I seriously beleive in god and jesus and all that stuff because I dunno I guess you can say I feal in the back of my head. But I seriously hate religion, I always wonder why do we have to worship a god? I hear in the bible we were given free will but yet why would we go to hell for some things like having sex just for pleasure and getting high once in awhile ( i believe smoking weed is a sin for me because socitey bans it and my parents dont approve of it which is brekaing one of the ten commants) thats not free will if we can do what ever we want but some things we go to hell for eternity for the few years we are on earth (harsh if you ask me)? This is why I hate going to church theres no point I simply cannot get into it and I just find it sorta unfair in a way and it makes me pissed off because all i really get out of it is that I am going to hell unless I am a perfect good boy and repent for my sins. I believe in god and everything I just dont find it fair in some ways like since god knows the future and everything then why would he have made that angel in the first place who turned into satan and release evil and let the snake decieve admam and eve if he knew it was going to happen? I beleive in hell and heaven and crap but when I die I hope when I am flaoting up to heaven or down to hell, I am going to start swimming side ways and run away from heaven and hell and just go float around and be peaceful in my own lil space. ( I hope its possible to swim sideways lol)But I just wish when I die if there is like a limbo or sumtin that I could just stay in for eternity or better yet Ill float around and maybe somehow ill float to earth and be a spirit smoking bud for the rest of time... that would be awesome
