Why Are We Here??

I'm currently going to college, I have a girlfriend and a loving family. I'm not complaining about any of this, but I know that someday all of this won't be here for me. Someday I won't even be here!! It's hard to believe that we went through all these years of school, but for what reason? To maybe some day make a decent paycheck? I believe that money and wealth doesn't exist! I think that we are wasting all this time in schools, studying, and stressing ourselves out. Why can't we just be allowed to live everyday to the fullest? Not worry about a job or school? Just go out and enjoy what life has to offer. Spend time and make as many memories as we can with our loved ones while they are still around. I would like to spend my time with the ones that mean the most to me, I would like to do the things that make my happy. Travel the world (although that takes an incredible amount of money), smoke good "home grown" cannabis, not have to look in the newspaper and see all the depressing things going on in the world. There is more negative information in the paper now more than ever, and it just makes me sick when I can't go through the whole thing without seeing something in there about war, killings, accidents, or people that break the law! All government wants from us is to make the economy keep going, and pay taxes "on almost everything". I hope that I can find some people out there who truly do live their lives to the fullest, never regretting anything, and helping and respecting one another!
Peace and Love..

Sincerely,
Tyler G:thumbsup:

This slightly Utopian society you speak of may be possible in the future when computers are so powerful that they do all the crappy jobs like making tea for the fat cats and sweeping the streets. All food will be created in some kind of quantum food making device. Only once we are all free to do our own thing can we do it. Until then someone has to do the dishes.

NOT IT!! I'm not doing those damn dishes, thats why we have paper plates :)
So whats the weed going to be like then in the near future? Golf ball sized THC crystals on it? It could happen! haha

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Originally Posted by RoadRollin

It's hard to believe that we went through all these years of school, but for what reason? (...)
Why can't we just be allowed to live everyday to the fullest? Not worry about a job or school?

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I think its because:

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Originally Posted by RoadRollin

All government wants from us is to make the economy keep going, and pay taxes "on almost everything".

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So it brainwashes everybody since their birth, so everybody thinks that studying, having a nice job, making a decent paycheck, etc, is what life is about... and it does this brainwashing so nicely that most people thinks its even morally wrong to wish to enjoy the life instead wasting it for the benefit of the system.

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Originally Posted by bhouncy

This slightly Utopian society you speak of may be possible in the future when computers are so powerful that they do all the crappy jobs like making tea for the fat cats and sweeping the streets. All food will be created in some kind of quantum food making device. Only once we are all free to do our own thing can we do it. Until then someone has to do the dishes.

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Well... i think if this day come and peoples work werent required for the system to exist, i think the system will find a way to get rid of all the "superfluous" people... People costs a lot to the system, and the system only feeds them because it needs their work. But if one day the system were able to exist by itself, without peoples work, why should it keep them?

BTW, talking about this subjects is somewhat dangerous... we, the ones who realized this things are a threat to the system... and thats the reason why psychedelic drugs were forbidden after the 60-70s... because they allowed people to realize this things, and so to want to drop out from the system.

And if one day the system become powerful enough to be controlled by computers, there wont be weed (or any psychedelic/entheogen) anymore, but only drugs designed to make people more docile and complying to the system...

Life is tough because it's always been tough and always will be. No one said it was supposed to be easy, and if it was you'd bitch because it all seems so effortless and without purpose.

Everyone wants to say life is hard because of the government or corporations. Well it's not, it's always been hard. In fact in alot of ways it's easier because of these things. Think about it, you don't have to spend a whole day hunting, or months raising cattle, or spend a large amount of money, just to eat a burger anymore, because a corporation has decided to do all the legwork for you. You just have to show up cash in hand and say "burger me". Just because things don't always work out well for you doesn't make them bad. And just because it's wrong doesn't make it evil. Too many people make a huge leap, from witnessing the government or a corporation do something wrong, to declaring them evil.

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Originally Posted by RoadRollin

Why can't we just be allowed to live everyday to the fullest? Not worry about a job or school? Just go out and enjoy what life has to offer.

