i've been mislead somewhere. her tone of voice wasn't serious enough, so i persisted. i unhooked her bra and when i tried to bust a feel was when she held back. tonight i'll be more patient. tonight will be a more sensual evening between us. i never asked her anything, infact i explained that my room acted as a dictatorship and i was the dictator lmao! it was all in good fun though. i've never had sex, so you could understand my impatience, especially since she was in my room and we'd already started making out. i realize i've been patient all this long (eighteen years), but i figure if i want us both to enjoy the night then patience is going to have to be key.
she drove for twenty minutes to get to my house for a massage. i hope i didn't get the wrong idea. i get caught up in thinking people are playing games with me which is probably why i assume when she says, "no" or "stop it", i take it has, "are you going to take control or allow me to dominate you". i'm the alpha-male! lmao! i'm not into that dominatrix stuff. tonight i'll try to maintain total control over myself and her. i definitely don't want to scare her off. i'll try to keep the akward situations to zero. i don't want her to feel uncomfortable around me.
any tips would be appreciated. thank you very much, friends.