How's Life?

Just wonderin'.

My life's starting to pick up, so that means less and less time spent here, my humble online residence.

I've been in quite the funk the past couple months, but honestly, I feel things are beginning to sway another direction. Life doesn't seem as drab and dull as it used to, which allows me to appreciate ME. Appreciate my being, and everything and everyone around me. Now mind you, this is without smoking for some 3 weeks. Quite the shock, indeed. A true revelation ala sobriety.

So answer me. How's life goin' for everyone? Are you happy? Sad? Why? I'm in a bit of a reflective mood, so bear with me, and feed my appetite for knowledge.

Your turns. ~

im at the shithole of my life right now...its on the rebound i guess...

I don't really know where I'm going- or even where I am for that matter. I feel like I'm just waiting for something to happen. Today I was really thinking about things, and I realized that every thing I do is just reacting to my external environment. I'm not in control over anything and thats a scary thought.

Hiya, Plant. Glad to hear your life's keeping you busy that you're feeling like you may be on an uphill swing. I know these past months haven't been easy for you, and I often think about you and wonder how you are and whether you've heard from your poor dad.

I'm basically OK. Sad about the situation here at home, of course. My sister is getting very close to the end of her illness now. It'll be a matter of days or, at the most, weeks. But I feel at peace that she will soon be out of pain. I don't want to lose her, but I don't want her to keep suffering with cancer. I feel a little torn in too many directions right now, what with nursing her and trying to go to school, too. But all in all, I'm handling it OK. I'll probably fall apart after it's over. I'm trying to keep feeling my feelings and expressing them so they don't build up and overwhelm me.

Nice talking with you, Plant. Thanks for asking a very therapeutic question.

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I don't really know where I'm going- or even where I am for that matter. I feel like I'm just waiting for something to happen. Today I was really thinking about things, and I realized that every thing I do is just reacting to my external environment. I'm not in control over anything and thats a scary thought.

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Im feeling the same way. Life's gotta pick up soon for me.
Im so confused about my life right now. :confused:

Its good news to hear Its a plant. You've been through alot.

Im going through Japan withdrawal.

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Originally Posted by birdgirl73

Hiya, Plant. Glad to hear your life's keeping you busy that you're feeling like you may be on an uphill swing. I know these past months haven't been easy for you, and I often think about you and wonder how you are and whether you've heard from your poor dad.

I'm basically OK. Sad about the situation here at home, of course. My sister is getting very close to the end of her illness now. It'll be a matter of days or, at the most, weeks. But I feel at peace that she will soon be out of pain. I don't want to lose her, but I don't want her to keep suffering with cancer. I feel a little torn in too many directions right now, what with nursing her and trying to go to school, too. But all in all, I'm handling it OK. I'll probably fall apart after it's over. I'm trying to keep feeling my feelings and expressing them so they don't build up and overwhelm me.

Nice talking with you, Plant. Thanks for asking a very therapeutic question.

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Actually, now that you mention it, we did end up finding him. That was probably a good 4 weeks ago, and then for about two weeks he just flirted with death, literally. He drank to no end, and we didn't know where he was staying because my stepmom wanted him out if he was going to keep drinking.

Then I think around 2 weeks ago, he tries to hang himself on the stairway railing going to his basement, and as he's struggling to settle in, the dumb cat of all things starts meowing and meowing at him. In his wacked-out head, he took that as Simba (the cat) wanted him to live. And for him, it was enough for him to break down and call my stepmom. He just said, "I'm messed up; I need help."

So he stayed in a psych. ward for 8 or 9 days, then was transferred to a rehab center for his alcholism. He's currently there, and has to be for 30-days total-it may require more depending on his progress.

So that's that for now I guess. It kind of hurts to think that your dad's in rehab and damn near the end of his whits. I'm dealing with it though I guess. I'm alive aren't I.

Thanks for the love everyone. THanks a bunch. ~

life happens in cycles....some good some not so good...the difference is how we deal with the ups and the downs....for me....been throught the fire lately....lost my mom, my dad, and my marraige all in a short three+ years....now things are a little more rosy again....its all about cycles....and sometimes you gotta wait for the next upswing

Its A Plant, I just wanted to express my hope that your dad will work through his troubles. My older brother just got out of the hospital after a very similar episode; he was drinking an absolute shitload, and ended up in a bathtub, with a half-assed suicide attempt. He has realized the extent of his depression and alcoholism, and is recovering. He's also about to get his Ph.D..funny how things work out. Anyway, I wanted to express my sympathy and empathy for your situation..

And I'm feeling pretty good. I'm continually filled with guilt over hiding my smoking from my parents, but aside from that, life's going relatively well.

Good to hear that your life is looking up.

I have been in a kind of wierd mood latley too... trying to figure out wat i want to do with my life and just random things going through my head....