i wasted another day sitting on this bastard PC chair!:stoned:
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i wasted another day sitting on this bastard PC chair!:stoned:
i have been very very depressed lately. whenever someone tries to comfort me, for some reason i get angry at them and blow them off. im starting to really anger my friends. when i am depressed, i eat very unhealthily. por ejemplo, hoy come una chimichanga con BIFE como mi almuerzo y helado de fresca para (i cant decide whether its 'por' o 'para') desayuno. anyway, i have this relentless habit of speaking spanglish, especially when im typing.
during calculus today I asked Cole to borrow his calculator. he says to me 'you're always borrowing things from me, go buy yourself your own crap'. i was absolutely fuming at this respone (cole and i never get along anyhow). so while he was at the board doing a problem, i snatched his calculator, to it to la bana de mujeras conmigo, and submerged it in a sinkfull of water. i left it there then went back to class and asked again to borrow his calculator.
i have a stomach ulcer from all this stress. honestly im glad it there because it gets me out of class and its something tangible and legitimate que puedo me quemo sobre.
i got stuck in two hours of standstill traffic yesterday. but i realized i would rather get stuck in traffic like that again than eat dinner with my family. so today i skipped dinner and told my moms i was stuck in traffic and that i was going to stop somewhere else to eat. i went to WaWa and bought a huge cup of coffee (breaking my year-long my vow to drink only organic, free-trade, indpendent coffee and tea) and a bag of flamin' hot cheetos. then i smoked a huge joint in the parking lot and went home and fell asleep. i never did finish my homework or talk to my moms.
i bought six vicodans and two percoset today.
i was kinda in the same situation. my advice to you is to quit the opiates. that spun me into some crazy depression. The hardest part is to get out of the vortex. i advise you to go to a music concert. I went and saw queen, and it helped me a whole bunch.
i took a week off from all drugs, and then started smokin buds again, and i felt alot better. Soul searching is good.
most, if not all, of my depression is high-school and college related, i hardly think the painkillers have started anything seeing as i havent taken a pill in over sixth months. though i do admit that i am potentially damaging myself by taking those pills, because i KNOW i will take them. a while ago i was addicted to hydrocodone and i know very well the consequences. BUT I LOVE PAINKILLERS. anyway, during my time of depression, i saw g.love and special sauce LIVE at one of my favorite venues EVER! i shook his hand and had so much fun...and i was completely sober. i was on a happiness high for only a short while and i soon fell back into depression with the onslaught of more bad news. im the kind of person that just bitches and moans about being depressed and doesnt actually do anything about about it. so thats another confession of mine.Quote:
Originally Posted by stangle12
another confession: i just totally dissed you when u tried to help me. see what i mean????? im just stubborn and i dont like asking for help and i dont care to do anything about my problems. i apreciate your help but i just have this bad habit of withdrawling from life in general when i am down. i really hate it but i dont care enough to change it.
i hate my shrink. all she does is keep me waiting for two hours, writes me a thrity seconf prescription then charges me treinta dolares
Okay, you wanna hear the worst confession of all? I am going to be 22 on monday. I am married to a wonderful man and have a beautiful son. But my husband hates me...I mean, he's always trying to make me someone I'm not. His brother is 23, and everytime I get drunk we mess around. I am in LOVE with his brother. But his brother is too chickenshit to admit he loves me too. Or maybe he's just using me? I dunno. I'm thinking about moving to mexico..just to get away from it all. But the really wrong thing is, everyone thinks me and his brother are like brother and sister. We're not blood relation, but this is how our relationship has been for 6 years.
Oh how it feels to love a man who is using you.
Ecspecially when it's your best friend.
