i cant sleep

no it is

Dear Diary: Mood apathetic.

Dear diary: Im going to go watch a movie about death while I slice myself with rubber razors....because you know Im too depressed to perish and leave these thoughts behind.

(P.S. By slice i mean eat and by myself i mean nachos.)

Peace :D

nachos..........

ever heard "demonz in my sleep" by woodie?

ive never even heard of woody

Originally Posted by PotHeed420 View Post
That is impossible, emos are homos, which means i am a emo depressed homosexual love buckett. Hmm, that was gay, I guess I am too. Mmmm, I love a woman with a big penis.

1.That was the worst attempt at I guess trying to make a joke, after all anyone can clearly see I didn't type any of that.
2. I was just joking around I don't think he is emo.
3. I think you got a hard on for him or some shit

"women with big penises"
lol

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Originally Posted by MastaChronic

alone with nothing but my mind. not pleasant company, i try to sleep but demons from my past haunt me like they do every night i try to fall into peaceful respite, they wont allow me the tranquility of slumber.i tell myself theyre not real, but they wont leave me alone. i smoke a joint to try and make them go away but this time theyre here to stay, they whisper in my ear the wrongs i have done and twist the good into a sick caricature of what it had been. they torture me tirelessly with no cessation. i cry out to whomever might be listening to lift these demons from me but to no avail. the demons steal my strength away leaving me weak and helpless, wasted and hopeless. the demons put steel in my hand and tell me to end it all before they do, i resist and they set upon my mind, flaying it with the past and whispering they are forever, and with the breaking of dawn they are gone.

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Well technically, there aren't many signs of emotions in this text...seems to me that these "demons" (yes I realize the metaphor) are making it hard for ya to even feel emotions. Perhaps not, maybe I'm just relating to it too much and turning it into my story, damn gotta stop that.

good luck man

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Originally Posted by CanaDanKs Inc.

Well technically, there aren't many signs of emotions in this text...seems to me that these "demons" (yes I realize the metaphor) are making it hard for ya to even feel emotions. Perhaps not, maybe I'm just relating to it too much and turning it into my story, damn gotta stop that.

good luck man

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damn dude, right on the money.
i swing from intense emotion to no emotion, although im more in the latter state than anything

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Originally Posted by MastaChronic

damn dude, right on the money.
i swing from intense emotion to no emotion, although im more in the latter state than anything

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Aye I entirely feel you on that. I find myself constantly wondering why I'm that way and what I could do to feel better in a long term way ya know.

The drugs...they certainly didn't/don't/won't help...but at the same time they really do, how ironic eh? You ever picked up on meditation? I'm not talking Buddha worshipping meditation, I'm talking breathing exercises and the clearing of the mind. Making these overwhelming thoughts (the nice and the evil ones) shut the FUCK up! The best way to go at it is to start off easy with proper technique, and it definitely helps man, I kid you not.

I never seem to have the willpower to meditate when I smoke lots of buds, but when I don't, I do that and I find myself wondering why I was ever depressed in the first place. But the circle always starts over...

Best of lucks man, let me know of any updates on your status. :)