Originally Posted by jacquelyne
If i ever get back what i wrote when psychosis set in i will post some.I filled 2 books with theories on god and everything to do with religion it was about 5 or 7 days i was writing non stop with not one wink of sleep.I had people writing for me because i couldnt keep up with my mind.I wanted it all down because i knew something was happening as i knew not alot about religion but with psychosis i knew alot even things about god i never thought.Fuck me dead some of the things i wrote would not even ever come into my mind normally.Was like i knew everything.The whole jesus thing, mary,god and even crap like the pyramids.It was like i was actually there and was explaining to them what was happeneig and making them write it.I was convinced that i was special in some way and i was ment to be here to tell people all the mysteries of life.Its so hard to explain but i was dreaming and awake at the same time.Ah fuck it i wish someone else had this happen.I was convinced that men from India were like the devil and everytime an indian doctor would come to see me go sick and they would get security.A priest came to see me as i was in a real bad way some of my organs were starting to shut down after so many days with doing nothing but talking and writing.No food no drink for over a week i was sick bad.Anyway i was happy to see him i asked could i hug him i felt like he was there to save me from the bad doctors.I remember asking him for holy water(he had to go get some lol) he put it in a coke bottle for me.I couldnt walk i wanted to put it all over the floor in the ER.When the doctors walked past me i would splash them with it thinking it would burn thru there skin.Anyways thats just a bit of what to me from drugs playing with my mind.Sorry probably had nothing to do with anything on the thread im abit spaced out today