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I have been through alot. Growing up, I thought it was perfectly normal for husbands to lock their wife outside in the cold, to cuss at them, to shove them down on the floor, and much more. My dad is dead now, but those are the things he did to my mom, and to me to a lesser extent.
I have been through other things as well, but they are things I would rather not share with the world.
Sam, thank you, i find it very easy to ignore ignorant people these days..they do nothing but show their true intelligence level. which obviously isnt much to worry about.
:)
ill admit, ive had a few suhl-like posts
I read my horrorscope for the first time a few weeks ago"from a post here BTW"... It read that my life is one trama after another and man is that true!!! I feel like the minute I solved one tragedy the next one rears it's ugly head... I am always battling and never at peace...
sounds like my life... but the bad part is i'm just now begining my life.... =/Quote:
Originally Posted by Skink
We peeps just need to keep positive I guess... If we dwell on the bad it will end in defeat,,,Keep positive Slip...Quote:
Originally Posted by slipknotpsycho
i've been keepin it positive, or trying to atleast...
i garuntee you otherwise i woulda flipped out over hearing my brother is moving to TN... but no, i was determined (and still am, one hurdle isn't enough, i wanna make the whole race consistant lol..) to keep calm, and think about it logically....
Just want to say another thing... there are many things I want to control,,,if your like me you are a control freak to... We can't really control everything and I lose it at that point because now my neat orderly plan won't work... I learned to throw this shit to my higher power...
I know you don't believe in God but,,, believe in something,,,energy,,,mr smiley face,,, anything and lay some shit in thier hands... there is something throwing shit at you ,,,Why not throw it back...
lol skink, finally your name is bolded! now you can wear your crown in all your true glory (you luck bastard ~runs off mumbling...~
yes i'm a control freak, i fucking hate things being out of my control... (isn't it kinda funny i married a control freak too? yet, lol we don't put 'control freak type shit on our baby... but everything else of our life.. WATCH THE FUCK OUT! lmfao!)
i'm slowly learning to let shit go... it's kinda hard at first, but i'm learning...
also, i do believe in something, i just don't believe in 'god'.. mostly the way the bible is... i believe there's a higher power, i mean damnit, you'd be naive to think all this happened for no reason at all... but i just like to sum it up in the name karma...
do to others as you would have them do to you, has never steered me wrong NEVER... the bible, i've read it quite a few times, i just find to many inconsistancies.... i stopped believing in the christain-type god along time ago, but i do beleive there is something up there, watching us.. i do believe there is something there, with a guiding hand that helps us through things..
but i just call it karma. do bad, you will have bad thrown upon you, do good you will be blessed with good.... and by that i've tried to live my life as good as i possiblly can (by good i mean from a moral standpoint, not just what makes me feel good) and i was given my son.. which is a whole nother story... lol)
Damn Slip, every word you said about yourself fits me to a t. I am in the exact situation with my control freak fiancee. Yes I most definitely am a control freak big time. Im so bad i dont even fly anymore. Its not that i am afraid of flying its two things. The first being Im not flying the plane and its too far out of my control. Secondly, if by some chance someone decides to act a fool on the plane, i WILL be a problem. I live my life in survivor mode at all times and my will to live may kick in a little too early now and things will get way out of control..guess thats another reason i stay away from people.
Yeah im with you on the religion. I definitely believe there is a God but I also believe God lies in you and your heart along with karma. Project good karma to people and the same will come to you. I look at it like this, i dont bother anyone, noone should bother me. All i ask is to be left alone by people. Should you choose to cross the line and pose a threat to me then, well just be prepared to reap the whirlwind.
Ive also noticed that now its like i cant turn my brain off. its constantly going and moving and i have become obsessed with reading and learning new shit about anything and everything. its like somebody opened up a door inside my brain and i cant close it.
Yes i know i am really fucked up and i didnt realize it until i found myself camped out in front of the guys moms house ready to go in and do the same thing he had done to me. I can remember having these flashes of my daughter going through me head and i guess then i took it as a sign from somewhere that I was about to send my daughter through the exact same thing we had just been though and that i just couldnt do. Not to mention i really aint comfortable knowing that my name has flown around in the homocide department as to being a serial murderer.
Anyway i just take it day by day for now and keep my nose clean.