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you seem to forget that the natural state of man is poverty and misery. every advance we take for granted today has been paid for with the sweat of those who came before and the wealth you see heaped around you was earned by the effort of others. that job and that school are gifts you have been given by generations who spent their lives striving to create the very things you complain about today. you are certainly free to wallow in the muck and spend your days idly. you are free to starve and freeze and play while the rest of us earn our keep, but don't expect anyone else to support you.

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Originally Posted by Coelho

Well... i think if this day come and peoples work werent required for the system to exist, i think the system will find a way to get rid of all the "superfluous" people... People costs a lot to the system, and the system only feeds them because it needs their work. But if one day the system were able to exist by itself, without peoples work, why should it keep them?

BTW, talking about this subjects is somewhat dangerous... we, the ones who realized this things are a threat to the system... and thats the reason why psychedelic drugs were forbidden after the 60-70s... because they allowed people to realize this things, and so to want to drop out from the system.

And if one day the system become powerful enough to be controlled by computers, there wont be weed (or any psychedelic/entheogen) anymore, but only drugs designed to make people more docile and complying to the system...

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Resistance is futile.

You will be assimilated!

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In fact in alot of ways it's easier because of these things. Think about it, you don't have to spend a whole day hunting, or months raising cattle, or spend a large amount of money, just to eat a burger anymore, because a corporation has decided to do all the legwork for you.

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Keep in mind there are people who still hunt all day and others that raise cattle for months. They are probably wealthier then most. Do they hate their jobs? Hell no, they are living their dream, doing what they want to do. A quiet easy living, while providing for yourself. Loving life more than the person working at your crummy burger hut.

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you seem to forget that the natural state of man is poverty and misery. every advance we take for granted today has been paid for with the sweat of those who came before and the wealth you see heaped around you was earned by the effort of others. that job and that school are gifts you have been given by generations who spent their lives striving to create the very things you complain about today. you are certainly free to wallow in the muck and spend your days idly. you are free to starve and freeze and play while the rest of us earn our keep, but don't expect anyone else to support you.

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I agree with the the whole "people worked hard for what we see today" part. Even though the schools are a gift, yes they are, to us. We have the choice to attend or not. I have friends that have a 5 year head start on me, while I come out $40,000 in the hole. While they are making $8,000 more than my starting pay!! While they are cutting positions I am applying for and my buddy's put in the time and keeps his job!!

I'm not saying your wrong, but you can still provide for yourself and make more than enough money to live a great life and do things you want to do. There is nothing wrong with "dirty jobs" and being messy when you come home from work.

In the bible it says "Vanity of Vanities, All is Vanity." rings true more than often. It also says that a man should enjoy the fruits of his labor. If you come home from work everyday and say I hate my job, but won't quit it, wtf is up with that? (I am not a religious freak, I am in a senior rel. class and it is pretty tits.)

In the end, we don't have to go to school. I mean paying $25,000 a yr. @ a 4 yr. school that you will actually go to for 5 yrs. is a crock of shit! It is your choice. College students have their own opinion of things because we are the ones looking for jobs and there is nothing, college tuition cost more a year than we will even make a year.

I can related with roadrollin, things have changed alot and the new generation is questioning alot of things now and days. I agree with you roadrollin, everyine pushed me back to college and now when I graduate I will be the same job I did on my year off...and I will STILL be making more money than I could with my degree!

PS - I still think that a source of income a.k.a. a "job" is important. Everyone used to work for food and then they thought "I could make money off of this" and BANG!, money hungry mongers were born.

Stfu bitch.

