Strange Days

I'm overwhelmed by this feeling of betrayal...

I don't whether to blame it on paranoia or what? I was hanging out with some friends the other day and all was well. Everything was fine until late in the evening. I've been trying to figure out how I could be better company around people because a lot of the time I don't feel like that's what I'm bringing. It's actually really stupid of me because I get allow my mind to get caught up in these simple, benign, comments (made by friends) and I take offense to them (in my head). And obviously the comments don't stop because then no one would say anything or else I'd get anxious. I'm in a bind. A bind that I thought was broken after having one of the chillest days with my friends the day before. I think what triggers it is when my friends are talking and I can't hear them. I get this feeling that they may be talking about me. My friends are real shady sometimes, but aren't we all? Somtimes I feel like there's something they want from me that I'm not giving.
Maybe I should just stop stressing? Take a deep breath and let it all go. It's obviously unjustified for a reason and I know this, but my mind keeps re-tracing it's steps and I dwell deeper and deeper, searching for nothing. It's pathetic and a handicap in my social experiences. I just wish it would go away.


Thanks for listening.

oh..i thought you were referring to that movie with juliette lewis about virtual reality, that movie is TITE!!! they play it all the time on usa and sci fi.

i used to have friends like that, always talking behind my back and i finally ditched them

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Originally Posted by NightProwler

i used to have friends like that, always talking behind my back and i finally ditched them

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I thought about doing that, too. Like I said though, my thoughts go unjustified. It's just myself being irrational, having an excessive self-importance issue. I've often tried to conform myself to meet the 'standards' of my friends. I lost myself. Your personality is engraved in you. Once you change that, nothing but hard-ache wil emerge. My mother has the same issue. Paranoia, that is. Luckily, I just found this out after having a heart-to-heart with her and it's brought me to a better understanding. If I think back far enough I can actually pinpoint the very moment that these feelings started getting to me. That's when I felt I needed to change myself. Basically, I didn't think things out as well as I should have. If my friends didn't like me or they were constantly talking shit, would they still be hanging out with me? I obviously didn't change too much.

sup man i had the same problem as you, i ended up ditching them. I realized that they were cool sober but when they were high there true inner assholishness came out. You shouldn't need to feel the need to conform or feel you aren't brining anything to the table. If you are made to feel like that at all you should know something is the problem. If you are around true friends you can just flow, you don't have to worry about if what you are saying is stupid or something.

I just blaze with my highschool friends now or by myself..

PleasureOverload...nice tits...

Strange Days Lyrics


Strange days have found us
Strange days have tracked us down
They're going to destroy
Our casual joys
We shall go on playing
Or find a new town

Yeah!

Strange eyes fill strange rooms
Voices will signal their tired end
The hostess is grinning
Her guests sleep from sinning
Hear me talk of sin
And you know this is it

Yeah!

Strange days have found us
And through their strange hours
We linger alone
Bodies confused
Memories misused
As we run from the day
To a strange night of stone

is that the theme song for the movie?????

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Originally Posted by hihigh

sup man i had the same problem as you, i ended up ditching them. I realized that they were cool sober but when they were high there true inner assholishness came out. You shouldn't need to feel the need to conform or feel you aren't brining anything to the table. If you are made to feel like that at all you should know something is the problem. If you are around true friends you can just flow, you don't have to worry about if what you are saying is stupid or something.

I just blaze with my highschool friends now or by myself..

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In a sense I feel like they're trying to help me. You know how people look back and realize after years and years what a person was trying to do for them? Well fortunately for me I can see it all unfold at that very moment. My friends 'assholishness' is the key to the door I'm banging on. Although even when I realize this my head is still flooded with these dumb thoughts. Am I stupid?

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Originally Posted by PleasureOverload

is that the theme song for the movie?????

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no, thats the theme song for an album...

most likely if their still chillin wit u they dont hate u and even if they talkin shit they prob dont mean it or else they wouldnt be rollin wit ya. anyway if you do really think theyre bein douches just start makin some new friendss that way you got some homies to fall back on