I CRIED AND I CRIED

let me start from the beginning.
on saturday morning i woke up early.[5am]
we were going to spend the day at the lake
and it gets packed.i stopped at the store
and bought a 12 pack of some rolling rock beers
i had an 1/8 of bud on me and i was off to the lake
i got us a great spot with shade and trees and grass
i hung up my hammock smoked a bowl opened up a cold beer
and started to relax in a major way.
all the families were starting to get there and it was fun
just watching all the people pass by.
it was a beautiful day ,clear blue skies and no clouds
the wind was blowing a lil and the water was looking good

i kept up my usual habit of one beer ,one bowl and i was beers into it
my people finally showed up and everythinng was good
i was getting quite fucked up and the food they brought looked good
i was ready for some bbq but first the kids wanted to go swim for a while
i grabbed my pipe and went down to the water.it was getting crowded
so i stuck my head inside my shirt and lit the bowl under there
i was buzzing real good when i pooped my head back out i let the smoke out
life was good.clear blue water in front of me.sun beating down on my head
shit i felt so damn great.....

then i look to my left
and i see a life guard coming out of the water dragging a lil boy
without hesitation i ran towards them
i yelled out i can help and we started doing cpr
the lifeguard was doing chest compressions and i was doing the breaths
15 pumps two breaths .i had to put my mouth on his and when i did
he spit foam and water into my mouth
for what seemed like hours we tried our best to save this kid
it was so weird cause i was buzzed and the thoughts that were
going thru my head didnt match what was going on.
i could hear the family in the background crying and screaming
"thats my lil brother" "o god no" "where are the paramedics"
it took so long for help to arrive. the poor lil boy was making
these sounds like the life was leaving his body.i kept breathing
and they kept pumping.finally some rangers took over
and when they did i walked away.

as i walked i started to cry big time
it just hit me hard and i slammed two more beers quick
i walked back to the sand and watched the helicopter
land and take the boy away.the family was taken to the hospital
and park staff got their stuff.as soon as the helicopter dipped
over the ridge everyone went back to normal like nothing happened

i went for a long hike where there was no trail
i was drunk and stumbled thru the woods asking god
why he does things like that.i had a nice lil chat with the big man that day
i found a nice lil waterfall and just laid on the floor of the forest
and thought about life.it felt good to be alive then i smoked a bowl
and ate some tacos

LAKE SILVERWOOD
6-year-old boy drowns in Silverwood Lake
A boy drowned Saturday while visiting Silverwood Lake State Recreation Area with his family, San Bernardino County coroner's officials reported.

Jahdyn Duncan, 6, was at the lake about 10:30 a.m. Saturday. Lifeguards saw the boy appeared to be unresponsive after going into the water. They tried to resuscitate the child by performing CPR.

Jahdyn was airlifted to Loma Linda University Medical Center and pronounced dead at 11:33 am.

The California Department of Parks and Recreation is investigating the drowning

damn owl....

sometimes life has a way of putting things in perspective...

take care...

dude sorry.

Wow.....
That's quite a story. It's a damn shame the boy died, but you did a great thing trying to help. I can imagine you've had some serious thoughts going through your head since then....

Im sorry man...i can't imagine what that was like. At least you can take solace in the fact that you did your best to save that boy, not everyone would have stepped in and did what you did.

I'm sorry to hear this and I hope you and the man can work this one out. :1baa:

:stupid::S4: to mikeo14 for calling me a rapist asshole in my rep box.



What up owl...damn that shit is hard..ain't really nothing to say...keep your head up..you did the best you could.

Started early?

:stoned:

What else can I say?

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Originally Posted by beachguy in thongs

Started early?

:stoned:

What else can I say?

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lol :stoned:

it was pretty sad
the thing the tripped me out was
no matter what you do or who you are
life dont stop for no one
as soon as he was gone
everyone was partying again
parents yelling at their kids
"you wanna die like that boy"

i really wished he would have lived

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Originally Posted by friendowl

it was pretty sad
the thing the tripped me out was
no matter what you do or who you are
life dont stop for no one
as soon as he was gone
everyone was partying again
parents yelling at their kids
"you wanna die like that boy"

i really wished he would have lived

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That is right...we are all nothing but a spec of life on this planet...

which is why I can't see the point in gangs and violence...why the fuck go and take someone elses kid/boyfriend/father out of this world for something fucking stupid like what is it...wearing the wrong colors on your clothes?

at least you did what you could to try and keep that young boy in this world, you're a good person :thumbsup:

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Originally Posted by Markass

which is why I can't see the point in gangs and violence...why the fuck go and take someone elses kid/boyfriend/father out of this world for something fucking stupid like what is it...wearing the wrong colors on your clothes?

at least you did what you could to try and keep that young boy in this world, you're a good person :thumbsup:

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that's about the most we can make out of life. do what we can for others, and live in our respective ways. im a firm believer in karma, and your efforts will not be forgotten.

i cant understand how people can act normally after what they witnessed either. it would have dampened my mood to the point i would have left had i been there.

thats terrible
i feel fortunate that nobody really close to me has passed away
i guess all you can do is feel for the boy and keep on living

Life goes on man, you just experienced a very harsh reminder of that. But then again, Im not sure how many reminders that life goes on are NOT harsh. I cant imagine performing CPR on a 6 yr old that I thought could make it, only for him not to make it. However, I would rather try and fail than nothing at all. I have a great deal of respect for you, my friend. You took charge in the most serious of situations, and responded immediately when things were urgent. Not only that, but you were able to respond as such when you werent at your full abilities.

