Just remember, Hilder. When one door closes shut, another will open for us. We can only hope to recognize opportunities to learn, and overcome our strife.
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Just remember, Hilder. When one door closes shut, another will open for us. We can only hope to recognize opportunities to learn, and overcome our strife.
This wall u speak of, I know well. When you've been hurt as i have, all I have to protect my self and the only thing thats keeping me from clumbling like stone is that wall I place around my heart. I know thats life, but no one should have to go through what I did and I'm not talking abt "my high school boyfriend leaving me" situation. When ur innocence is taken away against ur will, and the person who's supposed to protect u doesnt give a shit and turns a blind eye will do that to u. I know I have to live with it for the rest of my life, and that it wasnt my fault, I watch Oprah, but nothing no one could ever say will make the past go away. Thankfully i found weed, otherwise i think id go insane. Thanks for ur concern guys and ur kind words but i think its too late for me and im only 23 ha. ima go cry and smoke a bowl. peace - Hilder
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Originally Posted by Hilder420
You will never feel better if you just go smoke a bowl to make the pain go away. It will cause you to have not only an unhealthy relationship with marijuana, but probably most people you meet in the course of the rest of your life. I don't know what happened to you and I'm sure it is something horrible I wouldn't be able to understand, but you can't give up on yourself so easily. It will probably take a good amount of time for the pain to fade but life is too beautiful to let it pass you by. Go out and live and find love.
How many tears have you cried in vain? It's like my dad always tells me, "You're in a gold mine and you don't even know it." The fact is, opportunity is all around. It's wealth in every sense of the word. Don't spend your whole life turning away from it.
my relationship with marijuana in my opinion is not un healthy. my relationship with all the other drugs ive done was unhealthy but i realized thankfully in time that i was not gonna destroy myself over the actions of someone else. i have love in my life, my sister,my friends, my former best friends mom, no romantic love but im now a commitmentphobe so even tho there is a man who loves me, and i might love if only i let myself. But i dont want to ruin his life with my drama. besides i dont know how to tell him. i know i dont want pity from anyone, and i probably need lots and lots of therapy but im not strong enough yet to deal with it all. i used to be so angry, about everything, i thought the world had it in for me. then i found marijuana and my goddess and i think im in the best place im gonna be considering.
You're right. No one wants a relationship built on pity, because when the element for pity has gone, so does the need for it. It's obvious you're thoughts are still tender. At times like these, we can only ask God to give us the strength we need to overcome our problems. And if you don't believe in God, then just conceptualize the action of giving your problems to someone else. If you need someone to talk to, vent to, whatever...just reach out.
i live my life i dont let what happened hold me back but from one aspect of my life. im not afraid to love, i just wont let myself fall in love with a man. I'm not suicidal, i dont sit in my room in the dark cutting myself moaning why me? i live my life like anyone else, i laugh and enjoy my friends i have several little critters who cant get enough of me.
Well, that's fuggin' terrific! My bad for getting like that on you, I should have known that there is only room for one morose loser on these boards, and that is me!
nothin to apologize for, you were doin it out of the goodness of ur heart, i think. and no i dont have anyone to talk to abt this b/c its such a downer. i was brought up to think that if u show weakness, u are weak, and that just doesnt fly. ive been called cold and heartless, b/c i hide my emotions under so many layers that it seems i am heartless uless u know me well enough to know that im just a hurt scared little girl. sigh but an extremely cool stoner and great friend
The 'down' stuff is as much part of reality as the 'up' stuff is. I guess it depends on what you tend to focus on? However, I don't believe that thinking through your problems is weakness. It's like a snake giving birth. For the time she is giving birth, she is undoubtedly vulnerable. Of course, she could lose her life in this trance-like state but if she lives, her babies will grow to be successful parts of the ecosystem. You see, weakness is necessary, and there will always be predators in search for it. Just as there is someone to protect it.