My first reaction to this thread was that its such a ridiculous notion, we would all love to just do the good fun things in life but if the chit wasnt there how would you appreciate any of the good stuff.

life is full of ups and downs and i believe thats what makes it more interesting. if everything was constantly brilliant and you could easily do anything your heart desired then what would be the point, kids who have too many toys dont really play with many of them, people who are used to having everything can barely survive without it, but on the other hand kids who dont get everything learn to appreciate the things they do get and the things they all ready have, and people who are used to surviving on next to nothing enjoy it even more when they have enough money saved to go on a long awaited well deserved holiday for example. i just feel that the bad times make the good times even better. and besides without schooling and education what would be the point in travelling around the world you wouldnt have the skills and brains to do those things as they require planning and organisation, an ability to keep track of time and get to flights on time etc all the seeminly unimportant things that we actually do aquire from school by getting up every morning getting ready and getting to school on time making sure you have the right books with you for the right lessons to get from lesson to lesson on time, even socialisation begins at pre school for alot of children, school is more educational than just the in class stuff.

oh and a tip about the depressing stuff in the papers i agree with you its totally annoying but thats why i just dont read the news papers anymore, no one forces us to read about it just because its there.

as for time with those we love i'm sure many would agree they dont have enough time its all about trying to find a balance that works for you.

i think the only point to life is the here and now. why doesnt really matter much as even if i knew why would it make anything different? would it change my life or would the world just continue to be the same?

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Originally Posted by RoadRollin

It's hard to believe that we went through all these years of school, but for what reason? To maybe some day make a decent paycheck? I believe that money and wealth doesn't exist! I think that we are wasting all this time in schools, studying, and stressing ourselves out. Why can't we just be allowed to live everyday to the fullest? Not worry about a job or school? Just go out and enjoy what life has to offer. Spend time and make as many memories as we can with our loved ones while they are still around. I would like to spend my time with the ones that mean the most to me, I would like to do the things that make my happy. Travel the world (although that takes an incredible amount of money)

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You may have been forced to go to school but no one is forcing you to go to college.

TAKE RESPONSABILITY for your own life.

It's your choice what you want to do and your choices have conciquences.

I know a guy who works two months a year and travels around the rest of the time.

He did what it took to get himself in that position. I know other people who working like slaves so they can afford a big house and fancy car.

My best advice is this if you want to live outside the "BOX" think outside the box.

You don't have to work dude no one is forcing you.

but,

I don't think you want to be homeless either do you?

Right?

So if you want to have money and not work... then find a way to make money without working. :thumbsup:

Create a business, invest in real estate.

eg cut all your expenses save all your money buy a rental income property. A property that rents for 1% of it's loan amount will usually cashflow. ONLY GET PROPERTY THAT CASH FLOWS. That gives you money every month. Get enough and you can retire....

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Originally Posted by RoadRollin

Why can't we just be allowed to live everyday to the fullest? Not worry about a job or school? Just go out and enjoy what life has to offer.

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Sounds great! . . . until it starts raining or you get hungry . . .

Enjoying what life has to offer and living every day to the fullest is more a state of mind then of being. Free your mind and the rest will sort itself out.

It's all really just one BIG test if you ask me. I belive God put humans on the world as a test to see really how fast the human race can really just turn their back on him. The ones who endure the test and live good respectful lives will be rewarded at the end. Those who are just pure ignorant and belive the world revolves around themselves will end up paying in the end. It's really kind of simple if you ask me.

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Originally Posted by BlueBlazer

Enjoying what life has to offer and living every day to the fullest is more a state of mind then of being. Free your mind and the rest will sort itself out.

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Well said! :thumbsup:

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Originally Posted by RoadRollin

I'm currently going to college, I have a girlfriend and a loving family. I'm not complaining about any of this, but I know that someday all of this won't be here for me. Someday I won't even be here!! It's hard to believe that we went through all these years of school, but for what reason? To maybe some day make a decent paycheck? I believe that money and wealth doesn't exist! I think that we are wasting all this time in schools, studying, and stressing ourselves out. Why can't we just be allowed to live everyday to the fullest? Not worry about a job or school? Just go out and enjoy what life has to offer. Spend time and make as many memories as we can with our loved ones while they are still around. I would like to spend my time with the ones that mean the most to me, I would like to do the things that make my happy. Travel the world (although that takes an incredible amount of money), smoke good "home grown" cannabis, not have to look in the newspaper and see all the depressing things going on in the world. There is more negative information in the paper now more than ever, and it just makes me sick when I can't go through the whole thing without seeing something in there about war, killings, accidents, or people that break the law! All government wants from us is to make the economy keep going, and pay taxes "on almost everything". I hope that I can find some people out there who truly do live their lives to the fullest, never regretting anything, and helping and respecting one another!
Peace and Love..

