The doors of sexuality.

I think I am bi-sexual. I have reoccurring thoughts of having intercourse with another guy. Well I have accepted my sexuality, although not wholly. Intercourse with another male is still merely a dream...A very twisted one at that. I don't think I could do it. I don't think I could take it! I don't get it. How can someone's sexuality be affirmed unless they have explored the limits of their own interest without bailing out to avoid the judgments and torment of societies, friends, family?

Our sexuality would probably find us many places...Many queer places, no pun intended. Places many of us would not find ourselves in, unless the fear of humiliation had you screaming and running with your hands over your asshole, like someone was going to remove your penis on the spot.

you don't need to have sex with the same gender to affirm you're really hetero. you know you're straight if you're attracted only to the opposite sex.

are you attracted to males? do you get a boner looking at what you would consider an attractive man like you would a girl?
Do you eat cucumbers and dream its his member in your mouth?
when you poo do you wish it was your "buddy" getting you with the OUT stroke?
if you answered yes to any of the above questions... you may be bi.

you could just be bi-curious,

Thoughts like the one you described usually do not mean anything. I have read that many homosexual people have "straight" fantasies, also - and have no intention of living them out.

Find a kinky girlfriend, or one that's willing to try, and you'll have enough to handle.

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Originally Posted by Gatekeeper777

are you attracted to males? do you get a boner looking at what you would consider an attractive man like you would a girl?
Do you eat cucumbers and dream its his member in your mouth?
when you poo do you wish it was your "buddy" getting you with the OUT stroke?
if you answered yes to any of the above questions... you may be bi.

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No. But if there were no girls around that weren't off-limits to me being the friend I am, and if I had a half-bottle of rum with coke, then I could let myself get head from another dude as I affirmed yesterday when I was drunk on half a bottle of Malibu rum and fighting urges. Sometimes thoughts jump into my head and I can run with them or I can't, when I explore my thoughts on the matter, a strange comfort accepts them even when I continue to deny the absolution of my claim. Now it grows increasingly difficult to ignore what I have typed here today, as if I didn't mean it, despite what it confirms about my sexuality. To turn away would only take me further from reality than my life needs to be.

The fact that I would even consider myself to be bi-sexual is interesting in itself! However, it's true I have thought about having sex with another male the notion comes from a fear that I was raped by a male friend while I was unconscious. I believed it was some irrational fear until the time came where another friend of mine admitted he too thought he was raped while he was unconscious. The fact of the matter is that these thoughts are pertinent to sexuality and although my orientation hangs in the balance, opening myself to my interests remains ever more important than disguising them with pride. This has "life lesson" written all over it.

im bi and thought itd just be too weird to be with another girl but once put in the situation...it just becomes different.
to be honest...if your having dreams about it..you probally are bi. but who cares. be yourself. id hate to be stuck in the closet my whole life. not be able to be me.

dreams don't mean anything, really. if you dream you murdered someone, that doesn't make you a murderer does it? straight people have gay dreams and gay people have straight dreams, it doesn't change who they are or what sexual orientation they identify with. only ganj knows his sexual orientation, and I understand how confusing it can be when wondering if oneself is bi or not. Especially if you have lived your whole life assuming one sexual orientation, and then one day you start realizing that the same/opposite sex attracts you...

ps: I had quite a popular thread a while back entitled Theory of Sexuality, where I mentioned my own little theory of sexual orientation, and other people pitched in too. You might find it interesting.

I'd do a guy only if it was Robert Plant. Because....come on, it's Robert Plant. He's the most beautiful thing that ever lived.

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Originally Posted by Ganj

if I had a half-bottle of rum with coke, then I could let myself get head from another dude

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its what booze does with people...
more a reason for me dislike booze, and keep on smoke. :jointsmile:

In the closet? It's not possible. I'm not confirming any of my thoughts in regards to my sexuality. I love women. I seek women. I want to hold a women by my side, romance her and be what she needs.

My sexuality came into question when I combined an irrational fear (being raped) with present moment words. I felt the people around me were trying to persuade me that I am homosexual. And for my respect, I allowed myself to contemplate the validity of such a claim before questioning the sexuality of those I felt violated me. I thought many of my friends were bi-sexual once these thoughts occurred. They tell me that these notions are delusions of grandeur, but the uncertainty of my own preference remains a mystery as the indifference toward homosexuality has clouded my own vision. How am I to know if my interest in a woman is merely masking the hidden truth? Yes. I can proclaim my admiration and fascination for women until I am blue in the face. The fact remains that I do not know where my sexuality lies, however when it surfaces perspicuously I will not be afraid to accept it.

Find your local swingers club and go there. Once you jump into a pile of extremly sexual people...doing all sorts of delicious debuchery to each other.....you'll know what your sexual preferences are.

Hmmm I like dick and have never had any cucumber related urges... wtf!

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Originally Posted by stinkyattic

Hmmm I like dick and have never had any cucumber related urges... wtf!

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Let me rephrase that. I was fighting sexual urges. Not necessarily homosexual urges. Boy, I've really put my foot in my mouth. I'm not gay, nor am I "bi-curious," I'm just very horny. That's not saying I get so horny that I fantasize about men. Who knows? I could be in denial for all I know. One might think he would feel such a pressure and wake up. The thought/fear that I was raped isn't grounds for homosexuality. I've had thoughts that the town I live in watches everything I do on a television, like some twisted version of The Truman Show. Just because the thought came up doesn't make it truth. And as far as I'm aware, having a penis forcefully inserted into my anus isn't some deep-rooted desire of mine either. I'm not homophobic but when my sexuality comes into question, then the matter becomes very sensitive. Despite what I said earlier, I do not think I could accept being gay, it would mean my sexuality chose me and not the other way around like it should be. I'd probably lose my mind and do a flip off a building.

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Facing up to your sexuality?!?! What the fuck is this cunt talking about?! This slapstick is gay, but doesn't want to be. Okay, then have sex with women? Apparently he isn't attracted to women. How in the hell is that possible for me?! It's not! I love girls. Big girls, tall girls, old girls, black girls, white girls. At times I find myself gawking at their curves as they pass by and I calm the sudden erection, as if they're some piece of meat that I can just beat up. And I mean to be offensive, strong and domineering. I want you to know that I fantasize having you pressed against the wall, while you tear your nails into my back. I visualize my dick hiding away in that shadow between your tight, provocative jeans. I dream of your warm cunt wrapping it's dripping lips around my penis. Call me what you will. I know what I want. And it's not Rico's sweet lips, either. It's women. I've got a hard on...