Originally Posted by lagstronaut
SwirlyMass, I fucking know exactly what you mean...
I've watched TV many times just thinking in the back of my head how retarded some of the things I'm hearing/seeing/witnessing are, and at the same time I know that most likely 100% of people I know personally are sitting watching the same thing as me and blindly swallowing the network's feed
Honestly I have nothing really original to contribute to this thread aside from support for what you're saying. I am barely any kind of leader and I do not know of any avenue to start down in order for the end of the road to lead to a better tomorrow. I could fast, spend no money, and live on the streets. In the end I would die in a foolish way with no message received to those around me. I use many resources daily, many more than 1 human being should be credited to per day. Yet I don't stop. I AM all talk. Openly admitted, I am a lost kid that knows there is something incredibly wrong yet I do nothing to better this situation. How can I? I can just worry about the space directly around me and make sure everything runs smoothly within that space. What is the most frustrating thing for me (aside from having depression) is that I live within this isolated world of plastic and dreams to make more green papers than your fellow man, and yet I know I will never leave this place. I will remain in this superficial world with a nagging in the back of my mind that what I am participating in is wrong and is bringing about a destruction to mankind. All I have done up until now is remind myself not to get sucked in.
A personal dillema for me right now is that I think my depression has allowed my thought processes to pick up what is going on around me, but once I cure my depression will I fall back into a stupor of greed and no substance? I'd like to think that I won't, I mean I won't forget that which I know now, but I am still a little afraid it might not mean all that much to me once I have my well being back and I am free to actually begin living my life free of this battle going on within my head.