Niki
my left breast feels very heavy today, it almost hurts.
i think nuggetgirl is headed for disaster.
check yourself before you wreck yourself
ive seen people get really hurt in this type
of situation
I'd never admit it...not to anyone. And I know that he would always keep the secret. But it just sucks to know you love someone and be too late and already married to do anything about it. Reality bites...........
its never too late.
but remember
they are brothers
you are just a girl
if your man finds out
the brother will forget about you quickly.
the worst thing you could do
you have already done.
be careful
Me and a few highschool buddies i played soccer with throughout the days of old tried playing again just for fun... I am so out of shape it is pathetic, sure i can run and all but god damn i probably cant even run a mile anymore
Im gonna start running again, mabye it was just the cold air
^ i started running three weeks ago. it feels great!! i would highly recommend it mate~
Hi BizzleLuvin,
Dun mind if I add you in my buddy list, hope to know frens from all around the world!
Max
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Originally Posted by BizzleLuvin
I at at mcdonalds today
.....:(
But it was for free
i willingly watch american idol with my mom
i dissed two of my friends today, who were gonna meet back up with me at the store i was at talking about a job, and i just went home cause i didnt feel like chilling with them.
For some reason, and I don't know why. I despise Italians. It's really starting to bother me. I don't know why I feel this way, I don't know how it started, but I feel really bad about it and I want to stop feeling the way I do. But for some silly reason, I can't help it. Take for instance when I'm out drinking, if someone gets me started on Italians, I'll pretty much offend every Italian in the bar and make a fool of myself.
i started drinking before four oclock......when i expressly said to myself no drinking till after four......and i lost enough for a joint
I've been on cannabis.com for nearly 12 hours sober
and i haven't had any sleep
and i hate this one bastard who broke my little heart who coming by today :(
I've been in a bad mood since i was 6 years old.
I beat someone up while another person held them for no reason. (This is my point about alcohol, it makes me angry, but weed doesnt)
Girl I feel you, I got a similar problem!!!!Quote:
Originally Posted by nuggetgirl
"Oh how it feels to love a man who is using you.
Ecspecially when it's your best friend."
yup, thats the bastard I was talkin about
i have to confess that i have been in a really bad mood lately because ive been dry for 2 months now, and i cant pick any up because i have a suspended license! oh and today also happens to me my b-day, i always some on my b-day! F**k
oh man that blows major
well if I was in cali I'd smoke ya out
happy birthday man
TODAY IS ALSO ME AND MY SON'S BIRTHDAY!
My confession for today is...
I wish I could kill a clown.
I have always hated clowns, I don't think they're very funny.
And I also wish that all the people who think I want cake and icecream would just leave me alone.
Maybe I don't want to get older ya know?
Oh well...smile for the camera.
thanks Kryzco!:)
ROFLMA:D i understand others try to make birthdays out to be just to much sometimes! i used to have the same problem, now im just content with acknowledgment! happy b-day to you and your son!Quote:
Originally Posted by nuggetgirl
i ate swedish fish and tea folr breakfast.
I woke up at 5:30 pm today, I went to sleep at 7AM this morning
i got me fingers stuck in me bum...
I totally got drunk in the car on my way to my college study group meeting.
it 05.05am
aahhhhhh
its 06.22
Forgive me father for ii have sinned
I broke an expensive piece of equipment at work and covered it up:(
I got out of bed at 4:30 pm yesterday, and I only got up because my boyfriend was about to come home from work...
I could have had sex today, but was too lazy to put in the work./shrug
I watched the rock and roll hall of fame and cried when Metallica came on
God I'm queer but I love those fuckers especially my sexiness
and I'm mad that they played Ironman and I wasn't there to see it in person!!!!
and also I've been denying food for about 4 days now
Just to be funny, I downloaded porn on someone's work computer...
...and not the normal kind of porn.
Caffeine Free Porn? :what:
Or, Chicken Porn? :confused:
little bit of both
I'm a real boy!
I'm planning on hooking up with a guy this evening after I work. Buttsecks? I hope ;)
i got my car towed today cause my tags expired in OCTOBER!! bitches.......
got my car towed today cause my tags expired in OCTOBER, and i got to ride home in the cop car; which immediatly set off my preverted brain into fanstasize mode.