Im sorry man, i've seen that kinda thing and i know exacly how you feel, but are you phycic?
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Im sorry man, i've seen that kinda thing and i know exacly how you feel, but are you phycic?
again thank you guys
today is a struggle
no one around me knows
about what happened
the thing thats hardest for me
is to do nothing
i am a doer not a sayer
if it wasnt for my kids
id be out hunting right now
im naturally born
so its hard for me to do nothing
damn dude
i cant even imagine how you are feeling right now
dude
im soooo sorry
from the bottom of my heart
im sorry for your loss dude
its gonna be another long night
thank you everybody for just
letting me get this shit out
i feel better than i did this morning
R.I.P P-Wee
I love how you guys lap this shit up like dogs.The best part about it all is it could be fake.Like some big reality TV show...AMERICA IS WAITING!
Void, seriously, just this once, shut the fuck up
yeah dudeQuote:
Originally Posted by VoidLivesOn
i agree with spicoli
this is no time
for you to be spewing bullshit
out of your mouth
fuckin asshole
please shut the fuck up
ever need to talk privately tell me your sn for aol/aim i have all people blocked not on it, but dude i've been through something very similar, if you ain't got noone else to relate to, to know what you feel, to know those thoughts that go through your head of 'what if' which are the worst, becuase when they're gone, all you can do is think of all the diffrent ways of how you could of saved them, how things could have been diffrent. and that's not a good train of thought, trust me, as long as you blame yourself (not saying you are, but i did, and mom still does) nothing will go away, and it will only get worse... if you plan on going to the funeral do what i did, look him in his 'eyes' or directly at this face, and say everything you wanted to say, after i did all that with my bro i touched his hand, and simply said 'goodbye bro, i hope your better off' and after that it kinda sucked in finally, that he's gone, and ther'es nothing i can, but straighten out me and my other brother (which is impssoble, but someday when i have the means i will) so that my mom (even tho ihate her) doesn't have to go through this all over again. i'm what gives her her strenght, i'm the shoulder she cries on, for hours.. i'm the oldest, so i feel i'ts my responsiblity to try and keep everyone together, try to keep everyone stable.. i don't know how old you are, but i'm 20 and i've gone through in my life more then most average 40 year olds.. i'm very insightful (tho ihave problems putting it in words) and maybe if you feel you need it let me know... send me an email to [email protected] with the name you can be contacted wtih through aim/aol.... and i'm on ALL the time, but i'm not always on aol...Quote:
Originally Posted by friendowl
dude you're just a plain out dickhead. even if he's lying, death isn't something you play around with, you give sympathy to the person, and try to help them cope with their loss, you don't just assume they're lying. friendowl sent bud to people, and they actually got it, he earned much respect from me... look if he's lying (i really don't think you are, i believe you, cuz this world is just fucked, and i know how street life is, i'm not stupid... that type of shit happens daily, it's just mindblowing when it happens to someone you know, and even more so when you're the one holding him afterwards.) then oh well, you don't accuse him of lying, especially on something like this, sure the kid saying he can get an oz of chron. for 20 you can call him a liar .. but just think how shitty you'd feel, if you found it it was true... think before you speak(type)Quote:
I love how you guys lap this shit up like dogs.The best part about it all is it could be fake.Like some big reality TV show...AMERICA IS WAITING!
and all macho bullshit aside, if you lived near me, and i had posted about what happened to my brother, and you said i was lying, i'd beat your head in with a pipe, just for disgracing my brothers death with an insult of it being a lie. and trust me, i have the balls to carry it out... if you wanna find a way out here, then come, otherwise i'm done with the internet fueding for the night
friendowl, i really feel a connection to you, cuz i can almost know exactl what you're going through, the only diffrence is i didn't see it happen, but i can still see it in my mind, they said his organs were all over the place... got my mom into 100's of thousands of dollars of debt it just fucking makes me so angry when i think about it.... personally, if i had the means, i'd find him, and i'd make him suffer, (talking about me and my brother, not you and your hommie) ij'm not talking about hour-two hour beatings.. i'd make him feel the pain my brother had to feel witha gaping whole in his chest, seeing his blood everywhere, the fear of never seeing anyone he loves anymore, for taking one of the only family members that even cared about me, away from me. i won't go into details, but lets just say, i'd kidnap him and start the torture immedieatly, and he'd be found just barely alive in a hosptial parking lot, i also know alot about what the human body can take, and what's fatal and what's not... if i didn't have a wife and kid i loved with all my heart... that mother fucker would have wished he was never born, i'd make his last blood curdling screams 'i'm sorry'... i'd make him suffer for 14 days, starting off with just slight pain, and working my way up to near mortal wounds.... but i kept a clear head... man you can too.. i have faith... just relax, don't watch tv or anyting, don't use any mind altering chemicals, sit in a chair for hours, and just think... not about just anything, just think... if you do it right, you'll know why...
hours and hours later^^Quote:
i'd make him feel the pain my brother had to feel witha gaping whole in his chest, seeing his blood everywhere, the fear of never seeing anyone he loves anymore, for taking one of the only family members that even cared about me, away from me. i won't go into details, but lets just say, i'd kidnap him and start the torture immedieatly, and he'd be found just barely alive in a hosptial parking lot
Friendowl...
Two wrongs dont make a right - but its a damn good start...
Do what the IRA used to do, take him to someplace where no-one will hear a thing... then get the Black & Decker out and have some fun with his kneecaps.
Friendowl, dude. Sorry about your friend. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I will think about them.
