need something to feel nothing

hey this is laura again. i don't know how this sounds, but basically, what i've been looking for is something to make me feel nothing. apathetic or something, i guess.
I've done 150 mg dxm & i really liked the drunk stupid careless feeling...i've done 100 mg diphenhydramine & oddly i liked the tired feeling for a couple of hours before it made me fall asleep like it always does (which is good when you just want the day to be over already), damiana, which i think isa placebo or whatever, but it made me a lot more relaxed on the dxm the one time i smoked it with dxm, and nothing really alone.
i can't really get anything worth getting, marijuana, etc... well it's a long story but i can't get any anymore. So i'm pretty much relying on household stuff right now.
I just bought some hawaiian baby woodrose seeds (I'm going to take like 2 seeds or something) & some kratom resin (how are you supposed to smoke that block anyway) from ebay. THose are the only things I can think of.
I'm not really looking for any psychedelics right now, just something that will make me not care so much & think so much, I want to stay away from anything that induces any euphoria or deep thoughts or anything, cause I have this weird thing I just can't handle it, I don't like to explain it. Just something that's like the drunk stupid feeling I got from the low doses of dxm.
(I don't like to take it more than once a week, it's so expensive $6 a bottle)
I appreciate it
Thanks
Laura

valuim or extacy would be alright how come ur not smoking weed?

Because I can't get it. My friends "quit" & won't give me any & I can't find dealers here. I can't get valium either....or ecstasy...damn.

you can find weed..anyone can find weed if they look hard enough, its everywhere!

Do you really want to feel nothing? Or do you just want to think less like when high on weed?

If you really want to feel nothing, take 600-900mg of DXM. True disassociation. If you take a little more, 1000 or so, you can even stop being laura and become a mere conciousness trapped in a shell, looking out from the windows that are your eyes.

I absolutely love the feeling of nothing. Of disassociation. You can get pretty crazy and heartless though. I had to cut back on my dex use. It was getting stupid. So, I just don't do it anymore since I have problems with moderation. -laughs-

PS - Take 5 seeds at the least. I take around 13, but 5 in like threshold I've found. Any less then that I, nor my friends, don't even feel anything. Keep in mind though, LSA intensifies life, which is what is the HB's. If you're looking to feel nothing, these won't be your cup of tea.

Maybe take some sleeping pills and sleep alot?

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Originally Posted by Purge

you can find weed..anyone can find weed if they look hard enough, its everywhere!

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just go walk thru the ghetto, somebody will help you out, that's how i always got mine in my hometown

oh yeah, get some guy to walk with you though, somebody you know, could be dangerous by yourself

how do you know? you just go up to people & say "yo hook me up bitch" by chance haha
i really honestly don't know where to find it. :(

That's why people have mail-order bud sites...

really?......where?? :eek: and how come no one told me?