Anybody here been through a serious tragedy?

but it is all an illusion to entice people to cling to empty things. i loved my best friend like a brother until i cought him fucking my ex girl while i was still in icu recovering from a severe coma, i suffered a heart attack that paralized my hands i had previosly been a very accomplished classical pianist .... i cannot ever play againnot any more, not ever again as my doctors said my recovery was bleek, i can never play again and music was my whole life, i grew up around elite musicians, i was gonna start a band too and it would have been sweetj was gonna name it ' pride before apology' the only thing i have left is my beloved cult

Being beaten up by 12 chavs when they broke into my friends house. I could've died easily that night. Being hit by a van on a bike, that could've killed me. That was when i was like 11, i don't actually remember. Those moments changed my life, i'll never forget them. The first time i got high is something i'll never forget, cannabis is a part of me now =]

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Originally Posted by zeebo phillips

So many shitty things have happened to me that I can't even keep track anymore.:wtf:

You guys tell me that I don't seem 15, there's a reason for that. I had to grow up quick.

Life hit me really fast. People tell me that I shouldn't worry or panic as much as I do and to just be a kid. What they don't realize is that after you've reached a certain point in your mind, it's hard to reverse it.

My psych tells me I may be biologically 15, but I've got the mind of someone in their 30s. She also tells me that she's surprised I'm alive, haha. I tell her its because I'm God. ;)

It pisses me off sometimes that I didn't have what every other kid seemed to have, but at the same time I like that. I like that I'm more mature than the kids my age and thats why my friends look to me for advice. It's nice knowing that people can come to me for help. :)

I always tell myself, "Life has got to get worse before it gets better" and I've said it before on the boards. Just remember that there will ALWAYS be someone who has it worse than you.

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I grew up quicker than my time also,,,I really do miss the time that I never had as a kid... I guess that is why I am a big kid today,,,pretty irresponsible...

try and beat it now and get the kid stuff out,,,I know it's almost impossible as we seem to be destine to live life this way...

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Originally Posted by Skink

I grew up quicker than my time also,,,I really do miss the time that I never had as a kid... I guess that is why I am a big kid today,,,pretty irresponsible...

try and beat it now and get the kid stuff out,,,I know it's almost impossible as we seem to be destine to live life this way...

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I guess during my absence from the boards I went a little crazy. Maybe that was my kid stuff coming out in a little more serious of ways...

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Originally Posted by zeebo phillips

I guess during my absence from the boards I went a little crazy. Maybe that was my kid stuff coming out in a little more serious of ways...

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Crap I don't mean get in trouble,,,I did that too... My school signed an Incorrigible complaint on me,,, I went to court and everything... I was sentence to 6 months in a boys camp in Grove City Pa,,,I never went,,,I ran away from home,,,LoLzzz...

My mother died in a car accident driving cross country. Her car crashed in


Witchata(however you spell it), Kansas. It happen almost 4 years ago. My sister was 7 and i

was 15. My little sister was in the car accident and thrown 80 feet from the vehicle. The

drivers face was slammed into the wind shield and had to have re constructive surgery i still

see her to this day. My mother well was throw from the car and had severe head trauma.

Said she died on impact. Before this happen i had a dream of this. two years after the

accident i saw the photos from the accident and my dream was the exact same it was weird.

I was in my room on the computer when my father came in and it looked as if he was mad i

thought i was in trouble.

He starts out telling me theirs been an accident jen and your sister are in the hospital and

im thinking okay and what about mom.. So i ask him he just starts to shake his head and i

just stared at him like dont fuck with me, dont lie... ended up goin crazy ran out into the

woods and walked for hours trying to think of something else. Wow being 15 just speaking

to your mother on the phone, we were moving to the east i was going to fly out cuz i was in

school. This changed my life drastically.. though i miss my mother and wish she was here

everyday. I wouldn't want to go back. iv done alot with myself since shes been gone, i guess

in a way she motivated me to do better..... and i have... but as others were saying lets not

dwell in the past and lets move forward for others its to painful to move backwards and plus

why move backwards when you can move forward...

