i need help

friday was so horrible. i cant talk about what i did because i will get banned. but lets just say i lost my shoes, and my purse, got arrested, and my parents took away my condo. (i was renting it out from them) i dont know what happened exactly but inside my purse was my debit card, my social security card, my id, my cell - which had a lot of numbers i need and wont be able to find because i dont know anyone who knows the guy im seeing so i'll never be able to talk to him, my camera which contained a ton of pics i hadnt uploaded yet so there gone, all my money. oh and all of my jewelry is gone and ruined a sweater dress i just bought. but i dont care about those things too much. also mostly i lost any ounce of respect my parents had. i tryed to hurt my best friend and ran away from her. i left her alone messed up in a city she doesn't no. shes also a very not street smart person.

i feel like i have hit rock bottom before. but this time it was 100% my fault and i feel like such a fuck up. my parents wont send me to rehab because they dont want to give me more money because i have been before and didnt get any better. and i dont expect them to help me. i was proud of myself working hard everyday and keeping my apartment nice and clean, and i actually dumped the loser who was using me. but i messed it up. i cant do anything right. help please. im desprite. and all of my friends are just a bunch of stuck up rich kids who are drug addicts and will just give me shit and tell me to get over it. i need some advice from some smart stoners. because damnit people who just smoke pot dont make these dumb decions. and i want to change.

what should i do?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HELP i feel like im drowning

I'd think that you should disconnect yourself from your friends. You'll win your parents back.

Make sure you cancel whatever was in your purse (credit cards, etc).

ive been in a friendship like the one ur in where the other person tried to take advantage of me.. IMO u need to spend some time by yourself to sort out your head and decide what you want to do... how old are you again? the influence of friend is corruptive and if you alone decide your actions u might have a better grasp and understanding of what you need to do. but first you have to decide wether you want to change because you really want to get your Shit together or simply because you got caught.. karma is a bitch... all i can say is apologize as much as possible.. as far as going back to rehab and your parents not willing yo pay, start showing them that you really want to change (if u really do) by doing something on ur own.. like going to narcotics anonymous meetings or maybe even church, if thats ur thing... then again theres always government assisted rehab facilities to get u going.. then maybe if they see youre trying, they might be willing to help.. but youve got to really really want to change first.. and make sure of it before you get anyone else involved... Good Luck!!!! - Hilder

Hilder took the advice right outta my mouth (or off of my keyboard), 420MissHT.

Lest any of you think I'm preaching 12-step treatment for pot here, you need to read her post above carefully and think again. I am not.

You can take steps to get yourself under control even without another stint in rehab, 420MissHT. At least for today. Find yourself an NA meeting and go to it. It's called taking step 1. Then go to another. Then another. Then another. Hit as many meetings as you can get to today, get some phone numbers, and start reaching out to the support that's going to be offered from the recovering people there. This'll help get you away from your self-destructive crowd at the same time, and you already know you need to break from them. If you don't have NA in your community, make it AA instead. Do the same thing tomorrow and over the following days.

Hilder is exactly right. You have to really want to change first, and that's why you need to take the first step. You are in control of the choices you're making, whether you want to accept that responsibility or not. Sounds like you're right on the edge of being ready to make that change, however, if you've pretty well hit bottom again. From a practical standpoint, make sure you cancel your debit card and be on the lookout for identity theft if you lost your SS card. Apologize to your friend and pay close attention when they cover step 9 in your meetings. If you were assaulted or were the victim of a crime in any way, report as much of that crime as you can remember and do what you need to to see about your health.

The power is yours, and you can take it or relinquish it yet again. I hope you'll take it. I know you're capable of doing so!

Sounds like you fucked up big time...there is only one way to go from the bottom is up..Good luck girl...keep your chin up cause everybody messes up at some point in thier life.

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everybody messes up at some point in thier life.

