riteo so i know i have a go at ppl for their relationship problems and thinking ''why can't they sort it out themselves?!''......and now i know tis tricky
ok so theres a boy called tom (me) and a girl called lauren (hopefully my gf but u'll c y).....ok so we have known each other for a good 2-3 weeks now, i met her when she met up wiv me wiv her m8 carly.......who i happened to go out wiv, but we r all friends now so it's kool. anyway me, carly and lauren met up blah blah got 2 know lauren and i liked her, and over the past few weeks we have been through more than i cud imagine.........we walked thru the rain the very first time wen it woz jus me n her met up which woz reli nice 2 chat, i buy her fags etc etc (i dont mind), but she is abit of a chav and 'abit' loud lol.........and always talking about sex, fingering, her boobs and fit blokes......which is alright i spose.....but dus get to the point where i get pissed off.
anywho, as all of u know i went 2 amsterdam on the friday, and i woz gunna meet lauren in the morning but i had a college interview.......so ya kno.....but i didn't feel taht she made a effort 2 txt me or call me cuz she has 'no credit'. so we met up 2day in like the first time in like 10 days, and she invited me over after college (im 17 shes 16) and bcoz she woz baby sitting i thought that we cud sit down, have a nice chat and catch up sorta thing.........
........now heres the bit that is troubling me, she woz going out wiv a boy called liam for around a month or two, and she dumped him 2 go out wiv ME. so i thought ya kno, she dus like me and etc........so i go over hers 2day expecting a nice quiet chat when her 2 friends come round, i didnt mind em at all but it woz jus i felt like they were invading our privicy but i cudnt exactly tell them to go away........so i woz jus sitting on the sofa watching the england cricket game whilst all of them had fags in the back garden every minute and playing wiv all there underwear..........so i felt reli upset about this whole thing.......making me thing that she dusnt wanna spend 'quality' time wiv me.......and i feel guilty bcoz on the way out..........she sed ''oh wots wrong?'' and stuff like that and i jus sed ''it woz pretty fucking pointless me coming round for barely 2 hours wasn't it?!'' and i just walked out and closed the front door and it woz a 40 minute walk 2 my house..........she kicked me out the house bcoz her 'mum' woz coming home......so her mum cant trust us 2getha even tho her mum likes me (which is reli kwl cuz her mum is wayyyyyyyyyyy cool :) ) and she woz jus like ''oh aren't u gunna gimme a hug b4 u leave?...............fine ignore me then!''...........and i didn't hug her bcoz she only felt comfortable hugging me when her m8s were gone.................wudn't wanna embarrase her wud i?
so after these 3 weeks, i do find that i do reli like lauren and i wish i cud go out wiv her but its jus things like this happen every day...........if im ina mood she tries 2 cheer me up.........if she is ina mood.......she tries 2 cut herself bcoz i wont talk 2 her etc etc.........i do find it hard jus 2 keep things up 2 level.........but ya kno i do like her 4 who she is.........
any one got any thoughts, comments or suggestions i would reli appriciate it. thank you for your time.
tom a.k.a st0n3r.
peace.
