So, What's Gonna Happen To Me Now?

Something.....Something strange just happened. Brenda had been wanting to talk to me, and I kept telling her no. Well, last night I talked to her on the phone for a second (that conversation).
This morning she wanted to talk, and I said no, I don't want to. Finally, I gave in, I talked to her.

I told her that weed is just a natural balancer for me. Instead of taking pills or synthetic man made stuff to try to solve my problems, I'd rather smoke weed that's from the earth, and from God. When I smoke, or when I know I CAN smoke, don't even have to be stoned, I realize that the world is worth so much to me. That life's too short to be sad and depressed and angry all the time. She said I have to learn to feel that without weed. I said I know, but that's not going to happen NOW. Maybe in the future, but not now. I told her I'm still going to smoke, and that as long as I'm home or in A home, not out driving or trying to be stupid, I should have the right to.
I also told her that I think it's ridiculous they're pressing Battery charges against me, and she actually agreed. She's going to call the prob officer on Monday to talk about that, then she wants to hear what the judge has to say about the possession charges. She might even try to get me off (she knows the judge too, =/ ) with a more lenient punishment.

She is going to allow me to smoke but she doesn't want to know about it. I can leave my stuff out, I don't have to hide it, but she doesn't want me to say, "Hey, I smoked last night." Likewise, she isn't going to answer any questions. I also said I think I owed it to her to try harder in school, so I'm going to. She said that would be great.

So, after this long, "arduous" journey, I think I may have finally found my destination. Before in our family, we had always screamed at each other, always unable to talk. We finally talk to each other, the first time in 17 years, and it almost all works out OKAY.

I just wanted to thank you guys so much. But, I would've given up on life two weeks ago had it not been for you guys. I actually didn't think this topic would be successful at all.

Anyway, thank you guys so much. I'll keep you updated when we hear from the judge etc etc.

Gothen, hope you come out without too much trouble... i just don't get it.. will america ever get it? Canabis users are no criminals... but hey, you all know that.

Good luck and greetings.

glad things working out for ya
just hang in there and try
do ya best and ya parents will see your effort
and as a parent i know i do not expect superhuman kids,we just wait for the next event hoping its not to bad,knowing we are clueless to your lifestyle away from home ect,
they will know if your trying or acting like it so really really try
and thank her bro
a "thanks mom for trying to meet me halfway" will go a long way
peace

i totally agree w nowhereman, Gothen, sounds like shes coming around, time for peace i had a feeling she would. im sure she feels awful. try to be nice and itll all work out.

wow dude........ ohh give me a sec i just read the whole thread and i need to think a bit.oh im so speechless at the moment i cant find words... this is probably the saddest and most incredible story i have ever heard in my whole life... i wish i could have read this before so i could have helped you out in those most depserate times...

your mom is almost exacly like mine. my mom is at times so pitch black hearted and so damn evil you just wish you could drive a stake through every inch her body. I'm 1000000% positive that man if my mom would mind me taking a smoke here and there, id be exacly in the same situation as you, shes so overprotective and so controlative, and i understood your story with heart-shaterring progress...( lukely ive talked to her about this, mind you it took me 5 months to convince her that im responsible, Im not joking) Just to take the bus now opens me so much more freedom

dude, that really fucking sucks man, i wish i could be there with you, helpin you out. the impact that that musta had that day that u smoked with your friend on her mind must have been so intense, so great, so enourmously overpowering to her little brain that she just fucking snapped man. it's really sad that it happens to some people that they snap and just rage and rage and rage for days, weeks, and months at a time because they just cant control it.

what your mom did really sucks man, callin the cops on you, god, and being charged too... the horror. As for not seeing your friends, thats gotta fucking suck even more man, i just cant believe it i was so speechless when i read it all.

man, sometimes im so fucken depressed too... (i could just imagine being in your flesh for a fraction of a second, and wonder what the fuck am i going to do in life at that point) I'm often so depressed of school, grades and stuff, friends aswell... but i have to tell you, without knowing anything at all, weed actually changed my life without me knowing it. I didn't realise it at first UNTIL now, weed has given me a lot of things, and all so far good.

i just realised, if it wasn't for weed, i woudn't have made new friends. I can't believe it, seriously, now that i think about it, i've made so many friends with weed.