Sincerely,
Tyler G:thumbsup:

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I'm just here to enjoy the scenery. :cool: a wise man once said "the kingdom is within you, and it is outside of you". :smokin:

it sounds like you know what is right. enjoy all of your time with your family and your time away from them. :)

Humankind is just a random spark of life in an infinite universe that thinks it is more important than everything else, for whatever reason. In a universal sense, humans and everything we have created are no more important than a speck of dust on your living room floor. probably less important actually.

its becuase of this lovely country we live in called america... its about im better then you are and competition... im sure all us like minded selves wondering this same thoguht, could find a lil island and live there... or just take over a state :) LOL :D

You asked why are we here. Well, I have no idea. What I do know however is that I exist. That is pretty much the only thing I know for certain. So while everyone else is trying to use their time wisley to "fulfill" their lives I'll spend my time thinking. Thinking about the whys and why nots of life. I think our ability to try and answer those questions is why we are here. If we don't try to answer them then we aren't doing what we were meant to do.

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Originally Posted by Coelho

because they allowed people to realize this things, and so to want to drop out from the system.

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Tune in, turn on, drop out..

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Originally Posted by Timothy Leary

"Turn on" meant go within to activate your neural and genetic equipment. Become sensitive to the many and various levels of consciousness and the specific triggers that engage them. Drugs were one way to accomplish this end. "Tune in" meant interact harmoniously with the world around you â?? externalize, materialize, express your new internal perspectives. Drop out suggested an elective, selective, graceful process of detachment from involuntary or unconscious commitments. "Drop Out" meant self-reliance, a discovery of oneâ??s singularity, a commitment to mobility, choice, and change. Unhappily my explanations of this sequence of personal development were often misinterpreted to mean "Get stoned and abandon all constructive activity."

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A brilliant man, he just happened too fast. A heartthrob professor, all the guys want to be him and all the girls want to fuck him.

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Originally Posted by JohnnyZ

Tune in, turn on, drop out..

A brilliant man, he just happened too fast. A heartthrob professor, all the guys want to be him and all the girls want to fuck him.

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Timothy Leary is not dead. He is outside looking in.

YouTube - The Moody Blues - Legend Of A Mind (live)

I don't live to work, it's more the other way around. I work to live.

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Originally Posted by delusionsofNORMALity

you seem to forget that the natural state of man is poverty and misery. every advance we take for granted today has been paid for with the sweat of those who came before and the wealth you see heaped around you was earned by the effort of others. that job and that school are gifts you have been given by generations who spent their lives striving to create the very things you complain about today. you are certainly free to wallow in the muck and spend your days idly. you are free to starve and freeze and play while the rest of us earn our keep, but don't expect anyone else to support you.

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dude what wealth did any1 create? wealth is all perception.. money isn't real, most assets aren't worth shit other than the sweat it took to make em. LLS. My Job would be a gift? Man, Jobs are an illusion. Most people that have jobs aren't doing anything for society or helping keep balance in nature. If your a farmer you have a good job because it feeds people. 90% of the jobs out here are meaningless. School isn't a gift is more like a mental prison. They don't teach shit. They just hold you hostage for hours a day and teach you some of the most watered down shit you'll ever hear. It's not about wallowing around and spending days idly man.. just because his opinion crushes your idea of what you think society is doesnt mean anything. Life is about living with a purpose and doing things that impact and help people and keeping the earth in balance because this is where we live. All that other bullshit you call a gift is just deception to me. You pay $100,000 to go to school and learn nothing so you can be "certified" to work and pay taxes and survive, then have kids and before you know you've wasted your whole damn life. Fuck that

As a student who is graduating from college this May I hear you. I really wish people would appreciate life more; the most religious often seem to appreciate how amazing and awesome this life really is the least. But this Utopian world you and I wish for won't exist for a while. I really appreciate communication with others the most in this life. The level of communication we have today could not be achieved without technology, and technology can not exist without the labor that created it.

