Originally Posted by Oneironaut
Well, I've actually thought about the whole prostitute thing, and I'd really like to do it, if I could get to Amsterdam. But I'm way too poor for that. I don't have a couple hundred dollars to blow on a plane ticket to Holland.
Well, I don't really have any "friends". Never have. My social life for the past 21 years has been one gigantic failure story.
But there is one girl from work that I've just started hanging out with. I've been thinking about having a talk with her about it, and I guess I could try that out. It'll be a while though, since I have to wait until we have some time in private to talk.
True, I have been called smart by just about everybody I've met, but I can't fathom why that would make me any less desirable to women. Usually they're actually somewhat impressed by my intelligence, and say nice things about it.
It would be ideal, but I don't have any room to pick and choose what kind of women I'd like to meet. My problem is that I'm hardly meeting any at all.
I suppose that might help, but still I run into a lot of problems even when I meet smart girls. I just never know what to say, or how to deal with them on an emotional level (I really really don't have any experience relating to people on a deeper level than casual acquaintanceship). And of course, there's the persistent problem that every girl I ever meet is already screwing somebody.
It is. I've been hearing it for almost ten years, and I've been as patient as I can be. But I don't know how much longer I can last. The depression is really eating away at me, and it's starting to affect the rest of my life. I'll start tearing up at random inappropriate moments (like at work), and I can't help but to feel intense envy and resentment every time I see a happy couple. Sigh...
I'm sure it would be, but again I can't be picky right now. Any relationship at all would be a welcome respite from my solitude.
I know. They keep ruining things for me. Do you know how many times a week I hear from some girl that men are all just horny assholes who can't treat them with respect? But they stay with their assholes anyways, and it kills me to know that I would never treat them like that.
I can't help it. I know on a purely rational level that there's nothing wrong with being a virgin, but my irrational body is screaming for me to do something about this, and it's kind of hard to ignore it. Damn genes...
Probably.
Thanks, I'll need it.