Let me live in your closet!

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Originally Posted by Cheeched Chick HiGh

Its almost to the point I dont think I could live without him...or maybe just wouldnt want to...hes become my best friend...and I love him so much, it would kill me in a thousand ways...

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well sweety i felt like that with my ex i was caged up by him for 10 years and he treated me like i was shit but none the less i thought i was so in love that i didnt see the bad in him i wouldnt look at the life we had and how negitive it was i just hought that the love i had for him would get me thru and it ended up almost killin me!! so im beggin u before it gets any worse on u babe leave or u too will be stuck with no hope.. took me a long time to get over him but i did and now im cool and u will be too.. sweety ur young sooooooo many more men out there!!

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Originally Posted by Cheeched Chick HiGh

Its almost to the point I dont think I could live without him...or maybe just wouldnt want to...hes become my best friend...and I love him so much, it would kill me in a thousand ways...

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he is fucking up your life, from what ive seen....ive never taken to kindly to you sice you joined...you seemed like everyday you were stealing or getting kicked out or doing hard drugs and just being an all around immoral chemicaly dependant person, but i DONT not like you....look...you are a good person inside, and you say it would kill you in a million ways, well my best friend ive had for 16 years..my whole life...died, and that kills ME but LIFE LIVES ON. YOU atleast have a reason to rid yourself of him. You are 17, full of hormones and confusion. You think you love him ebcuase you WANT to love him so badly...and obviously you dont like who he has made you becuase of the scuicide attempts...be yourself...be free...weather that is with or without weed or any other substance...it isnt worth being in love with a negative influence


you say it will kill you in a thousand ways if you lost him, well keep this shit up and one of you will be dead on in jail by the time you reach 20 regardless

try getting him out of jail or back to life.

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Originally Posted by Cheeched Chick HiGh

I started to get into trouble when I met my boyfriend Andy, which Ive been with now for a couple years...prior to knowing him my record was clean and I never stole anything and I didnt even DO drugs :o I was a goodie goodie christian girl...and yeah, I look at my life now and hate myself for everything Ive done. Ive been put in psych wards for suicide and shit because how much I hate myself...I wouldnt of broken into that safe either had I not been with Andy...I dunno...but, I love him...so...its like nothing matters, and I dont care what happens to me, and Id rather that I did die...

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Andy needs to go. He is not good. Anyone that puts you in that position, makes you less of a person is not in love with you. If he loved you, he would never place you in those situations. I've seen your pics on here, you are hot as damn hell so you could obviously get a better man. A real man who is not a lunatic.

You need some counseling, and I don't say that to be a jackass. You need to work your shit out before you end up looking like a crack whore in some prison somewhere. Or get killed because of some idiot that likes to bring his girl along on criminal sprees. It is only a matter of time before the hammer drops with this guy.

Dunno why you hate yourself, and sure you probably don't want to discuss on here, but you should start by being clean. Lay off the weed and everything else until you are clear headed. Everyone goes through shit, everyone has felt they were shit at some point in their lives. This will pass, figure out why you feel that way and fix it.

Try helping others. Volunteer somewhere helping people. This sounds lame, but helping others less fortunate than you will do wonders.
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ya ya, nobody asked.. I'm off my soapbox now.

Hey, I want to be in that closet too Ammie and Cheeched! hehe :D

Yeah, I havent smoked or down any pills or anything for like 4 days now :) and I decided myself that I wasnt going to.

I used to volunteer alot...like at Community Cafe (A place where you feed the homeless) and I used to be a volunteer at a Bible camp all summer and I worked in the kitchen and did skits and stuff.

Andy does bring me down alot...a few days ago he was so drunk (I hate alcohol, so I dont drink) and he told my friend Gary he wanted to talk to me (Gary drank a beer or so and got out of jail and was on probation) and half way to my house he told Gary he was only going there to yell at me. Well, they were only like 4 miles away from where I was so me and my friend Kelly went towards where they were and Andy immediately got out of the car screaming "HANNAH GT THE FUCK OUT OF THE CAR NOW GET THE FUCK OUT" and so I did even though I didnt want to because I was scared...and he just ripped into me...the only thing I said to him was "I love you, Andy look at yourself" and I broke down into tears and fell on my knees...and then because Andy was screaming so loud someone called the cops and he got a minor...and then Gary had to go back to jail.

Even his friends tell me he treats me like shit and I deserve better. Theres been various times his cousins pushed him against the wall telling him to lay off and his brother got in his face once cause he thought he was about to nail me...

I dont know why I love him, I question that often...but, I do...and it hurts to think of m not being with him :( It makes me incredibly sad. Hes become my best friend...and Im scared of loosing him...

cheeched.. listen.. best friends dont treat you like that. if they do then theyre not your best friend

boyfriends shouldnt treat you like that, either, hon.. if they do then you need to get there fuck out of there..

no matter how much it'll hurt you to split up with him, i gaurentee you itll hurt you alot more in the long run if you stay with him..

find someone better.. a guy that knows how to treat you with respect.. thats what most normal guys are like.. well at least they should be :confused:

but hey, at the end of the day, its your life.. i just hate to hear or see people getting treated like shit :(

^Yeah, hes a little anal and doesnt know how to talk all he does is scream...david, his cousin, told me he thinks Andy will abuse me in lik 20 years if we'r still together...my dad thinks hes a time whore cause I get in trouble if Im not ALWAYS with him on my free time...sometimes I wanna be with lik Kelly and he starts bitching "I know you want to be with them more then me" blah blah immature shit that gets on my nerves and yet I deal...

dude.. he shouldnt bitch at you for anything.. he should never shout at you for anything.. he should never even raise his voice at you.. and he definately shouldnt try and control you like that.. next time he does, kick him in the balls lol :p

Had i a closet, you'd be more then invited to stay in it. :D

The C

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Originally Posted by Cheeched Chick HiGh

I dont know why I love him, I question that often...but, I do...and it hurts to think of m not being with him :( It makes me incredibly sad. Hes become my best friend...and Im scared of loosing him...

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You don't love him that is the sad thing. I think you love to feel like shit. It is like being married to someone who beats you. A nasty little repetitive cycle of abuse. The train won't stop until you put on the brakes. To him you are a pet dog. He can kick you, spit on you, abuse you, and you will always be there loyal to him. That is not right. Fuck him.

Yes it will be hard tossing him out the door. But if you don't do it now the worse it will get. I hope you figure that out before too much damage is done. People like him are the biggest cowards on earth. They find victims, (yes you are a victim) with crappy self esteem for whatever reason, be it a shit home life or whatever, then they fuck with them and demoralize them even more. Soon you will think that you are unworthy of anyone but him, which is just what he wants so he can keep fucking with you. Get rid of him. I know that sounds callous, but if you don't you will end up in jail, fucked up or worse dead. Get out before you hit the bottom wherever that may be.

I know nothing about you other than that you are a fellow human being on this crazy planet which makes you just as special as everyone else. Every soul is unique. And no I am not some religious freak. I don't like to see people being abused and used, especially someone as obviously young as you. This guy is not worthy of you. He doesn't love you. And as much as you think you love him, if you look deep in your heart I think you will realize that is not true. You are just scared. And that is ok. You are ok. And you will be ok when you move on and leave him behind. It will hurt like hell for awhile, and as much as you will want to escape and get fucked up, you should really not until you are healthy. If you are using to escape from life you are using for the wrong reasons.

ok, ok, I will shut up now.:rolleyes: