Well, today was very bad :( I saw her in the morning at assembaly and DAMN she looked so beautiful. Then at school lunch i was hanging out with a few guys she hangs out with that i kinda consider as "friends" the orijnal guy who was friends with her and friends with me was'nt here at school today and i asked another guy if i could hang out with him and told him why. He could'nt keep his mouth shut, and when i was with them, the girl i like walked through a door, and the first thing some fuckingprick said was "stuart fancies you" and then it kinda went silient and i was just kinda siting there like "thanks a fucking bunch" i think she got embarrsed, she had her head turned away from me, and was just staring at nothing, then she left out the door skipping a lil bit and kinda hummming in a jolly way.... i think she was just trying to forget what just happened, and walked out the door and was just out the door and was still there. Just somewhere that she could'nt be seen by me..... So i was embarssed as fuck.... she was embarssed as fuck.... and now i dont have any chance. I did'nt even get a chance to talk to her... and now i don't think i ever will.... I might block her on MSN because im to embarssed now and i defintly now i have no shot now.... And then some other guy was like "well, u never really had a chance in the first place, because shes just to fit"....
And then i saw her walking past at bus stop, she did'nt see me....
So now im very depressed and sad :(
I would of said "oh well, at least i tried"... But i never got a chance to try. Now she proberly thinks im some freak.