@bhouncy I hope that the world's food isn't created in some "quantum food making device" I love cooking actually, but I do hope that we in the very near future are able to provide enough food to feed the world. It really isn't infeasible to do tomorrow if we really dedicated ourselves.

Personally I'm skeptical of the notion that we are unable to escape "the system." The reality is that you need to teach your kids and yourself to be skeptical, passionate, and loving.

There's a lot of changes that need to be made both politically and culturally to facilitate the peace future we wish for, but it's making progress and we need to continue to support it.

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Originally Posted by Godot12

As a student who is graduating from college this May I hear you. I really wish people would appreciate life more; the most religious often seem to appreciate how amazing and awesome this life really is the least. But this Utopian world you and I wish for won't exist for a while. I really appreciate communication with others the most in this life. The level of communication we have today could not be achieved without technology, and technology can not exist without the labor that created it.

@bhouncy I hope that the world's food isn't created in some "quantum food making device" I love cooking actually, but I do hope that we in the very near future are able to provide enough food to feed the world. It really isn't infeasible to do tomorrow if we really dedicated ourselves.

Personally I'm skeptical of the notion that we are unable to escape "the system." The reality is that you need to teach your kids and yourself to be skeptical, passionate, and loving.

There's a lot of changes that need to be made both politically and culturally to facilitate the peace future we wish for, but it's making progress and we need to continue to support it.

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well said

It's very interesting that I ran into this on my first day on these forums. I just started a new blog to share my experiences as a new grower/MM caretaker, but I wrote how I got to where I am now. I went through several transformations and have gone down windy roads in search for what I want out of life.....

If you don't want to read my lengthy rhetoric, I'll sum it up quickly:

"We" are here because our species, along with all other species on Earth, are lucky enough to have been created and to have the opportunity to life. The rarity of our situation is the equivalence to winning an astronomical lottery and the fact that us humans have the capacity to think, reason, invent, create, etc., features that even our companions of different species do not possess, shows how incredibly lucky we are.

We are here to use the skills that we've developed. Some use it to destroy, others use it to create. It's up to the individual to use what he/she was born with or has learned throughout his/her lifetime, and to use it to help sustain themselves, to survive as long as they can.

You can choose to live or you can choose to end your life. You can choose to be happy or you can choose to be sad. Life is all about choices. And life, in my opinion, is the reason why we are here. We are here simply to live, to stay alive as long as we can or want to, and you can either choose to live well or to live poorly and unhappily.





This was not to be expected (Live. Laugh. Grow.)

If you end up exactly where you started but don't realize it, you'll end up finding yourself in an endless cycle and you'll live your life like a hamster on a wheel. No matter how close to the cheese you seem to be, you will never get it until you step off that wheel and try a different approach or path in life. Have no fear in going down the darker path, for it sometimes leads into the right path.

This is my life story thus far and the unpredictable paths that I've chosen to walk.

I was a strange kid growing up. I spent most of my days observing stars, reading anything I could get a hold of, daydreaming about how it would be like to be a butterfly, and wanting desperately to be abducted by aliens and to be accepted into a foreign planet. I wanted to be the only one of my species and to live in a more technologically and spiritually advanced society so I can experience what the entire universe had to offer. I always had so many questions and there was never enough answers to satiate my hunger for knowledge. I also suffered many traumatic experiences as a young child, from being beaten by my alcoholic father, to the death of my grandfather on Christmas Eve and the death of my father on Valentines day, both of which happened in the same year. I suffered chronic asthma and was diagnosed with trichotillomania, an obsessive compulsive disorder that caused me to pull out my hair. Kids would make fun of the bald patches on my head and my absence of eyelashes.

