And I hope you don't feel that the last message was meant to ridicule you dude. I've been to the psychiatric hospital my fair share of times too--- you've got to roll with it. At one time I was on risperidone, then prozac, then seroquel, then wellbutrin, etc etc etc. The only medicine that works for me is THC.
Maybe you are sensitive to drugs. Maybe you should consider what is best for yourself. It sounds like you are experiencing intense anxiety........ study neurochemistry and it'll set you free (it really helped me get out of my own personal hell, knowing every negative emotion i was feeling was the direct result of chemical imbalance in my brain...)