.

Welcome to your true salvia self.... its pretty messed up eh?

Im gonna read that in the morning. When Im not so gone... :D

cant wait to get my stuff in the mail, just ordered sum 15x and 20x

Im still tryin to understand what you are tryin to explain. Might copy it and save it for when im on acid next bcos Im havin a bit of trouble wrapping my brain arond the whole several different entities to a single being and folds of energy etc. I did understand some of what you were saying regarding "we are aprt of something huge". Everything in life has a balance, equilibrium so to speak, an action reaction effect. This balance is ther bcos ultimately everything effects everything else, this is a reason for me to believe that we are apart of something great. However things might be percieved a lot different when we our bodies non existent, mayb we arnt meant to be able to comprehend this greater enitity bcos life is the blindfold that keeps us from seeing it.

Welcome to the Machine- Pink Floyd....Listen on salvia...oh my god.

man ive been hearing lots about this and yesterday at the head shop i saw some.. but it was like 1gram for 40 bucks.. damn. is it really worth that much cash? im poor i dont know when i'll ever be able to afford that shit lol.

Bogart, that was probably a higher extract. You can get 5x, 10x for 15-25 a gram. Trust me, two hits is all you need. It'll last you a while. Sell the rest off to a friend if you don't like it or somethin. You won't burn it like bud. There are a good few bowls in a gram of salv.

Yeah dude... welcome to Salvia.

hmmm good deal.