My thirst for knowledge distracted me from the uglier side of life. My mother was my first source for answers about life, but all she would teach me were the lessons of the bible. I was constantly challenging her teachings.

I would ask her questions like,

"If cleanliness was next to godliness, does that mean I get to be a god if I am clean enough?"

"Does praying before meal time make the food taste better?"

and

"How can I honor papa if all he does is drink and hit me?"

The only lesson that caught my interest was when she said that God molded us from clay. So I believed for years that humans were literally made of clay. I would sporadically loose touch with reality and hallucinate that people were walking blocks of hardened mud. I was scared to death of walking in the rain, for the fear of melting into the dirt where I thought I came from. What saved me from this insane belief was the library, specifically the astronomy section. I wanted to know the truth of where everything came from, where the stars and planets and moons originated, where and how life was created.

In elementary school, instead of playing jump rope with friends or hanging on the monkey bars and sliding on the hot, plastic tubes on the playground, I would hang out in the library and soaked in as much information as I could.

My intellectual pursuits could have gotten me into Harvard, Yale, or MIT. I had the grades for it. I would obsess about my schoolwork and had a perfect 4.0. My goal went from learning for the sake and fun of learning to the arduous task of constantly being the best, which eventually lead to a deep depression in my teen years. One night, I was doing homework for my advanced physics class at four o'clock in the morning and got stuck on one problem for an hour. I got so frustrated with myself about not having the capacity to solve that problem, that I started thinking about how much of a failure I was going to be. Instead of going to MIT and being hired by NASA to study extraterrestrial life, I imagined myself as a homeless person who would yell obscenities at the stars for my failure to solve that stupid problem.

I couldn't handle the stress. I grabbed a paperclip, unfolded the curves, and dug the tip into my skin. I slashed into my arms obsessively, but failed to draw blood. I wanted desperately to see myself bleed, to prove to myself that I was not made of clay. But the failure to see the results that I wanted frustrated me even more. I upgraded to a knife and started with one slash. I watched as the blood trickled down to my thigh. One slash turned to two, which turned to 15, which lead to 120 neatly lined slashes that spread from my thumb to my elbow.

This went on for years until I sought treatment. I was prescribed a series of antidepressants that I took for two weeks. I hated the way it made me feel so I tossed them. My mother sent me to a psychotherapist, but I hated the way that she made me feel and how my family would join in on our sessions. What started out as a way to help treat me turned into an invitation for my family to tell me everything that was wrong with me. It was a hellish month of them crying over how I was a horrible daughter and sister. After that, I refused to go anymore sessions and barely made it out of high school alive.

The year I graduated and turned 18 was the beginning of my new life. I moved out, went to college for journalism and philosophy, and learned to love myself again. But after I made that step forward, I made another two steps back.

I developed a social life, which developed into a very unhealthy streak of parties and experimentation. I worked full time to support myself, went to school full time, and still managed to get obscenely drunk almost every night. My drug of choice was alcohol, which evolved into cocaine and alcohol. At the time, I needed the cocaine to be able to catch up with my crazy lifestyle. I went from obsessively trying to please myself with my perfect GPA and urge to be the best at everything I did, to wanting to please everyone else. I never said "no" to parties, never said "no" to drugs, and never said "no" to casual sex.

After two years of doing fairly well in college (I was the Editor In Chief of our newspaper and was a leader in the student senate), I dropped out and focused solely on survival. I worked two jobs. Even on the days where I would work for 16 hours straight, I still forced myself to go out to bars to play pool or to parties to get crazy and drink my worries away. I eventually got bored of my surroundings and convinced my mother to help me move to New York. I told her that my intention of moving there was to transfer to NYU and to finish school, but all I really wanted to do was party and live wildly.



Less than two months before I was set to fly to New York was when fate interfered. I was browsing through the personals section of Craigslist to amuse myself when I came across a post from someone I knew. Let's call him Mr. X. He had been a frequent customer at a coffee shop that I used to work in. I sent him an e-mail just to say hi. To be honest, I felt kind of bad for him. He seemed so innocently pathetic with his headline of, "Desperate and willing to settle for less". His ad was so self-deprecating that I wanted to shoot him an e-mail to make him feel noticed. That friendly e-mail evolved into heavy flirtation, which lead to my first date with Mr. X the following night. I agreed to go on a date with him if he promised to make me laugh, to which he replied, "I'm sorry, but I refuse to make you laugh." Which ironically, made me laugh.