I'm speechless. Rip P-wee :( I hope you pull through ok Owl.
sometimes i think i have it bad. man that is so sad. i cant even imagine the pain you must be going through. Take care of yourself man, things will get better. One day....it could be today...or tomorrow...or even in a year...something will change...something will snap and everything will feel peaceful again, just hang in there man
peace
R.I.P P-wee
i can't beleive you just said that. I can tell from your attitude you are an ignorant, selfish cunt with no compassion. These boards would be alot more friendly with out such dickface comments like yours. Learn from your mistakesQuote:
Originally Posted by VoidLivesOn
Friendowl, whenever youre missing yer homie, just look up at the clouds and know that hes sitting up there, toking a J and jammin on his harp with all the other homies.
Trauma from death experiences work a little funny. It hits extremely hard at first, but can ultimately be supressed for a time. You 'will' have to deal with this Sober, and it won't be easy. But after do, you will be able to live with it, and maybe even find a little peace. It will probably be a slow process, but it 'will' pass in time.
Not to change the subject, but my 30 year old brother died not too long ago, but I've been able to work it out. Granted, he wasn't shot point blank in front of me, but the death of someone you love (No matter how they go) is hard. Truama, and saddness (Maybe anger) is was you have to face right now, and I know a little about that.
I don't talk about this, (At all) but I killed an 80 year old man when I was 19, and the truama nearly killed 'Me'. It was an accident, but a man died because of me. I still think about it from time to time, but I've mostly let it go, and dealt with the truama from that experience. It wasn't easy, though.
After it happened, my entire family came over to comfort me, but I didn't want to talk about it, or be around them; I ended up going to my girlfriends house (Who knew nothing) and spent the night with her. (She only found out the next day.) It was nice to remove myself from it all for a while, because it certainly helped; my nerves benefited the most, as this gave me a chance to supress it for a while, and it allowed me to get myself together.
Don't keep boozing it up, bro...it will only make it worse when you come down. This is exactly what I did when my brother died, and it scared the hell out of my mother. I ended up writing about a night I had after he died, and it helped. (A little) I know you like to rhyme, so perhaps puting it all on paper may help you?
Can I share something with you, man? I think I can relate to your condition,(In a way) and want to share what I wrote about my brother, and a whiskey night in pain.
'I Loved Him Too'
The bottle beside my bed
taunts my anguish.
The gun pressed firmly against my temple
longs to reunite.
The race is not yet over,
but it could be with a twitch of my finger.
Then, I could join my brother,
and together we could face the other side.
Is it fair for any to go alone?
The great unknown intrigues my curiosity...
Does he need me by his side?
In a fit of drunken rage,
I pull the trigger!
The gun now pointed at the bottle
beside my bed.
Mother runs in screaming.
She seeâ??s me on my knees...
howling at the absent moon.
I look in her eyes...
I break down crying.
Terrified and shaking,
she says to me:
â??Jamie, I loved him, tooâ?
Alcohol makes you do stupid things, and it sometimes makes you focus on what's hurting the most. I nearly took my life that night (Drunk) and I scared the absolute piss out of my mother. You're probably angry as well, and you should know that "anger and alcohol DON'T MIX!"
What I did after I 'accidentaly' killed that old man works much better, bro. Spend your time with someone you love! Then deal with it slowly (daily) until the pain is nearly gone... It does go away, (Mostly)
You just have to give it some time.
Much Love, bro!
dude!! that is fucked!!:(
I'm truly sorry to hear of your loss
You'll be in my thoughts and prayers...
All the best dude!!
friendowl, you know everyone here is your friend.
we all love u homie
i know how that is its hard to see...i seen my best friend shot in the head by a drive by right as i was about to cross the street and talk to him he was alot of a better guy than i am and it wasnt right when i think about it all the stuff ive done and been through it should have been me but all i can tell you is that nothing is going to help drugs/alchohol anything i chose a different path to cure it but thats in the past...stay strong man
speak for yourself.Quote:
Originally Posted by d00d989
waddup big owl. im sorry 2 hear about ur homies death. rip peewee. I hope u keep your head on your shoulders and keep ur head up high dogg. im sure everyday your lil girl wakes up and puts a smile on her face that your there in her presense.
I guess this thread is closed! DON'T carry it to others!
Good call Psycho, this exactly the kinda stuff we discourage.. "Speak For Yourself" is in no way negative. It may have not be terribly sympathetic, no...but it shouldn't instigate and certainly doesn't excuse insanely derogitory language like I've seen tonight. So everyone relax. What happened (If true) is a sad thing...but it doesn't mean everyone is required show their condolences.
My mother once told me...If ya have nothing nice to say...then you probably shouldn't be saying it.
One last try..........if this progresses like last time I'll just delete the damn thing. There are about the same amount of deleted posts in this as their are published ones.
DAMN, is it a full moon tonight?
Chill down people and enjoy the board....were all stoners, lets get along!:thumbsup:
If I had kids and I could move I would be off like a shot.(maybe wrong choice of words but just an expression)Quote:
Originally Posted by rhino44
My heart goes out to you friendowl and all others that live in places where guns are so commonly used.I couldnt live in an area like that and stay sane I mean its like something out of a film.
You know in the movies where something tragic will happen to something to some guy, and instead of retaliating, he sucks it all up and becomes a stronger person on the inside. This token movie character can be you if you resist the urge to get revenge.
What doesnt kill you only makes you stronger ~ not exactly sure where it came from but its true.
what happened to my post?
thanks all you cool stoner people
life is crazy sometimes
here i dont talk to people about shit
its good to atleast write about it on here
all your words got mr thru some hard times
ive been thinking and smoking alot more than normal these days