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Life is like a movie. If you've already sat threw half of it and its been shit so far. The ending proberly won't make up to the promise. No one will blame you for walking out early.
Sucide is man's way of telling God "you can't fire me, i quit!"
and a ryme iv heard which goes something like "ill be ok ill be fine. Just let me slit my wrist one last time".
Thats not one of slipknots lyrics is it CPH?
No. They're not even lyrics of any kind. What the fuck...
I wanna slit your throat and fuck the wound
I wanna push my face in and feel the swoon
I wanna dig inside, find a little bit of me
Cuz the line gets crossed when you dont come clean
They're lyrics.
few years ago i thought about, but never went through with it, what would be the point, it would just hurt those around me and i'm not gonna cause that kinda hurt to the ppl i care about, suicide is selfish, to think all troubles will end... yes they will...for the person involved, but what about the ppl still alive who care about u, your only causing them more hurt than anyone commiting suicide has ever experienced..
Don't take life too seriously, No-one gets out alive anyways :p
P.S. This post is not aimed at anyone :D
Quote:
Originally Posted by Wesley Pipes
you are like the moon, always shining,
whether clouds cover your light or not.
you are life.
and life is beautiful.
love.
4 friends.
Robbi Jackson 1980
Vince Setzer 1981
Bob "General" Lee 1988
Mao Tuiososopo 1994
These guys concealed their pain behind their smiles and positive personalities. Its those smiles and gifts of what they brought into this world and shared with others to which they will always be remembered.
They were all good human beings.
Thank you for reading their names.
I've tryed a few times... first time was a complete waste, I was 14 and didn't do any research, just swallowed an entire bottle of unisom. Puked blue. Not fun.
After that I tryed the bag method serveral times, but it would not work. I used alcohol, barbituates, and weed in increasingly large amounts but it wasn't enough to keep me from clawing holes in the bag when I began to asphyxiate.
My last and I believe final attempt came when I took the LD50 of ephedrine. I should have taken the whole damn bottle.
But now I have higher obligations. I hate it, knowing that the final escape is so close but I cannot touch it. God forbid, if my son ever passes away, I will join him quickly but for now, my life is his.
that's why you cut the exhaust pipe off right where it comes off the engine, or if you wanna get maticulous, take it off the way it's designed to come off.Quote:
Originally Posted by Its a Plant
btw, slipknotpsycho again, just too lazy to log off wife's name and log on mine, but she's gonna get mad at me :mad:
This is a weird subject, being afraid of death or not.
Late at night if I think about it, I'm like "I don't wanna die!" but then in the morning and throughout the day, death doesn't seem so scary at all, like I could just die for no reason whilst sitting here now, look back upon it as a ghost *ooo I'm gonna take your soooouuul!* and think nothing of it, it was all good. :)
Had rough patch early this year and done few silly things but wierd thing is I didnt do it so I could die as Im afriad of death it was more to take pain away but made it worse .Anyway Im through it all now and learnt alot from it which has made me so much happier .Id never take that rd again .
Happy Now
Seeya
SweetRed
tried to once last year.
took about 200 pills.
grew up with abuse most of my life so now i've got severe depression. :thumbsup:
im at that crossroad in my life at this point... wish u could ask the ppl who have done it if its reallyworht it?
My ex used to beat the shit out of me and i cut my wrist to get away from him. I didn't care if I bleed to death or not. I just wanted to get away from him.Either by death or an abulance. But I'm not afraid of dying. It gives me peace inside. but i'd have to agree when it's said that when someone truly wants to kill themself they do it quiet. You don't even get a clue. a good friend of mine killed himself 1998. he found a secluded area and stuck the hoose of a wakumeclener from the exhaustpipe to the window. A couple found him the next day. i'll never forget that day. I was wisitting his step sister and the doorbell rang. When I opened the door a priest stood on the starcase asking if their parents where home. That's the creepiest and most disturbing moment in my life.
oh so true...Quote:
but i'd have to agree when it's said that when someone truly wants to kill themself they do it quiet. You don't even get a clue.
They say that another sign is when a person that is normally very "down" seems to have changed his or her mood to a happy one. It could mean that they have resolved to do it, and are relieved.
Paracetamol?Quote:
Originally Posted by SweetRedLips
why not ask the poor family members and m8s left behind if its worth all their pain and self blame?Quote:
Originally Posted by 420 FMX
bunny suicides...
thought i would share
:D http://www.bookofbunnysuicides.com/
Pick me up
been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
I'll stop it some how
I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone
Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Shut me off
I am ready,
Heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be on my own
I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone
Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm running from?
is there nothing more to come? (am I Gunna leave this place?)
Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take it's place?
Am I going to leave this race? (Am I going to leave this race?)
