Most important thing I will ever write

This was a blog i wrote on the space. I felt i was the most important thing I have written. So i figure I'd share it with you. Little lengthy, but a worthy read in my opinion. heavy stuff for me.



I wasn't quite sure how to start this. There is so much I wish to express without making this too long and boring you. However, I do honestly feel this is one of the most important things I could wish to express to my friends.

Ive been smoking the herbals for quite some time. It would go from every blue moon, weekends, everday on certain vacations, shows, random week breaks, random month breaks, random year breaks, just about every variance of weed smoking you can imagine.

But it wasn't until this year, 2007, nearing age 18, that for the first time I began to feel marijuana was becoming a crutch, an escape, something I was abusing for the first time, and not benefiting from. My use peaked at everday. Its not like I had to have it. Its weed guys. Its a good thing. We'll get there. I started to feel depressed, even suicidal at times (very very few times) on the last few breaks from everday use this year. This was a reality I did not want to accept, that a very reall physcological addiction was in the making.

I had always promised myself that I had too much respect for this plant that has benefited me in so many ways, shed so much light on darkened areas of life, to ever let it become a drug, an escape, and that if it came to this, I would have to quit.

Well on this last break, the smoke cleared (not trying to be funny ; )}. I started working out again, lifting, pursuing the things I love. I became more focused in school, my relationships improved, and I got a great job that's allowing me to pull in over a grand a month with 20-25 hours work a week. I realized that the depression, and all the negative side effects I was experiencing was the herb trying to get me to stop using it, because I was disrespecting it and using it for the wrong purposes (I know, like the plant has a mind and feelings, but please hear me out before juding me). Rastafari proverb states, "the herb will sting in the lungs of the wicked". When used properly, this plant made by God, can benefit mankind, the reason it was put here. When misused, it will work against you (as it should, or else it wouldnt be devign or teach you anything). I still don't feel its a coincidence that your body has its own Cannibinoid receptors, your body's own anti-inflamitory response known as the endocannibinoid system (anandamide are your own bodies native cannibinoids), and there is a Cannabis plant. Whether anyone likes it or not, religious, not religous, this plant was put here for a purpose. Those facts I stated above are facts, it is irrefutible.

I could continue on and on about why cannabise was made illegal in the first place (wool and cotton industry felt threated by the "billion doller crop" {the governments own words} and racism), its plethora of medicinal effects both on the body and mind that don't drug you, but realease your own body's nature fuctions, and its overly exxagerated and close to no harmful side effects (Dr. tashkin of ucla revealed in a groundbreaking study that even in heavy marijuana users, cannabis is not related to lung cancer, and even has anti tumoral properties). If you have questions or are puzzled by what I have stated above, message me for more info or research.

Continuing on, on this last break I have taken, in addition to bettering my life in nearly every aspect, I have come to feel the presence of a higher power, defined as "God" by man. I have chosen to try, TRY to addapt to man of the teachings of Rastafari. So you may be thinking, so what, now Peace is a fucking hippy who's not gonna bathe, cut his hair, not shave, and smoke pot all day. You are incorrect.

On the issue of sex, I have chosen to remain abstinent until I find a girl I truly care for.

On the issue of food, I will be minimzing my intake of white meat, and am done with red all together. Not to say I won't slip up quite a bit, I know I will.

On the issue of Cannabis, it is sacred to me now, this will be a day by day process over summer that will take a great deal of self control for me, only joints and pipes, and each session will be minimized consumption as possible (over smoking is done, I don't want tolerance, and to get stoned out of commission) and I will try to refrain from habitual use.

On the issue of alcohol, beer only, and even then will attempt to minimize that as much as possible. (Not to say I'm not gonna party, this summer will be full of ragers and good times, I am just trying to set guidlines to better myself by)

And as I grow as an individual, I will adress other topics as well.

After an extremely insightful mushroom trip in nature, I realized many of these things, and looked upon this earth in an entirely new mannor, things took on new meanings and emphasis was placed on areas of life that needed it. The phrase "Don't worry about what you can't control" became engrained in my mind. When the trip peaked out, I was completely humbled as just another speck in the universe, and taught to respect it and know my place and my effect on this earth.

However, when I left my trip, and nature, and came back to society, I found that gaining al this knowledge was somehwat difficult, but attainable, but that applying these teachings to day to day life would be a life long commitnment, and an ardious one at that.