when i first moved to brockton i had no idea how bad this city was. I was a small town kid in a HUGE new school with lots of new faces. i made freinds with this kid that lived arround the corner from me. we stayed freinds all through highschool even after i moved to the next town. by that time we had already started partying in the graveyard, thats were we met some more people like us, metal heads who like to party. eventualy my buddie started hanging out with this guy we'll call him V, and after a while the 3 of us became real good freinds. so it was only natural that we all took the drug plunge together. sudenly weed and booze wasn't enugh, and we were sneaking off to do coke, and then the pills started. Perks,valume, xanax, k-pins, aderal.....ect. we climed right up the drug ladder, right to the fucking top rungs. I'm sitting in a hotel watching my BEST freind go through 1,200$ worth of rock. I was all messed up on oxycotin, and i just thought it was a fad and it would pass. I tried heroin, and i liked it. after that i thought screw this i need out NOW. i quit cold turkey.... i had no one, my G.F. was gone and i was all alone with my withdrawls. My other 2 freinds kept doing H, and mixing it with rock on a few occations. i had mentaly prepaired myself for one of my freind's dying. they had no intentions of stopping, and they didn't want to listen to me.... i was clean. we drifted apart, and i made new freinds. Through it all V was still my freind, he would call me to take bone crusies at 2 am and i would go. Then one night i was on a bus coming home and he text me. he wanted to hang out, i couldn't get to his house, cause it was on the other side of town... in retrospect i would have walked there if i knew.... they found him the next day dead. he was trying to quit and was 3 weeks out. He was like a brother to me, we had so many good times. now i go and visit his grave, smoke a blunt and listen to music. he was a great influence on my life musicly he showed me stuff i would never had found.

Rest in peace. Vin, i'll se ya on the other side bro.

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Originally Posted by zeebo phillips

So many shitty things have happened to me that I can't even keep track anymore.:wtf:

You guys tell me that I don't seem 15, there's a reason for that. I had to grow up quick.

Life hit me really fast. People tell me that I shouldn't worry or panic as much as I do and to just be a kid. What they don't realize is that after you've reached a certain point in your mind, it's hard to reverse it.

My psych tells me I may be biologically 15, but I've got the mind of someone in their 30s. She also tells me that she's surprised I'm alive, haha. I tell her its because I'm God. ;)

It pisses me off sometimes that I didn't have what every other kid seemed to have, but at the same time I like that. I like that I'm more mature than the kids my age and thats why my friends look to me for advice. It's nice knowing that people can come to me for help. :)

I always tell myself, "Life has got to get worse before it gets better" and I've said it before on the boards. Just remember that there will ALWAYS be someone who has it worse than you.

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I know how you feel... iv been told the same thing by my shrinks, people, friends. Its just about living life faster then others. more experiences then others. But the real challenge is being able hold your head high after living in so much at such a young age. im 18, and have lived all over the states. Traveled everywhere. Mother was a hippie father was a drug dealer. went to 6 differnt high schools in different states my freshman year. droped out went back 2 years later... So like i was saying its just how you look at your life. I look at mine as if im learning a different lesson everyday, a lesson to make me stronger so when something terrible comes up again i will be able to manage. Iv only met a couple people that have lived like me and im glad to have met another.. we should talk lol:thumbsup:

Shit happens for a reason is what I always say...

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Originally Posted by BlAzInIt4:20

I know how you feel... iv been told the same thing by my shrinks, people, friends. Its just about living life faster then others. more experiences then others. But the real challenge is being able hold your head high after living in so much at such a young age. im 18, and have lived all over the states. Traveled everywhere. Mother was a hippie father was a drug dealer. went to 6 differnt high schools in different states my freshman year. droped out went back 2 years later... So like i was saying its just how you look at your life. I look at mine as if im learning a different lesson everyday, a lesson to make me stronger so when something terrible comes up again i will be able to manage. Iv only met a couple people that have lived like me and im glad to have met another.. we should talk lol:thumbsup:

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We definitely should. :)