Where are you in life?

I'm going to be 18 in a couple of months and I am scrambling to find a reason to go to college. I have a passion for music but since nearly all avenues of a music-related career are hard to come by and usually low paying, I am now on to yet another career idea that at the moment sounds like a good idea but in the back of my head I have a feeling I'll just decide against it a couple weeks from now like I have some of the others. I have no car, never had a job, never had a girlfriend, and I'm only recently starting to overcome what I'd call a confusing state of depression. Though the depression is gone now, I've also had a lot of weed lately and have been able to smoke a few bowls a day. Usually when I'm without weed and know what I have to do to move forward and try to do it, but I am in a depressed anti-social state. When I have a lot of weed I am a lazy bastard and though being high gives me a different perspective on my problems, I never follow through with the solutions until I've been sober a while. I find I'm only comfortable in social situations when I am high or I was recently high, and I know my natural instincts make me have a completely distorted view on how to live happily with people

But I'm getting better...?

15 sophmore in high school stuck on the becca bill just missed some class today because of some bullshit so court may be in order

standing around while the world passes me by.

I am probably the happiest I have been. Ever. I've got a modified GS400, got a house,got a bad ass job, got some great friends,and have been knocking the bottom out of some serious poontang. And I owe it all to weed! :pimp:

10th grade... kind of dreading geting out of highschool even though i cant wait. i know waht i want to do but i know i cant do it....

i want to run away from everybody and build a house somewhere down south in the woods and just catch animals and shit like that. i want to be an indian pretty much.

whats wrong with that??

Struggling through high school. :(

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Originally Posted by Arklenao2

15 sophmore in high school stuck on the becca bill just missed some class today because of some bullshit so court may be in order

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yea... i know how that becca bill bull shit is... im most likely gonna have CPS knocking on my front door with a snohomish county sheriff deputy after i go to court for the bull shit... i hate the stupid thing... i guess its what i need though... to keep being taken away from my mom cause it seams as though i was fine with going to school for the first 2 months or so... but then i started to get comfortable... and fell back into the hole of my old life... had a relasp... quit going to school agin... fighting with my sibblings... so far... ive done preaty good with not getting in fights with my moM, cause my sister isnt around i guess theres less stress between me and my mom caused by my sister... i just want to go back in time, and make better desions in my life, such as chosing not to go out drinking that one night... or chosing to kill him instead of calling the cops... or just choseing to never have smoked weed, or drank alcohal or have chosen to never have even to start smoking ciggerets... or maybe have just choosing to just stay with my ass hole dad... or chosing who i first dated or who my friends were... or choose to not have been mad at my grandpa the days befor his death... thats really were i sit... wishing i could just go back.... and relive my life agin, and fix everything that went wrong or that fucked my life up... or just going back in time to befor i was even born... i guess this isnt really the best birthday ive had.... but then agin... i havent had that good of a birthday in a few years... it sort of sucks.... but ohh well... 1 more year... and i can tell CPS to fuck off... i can tell the school to shove the beca bill up their ass... and best of all... i can by a rifle... and take out Preisdent George Walker Busch... and sit in a Prison Cell for the rest of my life... becoming buff... ass rapping other inmates... and making my "bitches" sneak me in ciggerets weed and real food from the out side... yep... when you guys see the head lines "the president has been killed" you guys will just sit there and be like weres party guy at? we havent seen him in a while... damn....

im waiting for my birthday dinner... hot wings... im going to go change into my official hot wing eating shirt....(because most of my shirts are white... i have to have a shirt made just for eating wings)

i am at a huge crossroads at the moment. the next few months of my life are basically going to determine the rest of it. i can either stay where i am and get a job as an electrician....or i can go to cali or mississippi and travel the world as an electrician....specifically guam, japan, spain, iraq and kuwait. if i stay where i'm at, i think i'll continue to delve into the hick culture that i'm surrounded by. if i go to cali or miss, i think i'll still spiral into hick culture, but with a better idea of what else is out there. i also think about the two choices i have and how they'll affect the woman i end up with. many many things to ponder.

Im a full time high school student that likes to smoke weed hang out and just chill. I don't really know what you would call that, probably just normal teen.

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Originally Posted by NightProwler

10th grade... kind of dreading geting out of highschool even though i cant wait. i know waht i want to do but i know i cant do it....

i want to run away from everybody and build a house somewhere down south in the woods and just catch animals and shit like that. i want to be an indian pretty much.

whats wrong with that??

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I had the same idea as you... it hasn't passed me by yet, it is still a probable ambition. You will come to find you are stronger than you think, and you can and will make whatever you desire....happen.