kicking it...

please spare the comments of "if you wanted to quit you could, you just don't want to" or flaming me, or i give up too easy, i have no persistance... anyone wh's been through it know just how much it helps to 'quit being a baby/weakling, just quit)

i need some serious ideas here.. also seeming as i never have enough money to actually buy weed (2 40's is plenty enough for me and toegher with tax they're like 2.8 sometimes i got mony to afford it.. but there are alot of times sober...

so without involving money how can i quit? i'm an alcoholic and it feels so degrading to ay that, but nowi know i am... (everyone basicly in my family si, and i swored up and won i'd never become one of them, yet here i am) i feel hopless and like shit at the same time.... ever morning i wake up and say, ok today's the day, no more beer....

Slip my friend i have been there, I know this sounds so traditional, but it honestly works! Go to an AA meeting and get yourself a sponser! they are actually there for you, any time you need them. Its very hard at first but once you know people and feel more comfortable then it will be easy to talk! Everyone there has the same problem! I have been alcohol free for along time! Or another thing i did to help was think of the worst thing that happend while you were drinking, and say to yourself i am not going back to where i was. This will be very timely process and it will not happen over night! If you need support or anyone to talk to i am right here for you...YOU WILL EVENTUALLY CONQUER THE BEAST...BELIEVE IN YOURSELF...THAT IS KEY.....LIKE I SAID IF YOU NEED TO TALK I AM HERE OK:thumbsup:

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Slip my friend i have been there, I know this sounds so traditional, but it honestly works! Go to an AA meeting and get yourself a sponser! they are actually there for you, any time you need them. Its very hard at first but once you know people and feel more comfortable then it will be easy to talk! Everyone there has the same problem! I have been alcohol free for along time! Or another thing i did to help was think of the worst thing that happend while you were drinking, and say to yourself i am not going back to where i was. This will be very timely process and it will not happen over night! If you need support or anyone to talk to i am right here for you...YOU WILL EVENTUALLY CONQUER THE BEAST...BELIEVE IN YOURSELF...THAT IS KEY.....LIKE I SAID IF YOU NEED TO TALK I AM HERE OK:thumbsup:

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greatly appreciate the response, but been there, doen that (the beilive in yourself part) if i actually could/did believe in myself, i wouldn't need help =/

honestly, i'm weak.... for the past few years every pack of cigs i smoked would be my last.... i don't even dare count all thoes packs 'that were my last

i've also been in counseling/therap for most of my life.. talking just doens't help me....

i don't know... i'm not eve a bad drunk.. (unless you piss me off) i'm hapy and giddy and loving...w hic is what makes me wonder why i feel so bad about it.... i'm a calm mellow drunk. i'ts not like i'm going on a killing frenzy or pawning my computer for beer money or anything....

i just grew up around an alcoholic family... nearly EVERY LAST PERSON drinks on a dail basis.... like all nearly 20 aunts/uncles, my mo is a super drinking, my grandparents who raise me, well my grandpa has been 'stealing' tehir money to buy his beer since as long as i can remember.... then there's my dad and lots of others.... i HATE drunks, i never wanted to become one, but now i am....

although i dro rink just as much i don't see my usage as such quite a problem.... asof right now i have it under control.... sow hy does it bother me so much?

btw i mean, i have complete control over my actions while drunk.... (you know those people who do something and blame in on the alcohol)

and i have no idea how this thread will help me, but i'm hoping it will....

so lets recap so we know the answers out of the question...

group therapy don'tw ork
i have 0 patients and even less dedication...


btw i forgot this part.... i never did nothing stupid whil edrunk.... well nothing stupid that i wouldn't have/couldn't have done sober..

hmmmm...trying to think of a good response here..I dont want to offend, I am want to help..those AA meetings are ok..just because you try and plan them around the time you usually start drinking..usually the mojo you get from them last about 1 day..and that is enough to make it to the next meeting so you dont drink..My dad was an alcoholic and used to do some crazy shit when he would get drunk..beating up my mom, big asss bonfires in the backyard, guns..you name it..he actually quit cold turkey, layed up in the bed for 2 weeks with the DT's..it was crazy, I was about 9 or 10 at the time..but he did it that way, some people do it another, some dont do it all and die early due to some kind of kindney or liver shutdown..whats that called Cirossis (sp?) of the liver..
Smoke Weed..get a hobby that exerts you physically, work hard and hopefully it will make you so damn tired that you wont want to drink..me personally, I always have had my drinking under control because alcohol highs are not as enjoyable for me..