He was an hour late and showed up wearing a stinky Supernatural Hydroponics t-shirt. Curiosity was what made me stay in a smoky bar for an hour for this guy. When he finally arrived, there wasn't a single moment when I wasn't laughing. We played pool and he beat me every single time. I'm not a professional, but pool was one of my mini-obsessions. I played pool almost every night for two years and had a hard time finding guys who could beat me.

Love snuck up on me and Mr. X and I found ourselves saying "I love you" after just a couple of weeks of seeing each other every day. I moved into his house in the forest where he introduced me to the world of growing marijuana. I had smoked pot a few times at parties, but never really appreciated it until I met him. My life went from a chaotic cycle of self-destruction to the laid-back lifestyle of a stoner in love.

I spent a month living in New York and couldn't stand the pressure of parties and the depressing winter weather. Mr. X paid for me to fly back to California and to live with him in Los Angeles.

From there, I learned how to grow hydroponic marijuana from Mr. X, who had been growing for 15 years. After a year straight of learning about the medicinal uses of marijuana and getting to know a few of the 1,000 dispensaries in Los Angeles, I realize my calling. I've become completely enamored with the beauty of this miracle plant, its healing properties and its many uses, and even moreso the growing aspect of my new "career". I love watching the clones that I cut grow from 3 inches to 6 feet long. I love walking into our flowering room and observing the buds crystallize and develop the strong THC that Mr X's plants are famous for.

I no longer have to worry about following a strict path of majoring in something at college and being a hundred thousand dollars in debt to get a degree that's worth wiping my ass with. My hobbies as a child hasn't changed. I'm still a sponge for information and my educational pursuit has gone from learning for the sake of getting a good grade, to learning for the sake of learning. I've also thrown away my old party girl life for something healthier and laid back. I get to choose what hours I work, and I've learned how to grow and nourish a plant that nourishes me. It pulls me up when I get down, it banishes the nausea I get from my natural nervous tendencies, and it makes sex a hundred times better. If marijuana isn't a "miracle drug", then I don't know what is. It's not at all harmful or addictive, and it helps people who have problems that are exponentially worse that anything I've ever had--people with cancer, AIDS, multiple sclerosis, etc--and the fact that it is still illegal under the eyes of our federal government baffles me.

I created this blog to honor the plant that saved my life. I have no idea what the future holds, but isn't not knowing half the fun? All I want to do is experience life, and the choice to grow marijuana--despite the lies that the government feeds us--has been the healthiest lifestyle choice I've ever made. Mr. X and I are growing as legal as possible, we have a good relationship with the legitimate dispensaries in our area, and we aren't hurting anyone. If anything, we're helping people with chronic diseases who use marijuana as a tool to a less painful life.

The dangers of growing, however, has nothing to do with growing or the plant itself. It's the stigma that our government forces on it and the perpetuation of those false assumptions about marijuana from the puritanical sheep in our society who believe what the government or what their conservative religious leaders tell them.

Hmmm......



"Even if one takes every reefer madness allegation of the prohibitionists at face value, marijuana prohibition has done far more harm to far more people than marijuana ever could."

-William F. Buckley, Jr.


Smoke out with your heart out,


Ceres <3

Why are we here, you ask? That is a self evident answer. You need only look to reality to learn that we are here to recreate ourselves.

The purpose of reality is recreational. if you arent recreating, you're probably sad, lonely, miserable, and tied to a job you probably dont even want or enjoy.

Life is meant to be spent learning about all of the creations it has, and then taking what it has to offer and making something new.


Sadly, most people are too focused on the mundane 9:00-5:00 drama to realize the pristine beauty which nature has afforded us since time immemorial.