Oh my god... Yesterday my school gets called to a meeting about something very important. They told us that out headmaster, one that many in and out of our school look up to and respect, was shoveling snow, and as he was, just collapsed and died. It is so weird to think that a person you saw out walking around and laughing earlier that day is dead. Gone for good. Everyone loved him like a father. I really is so weird to me, even though I have experienced death before this. I mean, I thought about him walking around earlier that day... He had no idea it would be his last day on earth. What if he knew? How would he have acted. It's so strange and shocking when someone dies like that. It would be different had he had prior health problems... It wouldn't be so shocking.
It was amazing to see how many people it affected. My whole school has had this mood in it since last night... I hadn't cried about it or anything even when I found out about it, or even when we held a little memorial for him last night. We had another thing for him this morning, and that's when it hit me. I don't know if I was crying for him, since I wasn't extremely close to him, or if I was crying because everyone else around me was, but I could barely keep it in. I didn't want to start bawling in front of everyone...
It is really very sad. He has a son who goes to this school who's a sophomore. I feel soo bad for him and his mom, who is the school nurse. I mean, I played in a band with the kid for a while... I didn't even know what to say to him. He surprised us all by showing up for school today. I don't know how he could do that. I would be at home crying my ass off.
So many people including alumni and former students. It is incredible how many lives he had touched. After about an hour after he died, people all the way across the country already knew. The news spread so fast. That is how much people cared about him. I wish I had gotten to know him better. So many emotions are going through me as they have been since yesterday.
The strange thing is, he had no heart problems, or any at that matter. He was completely healthy. Many people think he died of a heart attack but I don't know about that, because as I said, he had no health problems. They did an autopsy today, but I don't know anything about it. I'm so sorry this had to happen... My friends and I lit one for him last night.
Rest in peace Christopher Horgan.