i was so rejected in elementary school, just getting into high school was a change in my life. If you were to hear some of my stories when i was a little kid, i was being harrassed every day of my life, every day, class, minute, and second in school just was a total pain in my heart. i cant believe that im still living, i was so rejected for my peer group back then i coudnt believe it. As hard as i tried making friends with people, things seemed just to not add up. At times i was alone in a corner of school crying... crying... alone, some kids managed to find some little friendliness in their hearts to talk to me, and soon became people i often talked to, just to get out of my own misery. It feels so much better when you have something to say, and u just say it to your friends, and it really shares the load, because they can understand your suffering ( much like talking to people on this site)

Moments in distress like these really call for help. I'm glad you hung on to life as you did, i know it must have been incredibly hard, and the thought of suicide must have throbbled in your mind for much time. You took things well dude, and i think the people on this forum are very helpfull, and we really care dude, even if you are some guy i might never meet, i would try to help anyone that would be in these kinds of situations, anywhere, anytime.

You should see sometimes what my mom does guys, she would rage days to days, take away my screen and keybord, take my mouse away for days at a time because she would just be pissed. Sometimes, i really wish i could hit her with the back of a shotgun and shut her up, too bad in canada. She once took my tv, my comp, and most of my things away for a week, shes really mentally unbalanced...

You should always keep your stuff hidden dude, living with your parents that don't know that u are taking weed isnt a good thing, since you dont know if they are against it or not, ( xcept if you have talked about drugs with them before and they have given their opinion to you) Having flasks, seeds, stems, and weed, bongs, pipes everywhere around your room was pretty careless i might add, as for the booze, you should have kept all of it well hidden. ( lol sucker cops, it was nice that those pigs didn't search your room for further evidence, or you would have been even more boned) I keep all my stash and small things in a little bag that i have stored in my drawer. I only have my bong out on my table, because i bought it with my mom, and she know i dont smoke much, but of course i lie, if id be telling her im smoking sometimes, she would act up and explode. Fortunately for me, i had been taking psychologist therapies with her and my father( my parents are divorced, my father lives in another house) because of family problems. So she is cooled down, and she is very annoying ( She's coming every 30 minutes im my room just to check if im doing my homework fortunately i have my homework on my table saying that im doing it and that im talking to my friends on msn or something.)

Gothen, just hang in there buddy, try to get a job man your 17 you should be able to get some income, save as much as money as you can, safe for taking a few tokes here and there with your friends to relax. I would suggest you to go to your friends house after school and stay with some friends that dont mind. she can't possibly do things any worse that they are, so just do whaveter you want at this time with the time being, you can leave your house at any time you want, she cant stop you? oh and by the way, wheres your dad in this story???????????????????????????

Hang on man, 8 months of fun times in school with your friends flashes by, 8 months of torture is very long. just save your money as best as you can, hide your stash, and if ever you need help man, just ask away, dont feel ashamed to talk of your problems here man, we are here for you, anytime. especially get a job and save as much as money as you can so you can have some good handy money from if you want to move out when your probation is done, be carefull dude, dont get caught again, you dont want more crap.

Cheers man, try to enjoy life how it comes and goes

Total

what a great letter ! cheers to you TP!!

Hey i read from bigining to end and i feel sad for you and what you bin throw but i will half to agree with totalpain get a job save you money if your mom gose psycho on you agen for somthing you culde jest move out with the money you saved up. :cool:

i thought my situation was bad. damn. i wanna know what happens.

hahaha cops are dumber than rocks dude :D i had a gram of bud and a FAT glass pipe in my pocket when i got searched...never found it hahaha i love that shit xD

the fact that your 17 is good ;) fuck up when your underage, cuz once you turn 18 usually as long as your lawful matters are delt with your record is sealed, thats what they did for me and i got charged with felony posession of methamphetamine with intent to distribute, AND intent to manufacture and its all sealed, only ppl who can read that is the military :p

I cant believe your mom did that, thats sickening :mad: my moms a fuckin lawyer and she didnt do nuthin but throw it away the first few times she found it, if you plan on moving out u should give her a big chunk of ur mind right before u leave haha "mom, i love you, but fuck you!!!" hahaha

youll probly go on deathrow have to escape a prison run to bolivia change ya name to pable gaurez