You gotta want it. You gotta want to be sober and to quit drinking. If the want and desire is there to turn yourself around...It will happen. Only you can make that happen though. Good luck brother, you know everyone on these boards supports you.

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Slip my friend i have been there, I know this sounds so traditional, but it honestly works! Go to an AA meeting and get yourself a sponser! they are actually there for you, any time you need them. Its very hard at first but once you know people and feel more comfortable then it will be easy to talk! Everyone there has the same problem! I have been alcohol free for along time! Or another thing i did to help was think of the worst thing that happend while you were drinking, and say to yourself i am not going back to where i was. This will be very timely process and it will not happen over night! If you need support or anyone to talk to i am right here for you...YOU WILL EVENTUALLY CONQUER THE BEAST...BELIEVE IN YOURSELF...THAT IS KEY.....LIKE I SAID IF YOU NEED TO TALK I AM HERE OK:thumbsup:

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GODDAMNIT SLIPKNOT!!

This is the BEST advice you will ever get. TAKE IT I don't care if you've done it before. DO IT AGAIN! Your own thinking got you into this mess didn't it? Then stop making the decisions and get yourself a sponser. Do WHATEVER you have to do to make a meeting a day for AT LEAST 30 days. :wtf: No excuses, no ridiculoius fussing. Just DO IT.

The program ISNT about talking. Its about DOING. THE STEPS!! Remember those little EXTRAS from AA? Dont go talk. GO DO!! And get a good sponser to guide you.

Slip you say your entire family are drinkers. Trust me....you have NO idea how to live your life sober. Someone MUST teach you or you most likely will not survive. THAT is what the 12 steps are for.

Your weak so you can't quit. Ha. You can't quit until you become a stronger and better person. HA!

You sound like the capain of the Titanic saying "I'm not getting off THIS ship until I find out why its sinking"

Good luck with that point of view.

NOW GO!

Love, Weedhound

I agree, alcoholism runs in my family (its why I dont drink, not EVEN going to risk that shit). What you got to do is join AA or some other organization like that. You have to cut people out of your life that allow you to keep drinking. You can't get better all by yourself. You're going to need help.

Were here for you darling!

come to rehab in friendowls
we will hike that alcoholism away

john muir trail 2008

Slip man, sorry to hear whatever your feeling. If it makes you feel better, I can relate to all of that man. I don't drink but weed wise, im the same. Before i go sleep, when i know i'm nearly totally sober, then it hits, thinking wtf am i doing? It's the comedown. Its shit. But i'm sitting here right now, knowing before i go sleep i'll feel bad probably, but i still think to hell with it. Life's too short. I don't know. I can't sum it up. Don't quit. Cuz then you expect alot and feel guilty if you do it again. Just go with it, do what you love and fuck the rest ("little miss sunshine"). You will leave it yourself one day. And as for feeling bad, i've realised it's all down to money. Money is the only downside to it, but everything comes at a cost. Every penny you've spent on weed, alcohol, drugs etc...would you change that? It's who you are, and who you've become. I love you for who you are, just for one reason being you have the balls to post shit like this without thinking what others might think, you know. If you have the money to fork out for it, then i dont think you will feel bad? Do you have a job?? If you dont, then i think the job is the key. If you have a job, you can look forward to enjoying yourself after work etc, when life gets too boring or whatever.

Just go with it, fuck anyone who looks down on you, talks bad about you and stop feeling bad on yourself, that's the main cause, it'll just fuck you up, more and more.

I feel bad all the time smoking, but it's not going to stop me though. It's weird. But what else are you gonna do on a Friday night? I mean, if i talk about quitting then it's a shame on myself. I'd rather spend every last penny to have a good time, and if that means being addicted or can't come off it, then fair enough, but fuck it, i've found something to live for, after so long. loll. I'd rather get high and enjoy myself then be rich and sober. Fuck that. I won't sell my soul to the sheep.

Slip,
have you turned to your wife in support?