And I wasn't ready to make that committment. But, when I quit abusing weed, which is what it was, I felt the need to head the calling, finally, months and months after this divine knowledge was beset upon me. I urge all that habitually consume cannabis, to break, to reflect, to gather insight from all the knowledge you have learned not just from the plant, but in life in general, and to accept sobriety as another state of consiousness, as is being under the influence of cannabis, mushrooms etc.

Midnite- Live the life you love, love the life you live. Emphasis was placed on this phrase.

I have been taught, to draw closer to peaceful things and to grow nearer to what I love.

I have found that listeing to reggae music brings me hapiness.

Being in nature brings me joy of an unimaginable scale, every time Im there after my mushroom experience, I feel home in God's creation.

I love the ocean, the beach, surfing in particular, it brings me great joy and is a home away from home.

I love carving hills, it is an important thing to me,

I love cliff jumping, the release of adrenaline is indescribable, and a rush that I am addicted too.

I have been drawn closer to self-improvement over self-destructiveness, which without cannabis and mushrooms would have been the road I have taken, and known to o so many others who are on it right now that I know and fear for.

Attaining inner peace and tranquility is a constant battle, but one which I chose to face.

I love my friends, they are my family and who continue to make me feel whole on this earth.

I love drinking grean tea, it is an herb that has so, so many benefits, and that I wish many more would partake in, especialy over coffee.

*friends listed*

I feel that I am coming into my own. And that through sacrafice and adhearing to natures teachings, and I can attain that which I desire. Peace.


Life has new meaning to me, its something that for the first time, (no matter how many times I heard be greatful for life, so lukcy to have it), that I am greatful to be here.

I, Peace, in sound body and mind, have reached a path that I wish to follow.

Live in love, peace, and unity.

Let no problem or trial you face trouble you, and accept it as what you must endure.


I love all of you.



~Peace.

Wow, I really enjoyed reading that man. I can relate to many things you spoke about. Good luck on your journey.

i feel just how homer simpson felt when flanders was reading the bible to him. *whoah* *whoa* *whoa*

I feel really connected to you in the sense that we have the same goal. To achieve mind and soul tranquility. And ofcourse love.

I hope you the best in life man. I truly do.

all that stuff is true, and it's like ready knew what you were saying.. alot of the things you said, i've always thought in my head and just thought maybe they were true.. or im just making up nonsense because i'm high :P lol.. i always think kinda dumb things up when im high haha.. like marijuana is the only way to connect with god like see him maybe talk to him.. that's why he put it on here.. cause i mean :S iunno kinda weird how no ones ever sees this person everyones sooooo into and believes about.. but they've never seen him ever and just believe up WAY OLD stuff wrote in some other language lol.. i mean people don't even like tell lies like they seriously seen jesus or something lmao.. iunno i just think that plant is the only way to actually talk or connect with the "OWNER" of this whole universe.. iunno i just think crazy stuff when im high :jointsmile: lol

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Originally Posted by peaceandlove420

After an extremely insightful mushroom trip in nature, I realized many of these things, and looked upon this earth in an entirely new mannor, things took on new meanings and emphasis was placed on areas of life that needed it. The phrase "Don't worry about what you can't control" became engrained in my mind. When the trip peaked out, I was completely humbled as just another speck in the universe, and taught to respect it and know my place and my effect on this earth.

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heh yea thnik u had an epiphany or sumthin like that but yea after a really hard trip 1 day i had the exact same thought, now i still follow that i i shouldent worry about things i cant control and its givin me a lighter perpective on death,and a better look at life. i figured if i die theres nothin i can really do about it so i shouldent be that scared o it.

wow. this really speaks to me. i can identify with a lot of things that you said and wow. we share a lot of the same ideas :)

good luck!

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chillin' with the bong :hippy:

dude i can so relate to you....like being in gods house and stuff...because of acid/mushrooms I'm a much different person... i really enjoy skating surfin and life! i learned how fragile life is and how truly amazing it is... good luck man :)

somretimes i just think about death when im blasted.
it kinda sucks but it is true, at the end i end up realizing that i shouldnt be tripping

People will try and tell you weed is never bad for you, but those people are in total denial and will hurt themselves because of it. Respect to you for being a responsible adult.

All good posts. So proud to be here among you. Now, I'm off to brew some green tea. I've got some YinHao jasmine that would totally hit the spot after reading that...

Can definately relate to what you are saying. I have learned everything you have in this past year at school.

Because of smoking weed, Ive got a stronger belief in God...and I know what kind of things matter in life, and what kind of things don't

And its very very depressing to apply what we've learned to todays society...I feel you brother...and Im glad there are people like you out there