I can only imagine how it made you feel, but you must not be hard on yourself at all, and Im sure you realized that you cant blame God for something like that. It was just an unfortunate situation.. the boy most likely wandered off in an instant before his family could notice, and just... didnt make it. It puts many things into perspective, does it not?? There is nothing sadder than a young life being cut short, especially as unexpected and tragic as that. Life is precious, its sad that it sometimes takes such an unfortunate event to keep us from taking it for granted. I also know exactly what you mean about how surreal things are when you are high during a very sudden and unexpected tragedy. Its very numbing, is it not? Graciously and mercifully so, I would say.

Friendowl, even though the young boy did not make it, you are still a hero. Our species has a chance, and my job of taking over the world to save us from ourselves will be made much easier with more people like you in it. You should feel pretty good about yourself.

grazi
that made me feel pretty good
ive been in a weird state of mind
thanks man

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Originally Posted by geonagual

:stupid::S4: to mikeo14 for calling me a rapist asshole in my rep box.



What up owl...damn that shit is hard..ain't really nothing to say...keep your head up..you did the best you could.

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:( you said my posts suck

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Originally Posted by friendowl

let me start from the beginning.
on saturday morning i woke up early.[5am]
we were going to spend the day at the lake
and it gets packed.i stopped at the store
and bought a 12 pack of some rolling rock beers
i had an 1/8 of bud on me and i was off to the lake
i got us a great spot with shade and trees and grass
i hung up my hammock smoked a bowl opened up a cold beer
and started to relax in a major way.
all the families were starting to get there and it was fun
just watching all the people pass by.
it was a beautiful day ,clear blue skies and no clouds
the wind was blowing a lil and the water was looking good

i kept up my usual habit of one beer ,one bowl and i was beers into it
my people finally showed up and everythinng was good
i was getting quite fucked up and the food they brought looked good
i was ready for some bbq but first the kids wanted to go swim for a while
i grabbed my pipe and went down to the water.it was getting crowded
so i stuck my head inside my shirt and lit the bowl under there
i was buzzing real good when i pooped my head back out i let the smoke out
life was good.clear blue water in front of me.sun beating down on my head
shit i felt so damn great.....

then i look to my left
and i see a life guard coming out of the water dragging a lil boy
without hesitation i ran towards them
i yelled out i can help and we started doing cpr
the lifeguard was doing chest compressions and i was doing the breaths
15 pumps two breaths .i had to put my mouth on his and when i did
he spit foam and water into my mouth
for what seemed like hours we tried our best to save this kid
it was so weird cause i was buzzed and the thoughts that were
going thru my head didnt match what was going on.
i could hear the family in the background crying and screaming
"thats my lil brother" "o god no" "where are the paramedics"
it took so long for help to arrive. the poor lil boy was making
these sounds like the life was leaving his body.i kept breathing
and they kept pumping.finally some rangers took over
and when they did i walked away.

as i walked i started to cry big time
it just hit me hard and i slammed two more beers quick
i walked back to the sand and watched the helicopter
land and take the boy away.the family was taken to the hospital
and park staff got their stuff.as soon as the helicopter dipped
over the ridge everyone went back to normal like nothing happened

i went for a long hike where there was no trail
i was drunk and stumbled thru the woods asking god
why he does things like that.i had a nice lil chat with the big man that day
i found a nice lil waterfall and just laid on the floor of the forest
and thought about life.it felt good to be alive then i smoked a bowl
and ate some tacos

LAKE SILVERWOOD
6-year-old boy drowns in Silverwood Lake
A boy drowned Saturday while visiting Silverwood Lake State Recreation Area with his family, San Bernardino County coroner's officials reported.

Jahdyn Duncan, 6, was at the lake about 10:30 a.m. Saturday. Lifeguards saw the boy appeared to be unresponsive after going into the water. They tried to resuscitate the child by performing CPR.

Jahdyn was airlifted to Loma Linda University Medical Center and pronounced dead at 11:33 am.