I guess god's up in this place?
what is it that I've become?
is there something more to come? (more to come)
Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Wow, koRn sure are depressin bastards LOL
Im sorry some of you have gone threw so much. I guess im lucky because very bad things happen to people all over the world and it happens to to many people and some of us don't even realise it :(
I thought about it once when I was younger. I had moved from Alabama and had a horrible time adjusting. Just couldn't get along with anyone. Things were messed up at home too and I just thought my life was fucked. The thought would enter my mind occasionally but I never entertained it or plotted out how to do it. Ultimately I learned that all the people that gave me grief didn't matter in my life and there is nothing in this world that can happen that can't be overcome somehow.
LMAO:D i have never tried it but i fully support it! its your life and your choice!Quote:
Originally Posted by whitekat
200 pills? ..... sure :)Quote:
Originally Posted by madteenmind
Once I shot myself with my .22 air rifle. Docs said I only survived because the pellet ricoched off a tooth. Was I hoping to kill myself? Yes.
Would I do it again? If I felt as bad as that again, yes. Although, there are also other factors that would determine if I did it. No Im not talking about family, girlfriends, friends etc. Im too damn selfish to give a shit about all of them when Im feeling depressed.
Yup, many times, but I've grown beyond doing something so selfish....
I used to have a huge cutting problem, I have had thoughts but never did it because I care too much about my dad, and he's all I got left
I agree it is a selfish decision
I'm still depressed as fuck, but I hide it well
ya.. i took it in liquid form so it'd hit me faster & have a stronger toxicity level. it wasn't just one type of medication but several. so pills of different shapes, sizes, & color. i sat thinking for awhile before i drank it all. i came to a conclusion that this day is as good as any. a year from then, i've found out explainations but no answers to end depression. life's tough but who said it was gonna be easy, right? art & cannabis keeps me going :rasta:Quote:
Originally Posted by cannabis campbell
I'm just going to go out and say it. Suicide is for pussies. Now there are a few exceptions but killing yourself because nobody likes you or your jobs going bad or someone you know dies is being a pussy and it's being selfish. If you dont like your life than grow some balls and change it, dont end it.
i've pointed a unloaded pistol to my head, closest i casme, i was depressed and shit
I've seen and I can imagine some prety bad end-of-the-rope shit, so I can't even say you'd have to be a pussy to want to do it. I just found it a little too convenient for myself. It was a pretty real thought in my head for a bit when I pretty much figured I was living for no great and meaningfull reason, though. I was just a pile of cells walking down a street. Why delay the inevitable, eh? Fucken work for the man and if I don't like it I can move somewhere else and work for their man and even after my legs break, they'll still say i owe them money for some shit right? Then I get to sit around and get drunk all day, wow, life is so usefull... I dunno... I used to think like that... some stuff happened and I really don't notice those thoughts anymore. I get all sad and pissed for other reasons now. Dunno... Its kinda murdering yourself because you don't want o be yourself anymore or something. Still dunno... Seems like most people I see or know that talk about suicide just want everything to stop, even themselves. I can get very sad at times, but I don't want it to stop. I have a life and I might as well live it while I have the time to. I don't want to stop existing because I am sad. At least being sad is being something. I'm more afraid of not being able to think than I am of the capacity to think myself into being sad. I can always manage to find something silver to all of it. I have to look very hard and sometimes for days, but I do find it. I dunno... I don't take much comfort in being sad and I try to fix it... and I sure as hell don't get sad because of other people in my life making their own decisions and all the other shit people think they need to blame themselves for... Whatever... Suicide is gay... Maybe not a pussy's way out, but for sure the fucking nimrod's, imo.
If you're too stupid to stop being sad or do something with yourself that makes you happy, then maybe you just don't know any better. Its not a cuddly answer, but its how I really feel about the whole scene.
Either way, too bad you can't ask someone that's already done it if it was worth it gets my vote.
This thread is a very good read.
From my point of view, I think that anyone who has taken their own life misses something from the world. Whether it's the grass, the way it smells right after it starts raining, or how leather feels, it's something. To say that nothing will be missed is a lie. The world is full of so many amazing things that I could never take myself out of such a place when there is so much left to see and experience. And those experiences, I think, are also what people miss. I mean, come on, remember all those concerts you and your buddies went to, front row and moshing with so much excitement surrounding you? Or the day your child was born (if you have one that is). I think that even the slightest possibility of moments like that happening is reason enough to live every single day I have in me. Suicide is cheating yourself from what the world has to offer.
Your thoughts are similar to a poem I wrote. This is what I do everytime I feel depressed, and have suicide thoughts, I escape to nature.
Natural Escape
Observe the beauty around your eyes
Digest the sounds and the natural high
Reflections of nature's mirror
Gauging your soul by the river
The trees, the greenery, the liberation
Escaping the modern distraction
Computers, cell phones, electronics
disconnection, and political phonics
hatred, racism, and soul decay
humanity slowly being lead astray
Escape your materials for a moment
To see the world still has charm.