Anybody here been through a serious tragedy?

At the age of 18, I told my father that I didn't want to involve myself in the sexual culture of this planet and that I wanted to become a Eunuch. After much pleading from him not to, I still went ahead and got a full castration anyways. He then proceeded to commit suicide.

I've had many tragic and traumatic events take place in my life, too many and much too disturbing to post here, this event with my father is just one of the many latest big ones.

I don't suffer much from them though, I take it all in stride. I take comfort in that fact that this world doesnt owe me a damn thing. I accept what I am given. I don't expect happiness and prosperity from this existance.

Shit happens randomly and indiscriminately. You can't let it keep you down. Cry it out, cut your wrists up, smoke ounces to the head and move on to the next tragic event that awaits you.

trynagethigh, that is seriously the saddest story i have ever read. and i thought my life was fucked up. but ill tell you from personal experience, cocaine and guns never lead anywhere good. and if anything good came of your story, its that you made me do alot of reflecting because you obviously have alot more personal experience than me - and that really made me realize alot that i was ignoring before. thanks. anyway, if you ever need a friend man, i dont know you but im here for you. you touched me. i hope you can figure out your life and put the pieces back together. im not religious, but im prayin for you bra.

BG

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Originally Posted by Stowned

At the age of 18, I told my father that I didn't want to involve myself in the sexual culture of this planet and that I wanted to become a Eunuch. After much pleading from him not to, I still went ahead and got a full castration anyways.

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Not passing judgement on you man, but to me castrating yourself is a tragedy.

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Originally Posted by BGizzle

Not passing judgement on you man, but to me castrating yourself is a tragedy.

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No judgment passed at all. It's your opinion and I respect it but I don't agree with it. It is an opinion shared by most people nevertheless.

I once thought like that too, until one day when I had an epiphany and realized the vary purpose of this reality and the way it manipulates itself to serve this purpose. This was enough for me to come to the conclusion that, to be separated from this purpose, is to be free from realities manipulation and thus free to govern my own choices.

I refuse to become another victim of evolutions force.

I would elaborate further but Iâ??m afraid that it would require me to reveal some of my personal doctrines and belief systems, and due to the unique nature of them, It would succeed in revealing my true identity.

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Originally Posted by trynagethigh

Man crispi,

I cant tell you how many fuel pumps i have put in dude, i worked for chevy for almost 12 years, and i never even thought about that kind of thing happening. I remember quite a few fires (none my fault..LOL) and believe me i was the first one out the door. Man and just last night i was watching most amazing videos and there was a guy filling a gas can i beleieve in the back of his truck and static electricity set the whole thing on fire and burning him pretty badly. Do you have memory of everything happening, because i know i have blank spots in my memory now where there are points where i cant remember some things. i know i had no recollection of time or date when the cops released me three days later, and even when i walked out their front door i had no idea where i was.

Man after going through all of that i know i would have quit smoking anything and matches and lighters and shit would not exist in my house...in fact i would probably move to alaska and live in a friggin igloo...LOL. My thing with fire is that shits gotta be respected big time. I can remember coming home one evening and as im driving down the block there a house thats on fire and i mean it was going good. The heat was so intense i was across the street and literally had to put my hands in front of my face. I just cant imagine being on fire..man you have really blown me away with this one cuz, and im glad youre still here dude. You will most definitely be in my prayers my friend.

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Hey tryna ,
Me too w/ the past fuel/pmp history man . I've been wrenchin -n- racing since i was 14 . i'm 37 now BTW . I was cold , so the garage door was closed / not enuf ventalation . I knew better too . "Fuk it" bit me in the ass hard bro. lol .

I met a guy in hosp. that was under a ranger w/ tank out doing pump n left ign. turned fwd. shit blew up in his face when he plugged pump back in . I count my blessings .

I remember all of it , no shock here man . flash was like lighting a gas grill too late times 1,000,000 . I act. heard the whoosh coming , I had time to drop pump/sock n tools to cvr. my face . cuncussion buckled the roll up door so bad it wouldn't roll up but 3-4 inches . -n- rubber weatherstrip melted side entry dr. shut . roof was burnt out n knocked out phone , cable , elect lines before i was even out of garage . oxy / actyl regs. melted but tanks never blew , and the actual gastank never exploded . Crispi hid his face n crossed his legs -n- prayed for the best , the guy in the sky was really lookin out man .
6 yrs. -n- $14,000,000 in medical expenses later . Crispis back at the dragstrip , and smoking fat cannons being himself again . And bionic .

Quit smoking ? Are you nutz !!!! I got a med. card outa the deal . lol .
the only phobia i'm left w/ . lol . is when you fill a cars tank up all the way -n- all the vapor comes outa the coal canister . The smell scares the hell outa me man .

God Bless Bro .
Look Fwd. -N- Not Back
Your cuz
Crispi :S5:

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Originally Posted by tootsie roll

I'm sad to hear taht. Thank you for protecting us. I;m so glad you are with us and hopefully those nightmares diminish and let you rest. You've been through a lot.:s4: :joint1: :jointsmile:

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Thanks for your words, it means allot. If it wasn't for the PTSD disability diagnosis, I would be in Iraq continuing my service. As strange as it sounds I feel guilty for not being there. Although it is nice being able to toke again:thumbsup:

Look at it this way Smokey, maybe it was a sign that it was time for you to come home to your family for whatever reason...:) i say dont question it, your higher power takes you where you need to be. As far as Im concerned you have served your country well and deserve to be home, :thumbsup: I as well thank you. This bud is for you..:jointsmile: :jointsmile: :jointsmile:

Thanks BGizle,

Your thoughts and prayers are most definitly appreciated and needed. W e really have to be grateful for what we have BG as we truly never realize how blessed we are in spite of all of the problems we may have. Much to my disbelief, there are people with worse problems. I was recently at a restaurant that I used to visit everyday and just found out that the one really nice waitress that I know there had a fire at her house a couple of years ago lost all 5 of her kids and her two grandkids to a horrible fire. Needless to say as we talked she broke down in tears and about had me the same way. My heart truly goes out to her. Ive lost plenty but to lose all of your children and grandkids, i think i would have laid there with them and died as well. I truly dont think i would go on without my kids, but i have to keep going for them. Like Xcrispi said, whatever dont kill you only makes you stronger, so i gotta keep stepping.

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no but my choices kind of potentiated tragic events, after becomming castrated i lost many things, namely my girlfriend and my father and my highschool sweetheart. lesson learned, girls really like dicks no matter if you have elemental capacities to make them orgasm. ther is no such thing as love, love is a limited and conditional element. its just a pipe dream to fool us all i noticed alot of great discussions here at the cannabis message board

So many shitty things have happened to me that I can't even keep track anymore.:wtf:

You guys tell me that I don't seem 15, there's a reason for that. I had to grow up quick.

Life hit me really fast. People tell me that I shouldn't worry or panic as much as I do and to just be a kid. What they don't realize is that after you've reached a certain point in your mind, it's hard to reverse it.

My psych tells me I may be biologically 15, but I've got the mind of someone in their 30s. She also tells me that she's surprised I'm alive, haha. I tell her its because I'm God. ;)

It pisses me off sometimes that I didn't have what every other kid seemed to have, but at the same time I like that. I like that I'm more mature than the kids my age and thats why my friends look to me for advice. It's nice knowing that people can come to me for help. :)

I always tell myself, "Life has got to get worse before it gets better" and I've said it before on the boards. Just remember that there will ALWAYS be someone who has it worse than you.