Lately, everyone has been telling me Ive been changing. I didnt think I was, or even notice it until yesterday.
I just cant seem to shake the senseless anger I feel. Lately, I feel as if Im just kind of losing focus.
I cant shake the feeling that if I stab or poke or cut myself with anything, it will make the pain go away.
Ive been lashing out at everyone -- friends, family, even people I dont know. Hell, yesterday, I threw an assload of change at a truck, a lighter, and an orange, just because the lady cut me off and almost hit me. Then, the same day, I get in a fight with one of my best friends. Not an argument mind you, but an actual FIGHT.
I dont know whats happening, but I dont want to deal with this shit anymore.