I have some major problems in my life right now and i would like to get some advice from u guys. Im 17 years old, but i look like im about 12-14. This has caused severe depression for me and i dont know what to do. I have had this problem since i was bout 15. When im driving my car around i get alot of stares... at my old school i had to leave cuz i couldnt handle being around my friends i have known forever just cuz i felt like i was a burden to them cuz everywhere we go i get humiliated. I dont know how much longer i can stand it. Suicide has come to mind many times but i dont want to hurt my parents. Weed is one of the only things that makes me want to live. It gives me something to look forward to each day. I also have a disorder that makes it really hard for me to meet new people and have a conversation with a stranger. I get so fucking nervous i cant stand it. I also stutter when i talk sometimes. I think i am a good person and i think that if people got to know me they would like me. But its hard to do that when u dont look like any of the people ur age. If u have any advice it would be greatly appreciated.