what's supposed to happen?

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Originally Posted by lateralus

If you don't like smoking then for Christ's sake, why do you insist on doing it?

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cause i dont want to be a fucking straight edge
it might not seem like a big problem, but it really is to me.

the thing is, i can get exactly how i am on it, without anything at all. like today i could have a regular conversation then 5 minutes later i was so out of it i could hardly understand what people were saying to me. and i was really dizzy today & kept having weird thoughts...usually it just happens in the mornings (no idea why) but today it happened all day.

Seems to me like you are smoking to try and impress people round you and fit in. Dont do ot for that reason, thats why your not enjoying the buzz.
What age are you? You seem quite young?

I'm 14, but i seriously feel older than other 14 & 15 year olds i know.
Anyway. I'm not trying to impress people, i'm just sick of constantly hearing people talk about their experiences with different kinds of drugs & how much they obviously like it, & i'm sick of thinking "how can you like those things?" I NEVER wanted to be the one who was left out saying "you can have fun without drugs" "you don't need drugs"
If i can't even like marijuana...thats like the basic thing & i can't even enjoy that.

I probably would have used to like it, just last year probably, now i don't even like dxm anymore, which was my favorite thing last year, i did it every week. Now i just get dizzy & antisocial & want it to be over already.

I guess pot just isnt for everyone, just chill out and stick to what makes you feel nice.
Even though everyone I know drinks alchohol, I think its one of the worst drugs available, so I stick to pot and other highs

i need something that won't make you drift in & out of reality, which is what it did to me. i don't like just staring off & not being able to really talk to anyone (either too paranoid or didnt understand what they/I was saying) :(
the only other things i've tried are 2.5mg of a valium once, and i got drunk once, which i liked, but it wasn't massively dont-know-whats-going-on drunk, so i don't know.....
the last time i had a good experience was at my friends party like 2 months ago......every time was bad after that.....and at her party i still liked talking to the more-sober people.
what do you think i should try then? unfortunately its easier to get 'downer' pills than anything else, which i probably wouldnt like.

i think you just got real high..

heh i decided to burn incense just now & it made me want to take some dxm. i only took 105 mg cause i haven't done it in a while, but i'm starting to think i shouldn't have...
this used to be my favorite thing to do & i dont like it anymore. i only took 105 mg AND its only been 20 minutes & im already dizzy dammit
this sucks :(

lol

DXM feels goooood. I feel ya, though. I remember a time when I had to quit because I was going through a difficult time in my life, and bud just made it worse. I'm lucky - I love even the effects of a cup of coffee. I have to tell you, though, you're doing drugs for the wrong reasons. You can't smoke "just because".

I love almost every aspect of the experience. I love the relaxation. I love how it makes me think about EVERYTHING. Every facet of everything. I love how when I'm sitting there, thinking about something I'd have never thought about sober, and I'll suddenly put two and two together and arrive at endless realizations. I love how music goes from "cool" to "whoa.......cool". I love how I'm never angry when I'm high, and I couldn't think of hurting a fly. I do it because I enjoy it; not to fit in. Whether or not you choose to look at what you're doing as how it really is is up to you, but that's what you're doing.

Why not be "straight-edge"? Do you have a legitimate reason? Just because? How is your relationship with your parents? Would you like it if they found out you were trying to be a 'bad kid'? I see absolutely nothing wrong with being a good kid, focusing on your education and being completely sober. In fact, I wish I hadn't drank or done dxm a third as much as I did when I was your age. My high school days are gone forever, and I'm pissed at myself more than ever that I can't ever go back and re-do those four years as a good - and Jesus more SOCIAL! - student. I was in honors and prep classes, and I FUCKED it all up, refused to do anything because I was pissed off at the idiocy and ignorance of the whole system.. and damn near everyone. Now that I'm older, I'm wise enough to understand that you can't live like that forever. This is the best the world has to offer, and we might as well make the best of it. Seeing as how you aren't happy doing drugs.. you aren't making the best of it, are ya?

I'm going to take a guess and blame it on peer pressure, or want of acceptance of your peers. I know, I'm about to sound like your D.A.R.E. teacher - deal with it. If your friends aren't going to accept you for who you are, then fuck them. I'll say it again. Fuck them. There *are* people who will like you for who you are. There *are* ways to enjoy yourself without being high! And I'm not your grandpa or your dare teacher; I've been smoking since I was your age, and I'm 19. Don't let life pass you by.

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Originally Posted by soldier1944

i think you just got real high..

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Yeah, that's all it is. LOL, I wish could get like that off of some bud, I have to do heavy shit to get there. Just chill, and try to enjoy it, that which does not kill you makes you stronger.

dont get me wrong when i say this....but it sort of sounds like a mental thing like slight mental illness emerging you might have PTSD or even mild psychosis these problems may seem unfathomable or even scary but it really seems like that COULD be the problem ps what i mean is that some people have these sorts of issues and weed belive it or not can actually bring them out