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Quoted for truth!! Sometimes I wonder how I made it!! But somehow, we do. You will too.:thumbsup:

Not sure what happened but I'm an old drinker.....and looking around the next day to finally start noticing all the destrution I caused the day before sounds pretty much like your post......enough of it anyway.

These people are absolutely right......it all starts with the first step and you have to make it. And you have to want to......BAD. AA and NA are both great tools.....and the support from the people in them is amazing. These programs DO work.....if you work them.

Good luck.

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Originally Posted by 420MissHighTimes420

friday was so horrible. i cant talk about what i did because i will get banned. but lets just say i lost my shoes, and my purse, got arrested, and my parents took away my condo. (i was renting it out from them) i dont know what happened exactly but inside my purse was my debit card, my social security card, my id, my cell - which had a lot of numbers i need and wont be able to find because i dont know anyone who knows the guy im seeing so i'll never be able to talk to him, my camera which contained a ton of pics i hadnt uploaded yet so there gone, all my money. oh and all of my jewelry is gone and ruined a sweater dress i just bought. but i dont care about those things too much. also mostly i lost any ounce of respect my parents had. i tryed to hurt my best friend and ran away from her. i left her alone messed up in a city she doesn't no. shes also a very not street smart person.

i feel like i have hit rock bottom before. but this time it was 100% my fault and i feel like such a fuck up. my parents wont send me to rehab because they dont want to give me more money because i have been before and didnt get any better. and i dont expect them to help me. i was proud of myself working hard everyday and keeping my apartment nice and clean, and i actually dumped the loser who was using me. but i messed it up. i cant do anything right. help please. im desprite. and all of my friends are just a bunch of stuck up rich kids who are drug addicts and will just give me shit and tell me to get over it. i need some advice from some smart stoners. because damnit people who just smoke pot dont make these dumb decions. and i want to change.

what should i do?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HELP i feel like im drowning

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dude i feel you , lets start off by saying i am shy to talk to girls lol . allright are you religious if so well may fuck up can be fixed there and like i just got a job at mc donalds so if you ever need some help lol i can help you just say your name while saying gennaro at mc donalds and i will try to help you out other then that it look pretty good write back .

Yep, you blew it! As have we all at one time or another. Consider this a learning experience- you have learned who you CAN be. It very seldom is something we care to admit to. It's quite a bit different compared to who you SHOULD be. You can turn this into a positive experience IF you grow from it! It's your choice!

"all of my friends are just a bunch of stuck up rich kids who are drug addicts and will just give me shit and tell me to get over it." Those are not friends. I'll just stop at that- you already know it. Act accordingly.

If you can smoke one (or even if you can't), sit down and start making lists. I know it sounds silly, but writing it all down can give you a clearer picture of things. It stops it from all chasing around madly in your mind.

Start with "where I am now". (Have the tissues ready) Then go into listing the "stop gap" measures (canceling credit cards, checking local pawn shops for the jewelry, apologies, etc) to prevent worse damage. Now, here's where it starts getting tough- "What do I want? And who am I going to be?" Lastly consider, "How do I get from here to there?" By the time you finish the lists, you will have a better idea of what you need to do.

Hang in there, it will get better! - Granny:hippy:

I've been in the same situation, parents, police and all. Realize that you will not bounce back in a day, it happened to me 10 months ago, and I still haven't got back in the groove. And your friends, they may not be friends now, but they are right, get over the emotional state of it, and fix your problem. It's okay to ask your parents or others for help, just don't have them do it for you. As for the group things and church don't go, because alot of people can go to those meetings and fake everything as I did. You can still go, but it's a bit depressing when you see a faker, or someone crash when they've gone so far.

As the others stated, take time for yourself, for me, I shut all the doors, turned off all the lights, and just punched walled and yelled. It was the only way for me to release it all, wether it's crying or just sitting there, clear your mind, and analyze the situation for what it's worth. It's not rock bottom, because you'll meet it again. It always feels like rock bottom, until you find that you can go lower, but you never picture yourself there.

Good luck, and get it right. Just quit piting yourself and get back on your feet.