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Lately i have been noticing that i have been having such horrible highs,
When i smoke, 90% of the time, unless im alone, i get the following feelings...
-paranoid
-horrible pasties and breath
-unable to relax
-no security
-unbelievably low self esteem
-feeling as if i am a blue stick figure in a huge pile of red stick figures.
Am i simply just a reck of a teenager suffering puberty,
or is weed the main cause of my insecurities.
yep...lay off that shit for at least a month..or only smoke friends never by yourself
Weed won't Cause you to think something.
However, psychedelics have a tendency to further your introspective abilities.
Either you've been conditioned to feel this way over time,
or you already have low-self esteem and feel ostrasized maybe?
and weed is merely allowing you to become more aware of yourself in a social environment.
The paranoia and inability to relax... well... Sometimes weed isn't for everyone.
Sometimes you need to learn how your own mind works before you can overcome these types of problems.
And sometimes maybe you just need to smoke more indica strains, which produce a more lethargic, calm, less speedy and on edge feeling.
The pasties? (dunno) and breath, well, brush your teeth and drink lots of water.
I smoke by myself to avoid an un-relaxed high, it just isn't worth it for me.
But that does indicate that rather than change my environment, I should change my interpretation, which is the true cause of such feelings.
Everything is within you.
It is up to you to decide how to organize your own world.
From my experience, that sounds more like just getting fed up with your environment. I feel the same way, completely seperated from everyone else anymore... instead of focusing on the drugs, look at your environment. Look at your relationships with others, and how you are at school, work, etc. Try and find ways how those interactions may cause you to feel sad, low-esteem, or as if you're a blue-stick person among all red-stick people.
Once you rule any of that out, then maybe the cannabis is causing it. How often do you smoke, on average?
i dont know man, ive smoked so much lately, almost every day for the past month, on top of 7 prior months of smoking and i have NEVER had a bad weed high like the ones ur talking about. im on the computer in the living room right now baked as fuck and im on this site. and my parents and sisters are in the room and im fine. too weird...
Your fine, just make sure you're smoking around friends that respect you. Not being paranoid, being able to relax, etc, means you have to be comfortable in your environment.Quote:
Originally Posted by EternalOverdose
Hey friend! It sounds like you're dealing with a lot of things that young people have to deal with. It sounds like weed may not be causing your problems, but it is certainly adding to your confusion of youth. Maybe now just isn't the right time in your life for you to be smoking, consider taking a break until you're older. Also, it sounds like you don't really enjoy being high, so why are you doing it?
You just need to smoke more and build up your talerance it will all work out dogg..
Is that all that you feel? I mean, if that is then you're obviously not taking the drug for enjoyment.Quote:
Originally Posted by EternalOverdose
Personally, I'd advise you not to take it for a while. It's only ever made me paranoid once, and It wasn't a nice experience.
Weed's probably bringing suppressed emotions to the surface, so I'd focus on tacking them first.
isnt weed a mood enhancer so you should only do it when ur chillin and relatively happy
i would lay off for a bit tho and pick up in a few weeks or months
It's time to take a break. Your teens are the hardest part of your life -until you hit old age, anyway. Hormones work like drugs at times. You get highs and lows just from what your body is doing to you. I'm guessing you're at a low.
I imagine your grades may be shaky. Kids with high grades seldom have your kind of self esteem problems. Try to bring your GPA up. Hit the books for a while.
And how's your diet? It can affect how you feel (and look- a good diet fights zits). Try to eat more fruits and veggies (raw when possible) and get some vitamins. It won't hurt you to take care of yourself.
You mention feeling paranoid when getting high with friends. My first question would be about the quality of your friends. Who are you hanging with? Regular kids? Junior speed freaks? Boozers and pill poppers? "Pure" potheads? You may have reason to be paranoid, or you may not. You just may need new friends! Sometimes pot lets you see things more clearly about a person. But since I don't know your friends, I can't say.
So yeah, it is, at least in part, "just puberty". And it looks like pot is magnifying the effects. So it's time to take a break. Six months from now things could be totally different. You need a little time just being sober. You'll know when it's time to try it again.
Things around you likely aren't going too well- you talk about low self esteem. There is a cure for it. You need "to do for others", to use an old phrase. Low self esteem means you feel like you're just taking up space, without worth or meaning. (been there:( )
The cure is to help others. When you are making a positive difference in the world, how can you feel bad about who you are? Volunteer at a food bank, a low income day care, humane society, library, or a political party; become an activist for a worthy cause, pick up and recycle cans and give the money to a cause, find out the name of a marijuana prisoner and write them (letters = sanity)... Find something that is wrong and fix it, or make it better. "As we create the world, we create ourselves."" Don't know where I read that, but it's true. If you work to create a better world, you create a better you.
Granny:hippy:
ps- I work in special education and a free after-school day care. My prisoner is Randy Brush- soon to be released.
Storm crow that is very true about doing good for others,
but it is the main difference between extroversion and introversion.
And imho, introverted self-esteem lasts longer, becuase you're taking responsibility for your own thoughts and interpretations, rather than let the world do that for you.
But in this case, whatever works right?
befor i forget. right when i clicked on the *replay* i had forgotten what this thread was about and had no idea of what to wright about lol. so i clicked back and now i remember haha.
well dont smoke when you are by your self if you are a recreational smoker.
do it when you are with your friends. its alot more fun and u get to know them way better than sober
Weed is a great way to bond with people, so when your with friends get high and enjoy it...all this shit is in your mind. If your rolling up in dodgey conditions get somebody to hold the joint..it's like a proper bonding exercise. If you cant shake these feelings then you need to take a break for a little while, dont smoke if you dont wanna dude. Hopefully soon enough you will be chilling with some friends with a nice fat blunt on the go laughing about all of this...its life.Quote:
Originally Posted by Kottonmouth_Dude