i sometimes tell people that i live with my mom and her sister, instead my two moms
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i sometimes tell people that i live with my mom and her sister, instead my two moms
i spent too much money on drugs, so im broke now w/o a job. i paid for my court fees yesterday, with my mom paying it for me. and i didnt say thanks to her....but i mean it and want to, i just think it will prolly lead to an argument.
i still need books for 2 of the 3 classes im taking
I skipped my first class today because I was lazy and didn't want to get out in the cold. *shrug*
And I'm eating a 46 gram of fat Big Mac... but it's SOOOO GOOD!
Yeah I get that, my phone rings but I avoid answering it, I hate talking on the phone.Quote:
Originally Posted by TallulahGreen
I eat sweets in my bed, in the dark, when Im stoned :stoned:
my confession: i despise america and what is has become.
Forgive me, bizzle, for, today, I have...participated in a smoke-session with a guy before he was to perform work for my landlord
How old are you bizzle?, you too zephy...im 21 about to turn 22 on april 24th
my secret is that i have a moderate hearing loss that is going to keep getting worse until i die, its already hard for me to head and by age 20 i'll have to wear hearing aids which sucks, i feel like my life is short and has been taken away from me because i know how hard it is to function with a hearing loss and most people dont, people call me stupid and slow because i say "what?" when they say something and i didnt hear it. i dont tell anyone about my hearing loss because im embarassed, my dad will often yell and scream at me just for not being able to hear him. i dont talk very much because its hard for me to converse with people.
im in love with a girl who doesnt know i exist and wouldnt like me even if she did know me, my girlfriend boke up with me on xmas and ive been depressed ever since
i tell my parents lies about how im doing in college (i say i get a's and b's but i usually get c's im perfectly capable of getting straight a's but i dont feel like working hard at school because its a load of shit, i perfer to learn what i need on the streets because thats real life)
i have very few friends and no friends that i can get personal with,
most of my friends have moved, i used to have alot but they moved outta town one by one until it was just me and jeff and we hang out and get drunk and high alot.
now here is one that nobody knows, i beat off 4 times yesterday, after keeping clean for a few weeks....
I would like to kill both of my parents my dad because he doesnt realize how adversly he affects other people, my mom because of her fucking boyfriend who i hate, he accuses me of everything, stealing booze, turning up the heat and giving them a $100 gas bill (i was over at her house for for like half the month and i didnt touch the heat once)
All i need is a good friend and a pretty girl who understands me and i could be content for as long as i live
Wankin whilst stoned is better than wankin whilst sober.
I'm not looking for sypathy, but the past couple of days have been hard. I feel like i'm all alone, and even my closest freinds don't care. Evry day i battle with my demons that are trying to get me to do heroin again. I have dreams were i'm using again and it feels like i'm back, i haven't touched the shit in over a year. One of my old freinds is back on the train and, I just want evrything to stop. i think if relapsed i would accualy try to kill myself again.
at work i have to finish as fitted drawings for a 57 million dollar hotel (5 star) which will open tomorrow morning. and i am sitting here doing nothing...
poor boss, so much responsability...
the sooner i finish the better but i can take a few extra weeks