The California Department of Parks and Recreation is investigating the drowning

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My heart goes out to ya bro, and goes out to the family of that child, it takes alot of heart to do what you did, take care.

friendowl, fuck man that makes me really sad, even though neither you nor i knew the kid otherwise
i believe that everything that happens in life happens for a reason.
when i was 17 years old, i attempted suicide and swallowed a bottle of pills.
i remember when i was in the hospital and the doctors were standing over me, they were trying to calculate the amount of pills i'd taken and the milligrams of each pill, and they were trying to calculate the lethal dosage.
and i remember that i was able to multiply the numbers in my head that they were trying to do, and i told them.
and they informed me that i'd exceeded the lethal dosage and was lucky to be alive.

life put into perspective.
everything that happens happens for a reason.
there is something to be learned from every event, every tragedy.
not a day goes by where i don't think about the joys of my life and how it almost never happened and how lucky i really am.
the prospect of death is a very humbling experience, for sure. cheers.

God damn, owl. You did the right thing man, you really did. You're such a chill person..I really wish the little boy made it. All I can say is that you did the right thing and I hope you're holding up. If you ever need someone to chat with, I think I can speak for all of us when I say..we're here for you bro!

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Originally Posted by mikeo14

:( you said my posts suck

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lmao :stoned:

hey crunk juice
if we was chillin in real life
i would clipped you in the jaw so hard
your grandkids woulda stuttered for life

dont make jokes at the kids expense
maybe one day your child will need cpr
and then ill hook it up with a kush blow

Damn man, that's devestating.

Your actions that day were noble and selfless my friend. It is quite intriguing yet desolating when all that happened was a mere lack of usable oxygen...


Sometimes the fragility of life and human understanding overwhelm me. I can see the same has occurred to you. You may not think it possible now, but you will find peace eventually. Try not to fret over what is done and what was inevitable.

damn your a good person,
you did what you could to try and save the lil kid, which is a lot more than others could say...

keep ya head up bro sometimes life is unfair and just doesnt make sense...
your a cool dude

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Originally Posted by friendowl

it was pretty sad
the thing the tripped me out was
no matter what you do or who you are
life dont stop for no one
as soon as he was gone
everyone was partying again
parents yelling at their kids
"you wanna die like that boy"

i really wished he would have lived

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It's a huge bummer but you tried man. You are a hero.
The Lord had different plans for that little guy. Bless his heart and yours.

ur a good man friendowl
and u r a true hero in my book's
plus a good friend
in time u will hide this back in ur memory
but please ,dont give up on God
God didnt kill that child
he needed 2 b watched better, children r so quick
unfortunetly accident's will 4ever be around

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Originally Posted by friendowl

it felt good to be alive then i smoked a bowl
and ate some tacos

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I'm really sorry to hear the story. Off note, though, I have to say one thing. Every story involving weed should end this way. ^

I cried reading this thread. That's nice that you helped, Friendowl. And I'm so sorry the boy died. My heart breaks for his parents and for all of you who worked to resuscitate him.

:( Sorry Bird the outing went so bad, I have been the first on the scene of many accidents it seems like, I cant stand it...:(:(

Just take it as another season of your life.

Sorry friendowl.

You did all you could. Even if it didn't work out for the best, your intentions and actions make you a hero (like GraziLovesMary said).

I'm sure this is on your mind and it seems like it's making you feel like shit. I want to say cheer up, but easier said than done. You just gotta deal with it and let it pass. It's strange how things like this happen, they just happen. As predictable as life can be at times, it's always a thousand more times unpredictable at all times.

It's hard to see someone die, it's even harder when a young life is cut short. Innocence comes with youth, no one young should have to die. But it happens, that's just the way it is. That's life, you just gotta accept it, and that can be the hardest part. It makes you look at things different. We shouldn't take the time we have for granted, it can be gone in an instant. If anything friendowl, please cherish the time you have. We're here for you on the boards. With life in perspective, now's a good time to spend with those close to you. They'll be a shoulder to lean on, and you'll let each other know how much you mean to each other. And we'll still be here for you, if you ever need anything.

You didn't have to try, but you did. Your actions say a lot about you. You don't wake up thinking this would happen, but it did and you stepped up where others just watched. You're a better person for what you did. You might feel alone, but know that the kid is probably watching over your sholder as we speak, so don't ever feel alone.

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Originally Posted by friendowl

then i smoked a bowl
and ate some tacos

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^^ my favorite part

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Originally Posted by friendowl

grazi
that made me feel pretty good
ive been in a weird state of mind
thanks man

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I could sense that, man, and can totally understand. Thats why I told you what I did. Because it needed to be said, and you needed to hear it. No need to thank me, you earned any solace I could have given, at least 100 times over.

May you know one thing my dear fiendowl...

The last breaths of this child were filled with heroic energy coming straight from your heart. As cruel as his death may have seemed to you, I believe he went away in good spirits no matter what.

The paramedics may not have saved his life, but you, my friend, have saved his spirit.

Props to you, Hero!

thats real sad
you did all you could though